Zzzzzzzzz...when do I return to normal?

Aug 22, 2009

Not quite a week out yet. I feel okay, mostly. I'm tired all of the time. Just taking a shower yesterday made me light-headed. I ended up having to rest afterwards. Pain is mostly in incisions when I laugh or move in a way that pulls them (like trying to bend over, or rolling over to get out of bed).  Other than that, my pain is in my back, from compensating for my weakened ab muscles.

I've only noticed two other problems:

1. I have no appetite. I "eat" (as in, drink my protein shakes) because I know I need to.

2. I almost always feel as though there is something stuck in my throat. I've felt that way pretty well since the barium meal for the leak test. It's not low enough to be my pouch. It's high, right at the base of my throat/upper chest area.

I haven't experienced regret exactly. I have some regret at the amount of trauma I've inflicted on my body. I don't regret the smaller stomach or limited meals. I regret the physical limitations that come with major surgery--the inability to bend over, lift, etc.  I'm only taking pain pills at night, before bed, and only to ease the pain in my back. I woke up at 3 this morning (went to bed about 10), and spent the rest of the night sleeping upright on the couch. I need an adjustment, but I can't begin to figure out how that's going to happen when putting any kind of pressure on my stomach hurts.

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