Nurse Spencer03

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I have  alot of things going on in my life, I am being pulled in so many different ways. But one thing tht is not leaving my side is my weight. This struggle is consuming me.  I want to one day just maintain, but that is not going on in my world. So I am going to rededicate myself to myself. I need to thnk of me, My health, my life. Starting at 0500 on 3/23/08, I am not going to promise myself anyhting, I m just going to redecidate every day and put me first.

Today is my 33rd birthday. I had left thyriodectomy on Monday and I'm still recuperating. this year has been crazy. But my weight has been a challenge. I got down to 194 in march and now I'm at 217. this is the highest I have been. Where is my DS? she is sleep this week because of he anesthesia and the narcotics I have been on. I have not had a BM in a week. I know TMI but its very disturbing when you are used to going every day if your life.
anywhoo. Things are getting intense now. for the last year I have been finishing my prerequisites so that I can start my RN to BSN and then my FNP. well its starts Monday.!! Classes Finally start on Monday. I am nervous but ready to get it started and done. I need to take handle of my weight again. So I am going to start to trying to figure out what wagon I need to jump on so I can finish this thing already.
until next time...

I have not been eating right or exercising and my cruise is coming up. I need to get on the ball.So starting June 1 I am going to do a challenge first a 4th of july challenge then a crusie challenge. I am going to challenge myself to drink 64 oz of water daily (at least) and excersise of some sort 3 times a week. I have to low carb it because that is the way to go for me. Medifast was great but it got real old real quick I lost a total of 17 pounds and I have gained it all but 5 pounds back. so thats no good. So I will also try to check in daily to record my progress and get more active on the board. until next time....

Well it has been a month since I started Medifast and I must say things have ben nice. I have lost a total of 15 pounds and I am truly feeling better about me. I took off this weekend because I really miss food. But I am going back for my last 10 pounds. DH is on and has had great results. I am going to get back to exercising this week to step up my game. I really want to start running. I went out with a bunch of my co workers and for the first time in 12 years I must say that I love the way I looked. I loved all the compliments and I love the way my clothes looked. I did not wear a girdle that night, could you believe it. I had on sexy undies. It was wonderful.. Until next time. I will report back in a month with some success....ttfn

Well my first week on MF is complete and I am down 9lbs. It feels good but iI am a little nervous tht I cant break that 200 again. The Diet is pretty good. I m used to the food and have order a nother 2weeks. Next week I am going home so I m nervous about eating but I m going to take it one day at a time. So I am off to work....One ting about MF , you basically eat alot like we do with WLS, 6 small meals about every 2-3 hours. I know my puch is still alive because I cant eat hardly anything ( Imiss that feeling) SO know that I am okay with the diet I have to add exercise which means pulling out the elliptical and kicking rocks. My cruise is in August so I have 16 pounds to goal!!!

Today I started Medifast. I have been researching it for some time now and I like its no brainer option. 5 mf meals and 1 lean and rean which for me will be chicken or fish and  salad. they have a website and the people on the plan are dropping weight like crazy. the whole plan is just like atkins you eat low carb but also low fat and calorie. you have to count nothing you just it the foods, (shakes,soups,bars,puddings oatmeal) and lean and green. I have to give it my all because I want to get these 30 pounds off for good. and, its not that cheap eihe so is a bit of an investment. and my husand is eatching me because he wants to do it but wants to see if ti works.
So this morning I had the peach oatmeal that was nasty as hell, but I did it  I m not a oatmeal eater so its going to be hard. I am exited because If I just stick to it it will happen... so I ill post next week my results of my 1st week...

This morning I am having an EGD with a Dr. Wilson downtown to checl out my anatomy, I was checking out the stomphyx because in my heart of hearts I feel like I should have lost more weight, well I went back and forward with doing this only to say why not because if I dont I guess I willnever know is it me hendering myself form losing or  is it the surgery. I get some many compliments from people that I look good and I am so blessed to be proportioned but all i want is 30 more I will see what this physcain tells me and then its on,I have 7 months until my cruise with my ladies in august and I want to be confortable . so I will update my egd findings later...
peace and love
nurse spencer

Well just a little update,
Things are going good I;m getting use to being in school again,I have to learn how to juggle family and work and school, but we are doin it, Dear hubby is in school at 2 different locations with work ,fam, and school I am very proud of him!!! Jay is etting bigger and snmarter by the minute, I cant believe what she says some times. As for the weightloss, very slowww, Im not tryin BUT I ma get my push back!!! I want to lose 10 pounds by turkey day with a total of 15 pounds by christmas My total wieght lost goal before my crusie next year is 25 pounds. Im hostin a ladies only cruise to mexico and Im really excited I have a bunch of ladies who want to go and its only us!!! family stay at home!!! I want to look and feel nice Its not a large amount of weight for the average person but its a challenge for me, I still want me TT but  I will reconsider after my 25 pound weight loss,im going to start low carb today me and DH and see how much we can lose I m try to work out at least 2 days a week on the days I have to go to school since I have those days to my self!! so family wish me look
TTFN

Well just thought I would stop buty and drop a post. Things are going very welll. I 'm down to 197 this morning, I really have been changing my eating, a little, so maybe I will lose another couple of pounds. I have become a Spinner!!  thats right fam I finally concoiured my fears and took a spin class and it was fun as hell!!! I So much fun that when I made my schedule for next month at work I took off tues/thurs so that I can go. Im hoping to run my first 5k next year if i put my mind/body into it. Any whoo, Family is good life is good until my next update.....

Well as of saturday I am 1year post op. I have alot of mix feelings about my outcome but iam very blessed to have had a second chance. 
No I did not lose 100 pounds after my revision, but god knows I feel like I do.
I have not been under 200 pounds since 1997..I wish I would have lost more but the battle is not over.  this morning I weighed in at 198.2!! My over goal is to be 180, thats not a huge goal, but for me that is a major ccomplishment. Reflecting on my revision surgery, Wls does not change your thinking, I feel that people think that that is so, but you have to encourage yourself daily, you have to know that you are still an enotional eater if you were before wls, My biggest advise to WLS pts, is to reconize what your weakness are and work on them.  The weight is going to fall off, but you need to work on your thoughts/mind.. Even though I can only eat a small portion, When My mother moved back to NEw orleans, I turned to small portions of food, when I miss my grandmother who is far away in chicago I pick up something to eat. Every one is not the same and I know that but just know that WLS does mot fix your mind... until my next post stay postive, live laugh and love!!!
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