July 18,2006

Jul 18, 2006

I have lost more weight and now weigh 190 lbs. I feel great. I have been able to do so much physically than ever before. I am however, constantly aware of everything i eat. Not to say that i don't fall off the wagon from time to time, but i am always aware of it, and try to turn things around. I am still very very slowly losing. I want so bad to get down to 175. We shall see. Emotionally, i am still st ruggling a little. I am so much stronger than i ever was, and DH doesn't quite know how to handle it. I am insisting on more respect than he is willing to give me right now.

January 22-06

Jan 22, 2006

Thought it was time for an update. I am feeling great physically. My body seems to be thanking me for this wonderful gift. Emotionally i am still battleing depression. My doctor and i are adjusting meds accordingly. Probably due to hormonal changes in my body. I have lost 142 lbs. I still need to lose 30 more and realize that the last 30 is the hardest. I am still completely conscience of everything that goes in my mouth. Some days its not always good. I try not to beat myself up too bad, and just get back on track the next day. I do allow myself to enjoy food, just very small allowences. If that makes sence at all. I have so many people that tell me how good i look, i just still don't see it some days. I am a little dissapointed that i am not at all prettier. I was hoping for a miracle, i guess.

I am very glad the holidays are over. Between food and parties and the endless stress of buying presents that i can't really afford, takes toll on one's nerves. I didn't really lose anthing during the seasons, however i also didn't gain. I think my body was going thru an adjustment phase. As soon as the holidays were over, the scale started to move a little. Wahhooooo! Almost into wonderland. I can't wait. Love and hugs to you

Dec-06-05

Dec 06, 2005

well its coming up on christmas and my one year anniversary. I feel great. some days i stress too much over what i eat, and other days i don't. I try to watch my calories, and carbs. I am also trying to keep a close eye on my protein intake. Need to make sure that it stays high. The holiday's are upon us. I am already a little worried about all the treats and such. I am having a hard time with my willpower some days. Unfortunentaly i don't dump. Some days i will get an upset stomach for a bit, but not very often. I am currently wearing a size 18 pants. I also have my scrubs for work and they are all xl's.Haven't ever been in an XL. I have a new puppy. Her name is sophie. She is a black pomeranian. I absolutley adore her. she has everyone in the house wrapped around her little paw. She is 13 weeks old now and weighs just under 2 lbs. Breeder thinks she will only get about 4 or 5 lbs. I am taking her this weekend to get her pictures taken with santa. hugs to you. Merry Christmas

Sept 11, 2005

Sep 11, 2005

It's been so long since i last updated. I really need to keep up with this a little more. Gosh where to begin... Well I am feeling better than i have in years. It's hard to believe that I carried around that much weight. I have lost 113 lbs. so far. I can breath so much better. I have changed so much during this journey. Not just physically but spiratually as well. I kinda have a different approach on my life, than before. I have decided that I can if need be self sufficient. (What i mean is this... I will be married 15 years next week. DH and I have ups and downs. He is a wonderful husband and father, but we both take this relationship for granted. Some days I feel as though I could never live without him, and other days I know that I would be alright.) All and All I have always had a great relationship with Jim. I just realize that I could do things on my own if need be. I have been married since I was 19. We have been together since I was 15 though. I also realize that being married so young and still in love, is nuttin to sneeze at. He is a great supporter of my health and happiness, But just like me he takes "us" for granted. Guess It could be worse, I really shouldn't bitch. Why am I telling you all of this? Because i just felt that I wanted to share a little about myself, that wasn't always related to WLS. Does that make sense? I also never really talked much about my other love of my life. I have a beautiful 13 year old daughter that the good lord above blessed me with. I got pregnant with her, before we knew that I had PCOS. We were never able to have more children. We tried for 10 Years. Her name is Nicole and she looks exactly like me. I mean exactly. It's like having a miniature "me" running around. Course, thank goodness she hasn't yet developed a weight problem. She looks like me only thin. She has been a great supporter of my surgery as well. This surgery saved my life. We all knew it.
Gosh your probably tired of reading this by now. I just felt like talking and reflecting on myself and my life a bit. Health wise, I feel terrific. Unfortunantly after losing 113lbs, I am still wearing plus size clothes. I am currently in a size 22W top and bottom. This really bothers me, but my mom keeps reminding me that i started out in a size 34W. Hopefully soon i will get my new picture on. Until then. Love and Hugs 

Well i see my new picture made it. I have currently went down another size. I am in a 20W bottom and a 20/22 top. My weight is still coming off steadily, thank goodness. It's starting to get that time of year when Jim gets laid off and money gets real tight. Starting to get a little depressed about it. I try to remember that it only lasts a couple of months. I had an ultrasound done last month to check the cysts on my ovaries. Uh the technition says that i don't have any cysts? Not sure how that's possible, but she says they look fine. Wondering now if the cysts are permenent or if they get better after so much weightloss. My endo ran tons of bloodwork a couple of years ago to confirm that i do have pcos. I don't know, kinda strange. I HAVE THE CHIN HAIR to prove it.
I currnetly weigh 219 lbs. Starting to creep up on the onderland. Oh happy day! TTFN



04-09-05

Apr 09, 2005

Just felt that it was time for an update. Weightloss is around 62-64 lbs lost. think I kinda hit a stall the last couple weeks. I just keep wishing that i could see a bigger difference in my clothes. I havn't had to buy too much yet, except for my one new pair of jeans. My best friend was able to lend me 6 new pair of scrubs, so I haven't needed anything new for work yet. Pcp has takent me off of insulin altogether. And also took me off of meds for blood pressure. My migraines have started to settle down a bit thank goodness. It is amazing how you start to become so anxious about getting the weight off, that sometimes you forget how much you have really lost. I would have never been able to lose 60+ lbs, yet here I am feeling upset with myself that i haven't lost enough yet.

03-19-05

Mar 19, 2005

I didn't realize it had been this long since i'd updated. I went back to work. No problems so far . I seem to be able to keep up. I have had an unusually large amount of migraines lately. My pcp thinks its the hormonal changes going on with my body getting used to the new eating habits. She put me on Inderal as a preventative med for them. Hopefully i wont get too many more. My birthday is next sunday on Easter. I wanted to be down 65lbs by then, looks like i will get close but probaly not make it the full 65. Hubby goes back to work in a few weeks thank god!! the money is killing us. That alone will relieve alot of stress. I had to go buy a pair of jeans a few weeks ago and bought a pair of 26W. My preop pair were a 34W woo hoo!

01-31-05

Jan 31, 2005

Well let's see I had my post op appt and have lost 25 lbs in about 3 weeks. I also came down with bronchitis, so had to see my pcp for antibiotics. I think the bronchitis slowed me down a bit and set me back, but hopefully i'll get to feeling better. Really depressed and unhappy in general right now,making hubby miserable. He is laid off in the winter so he's been home with me every day. He's driving me nuts too god love him. Start back to work some today, just 4 hours 2 times this week. I go back full time on Valentines day. will write soon

01-18-05

Jan 18, 2005

Finally feeling able to update. Surgery went really well. I did have a rather large spike in my bp and they said I fought them going under. I don't remember this though. Starting to get cabin fever. Eating and food is really difficult right now. Fighting head hunger and cravings, even though I am not hungry. My incision is healed very well up to this point. It's about 8 inches long. Started on pureed foods last sunday. Already getting tired of mashed potatoes. I had a pcp appt 6 days post op and had lost 17.5 lbs!! Its been 13 days now and i don't have a scale so will have to weight till my 3week post op with surgeon. I am a little depressed lately, but trying to work throughit. Oh by the way, my pcp took me off of my u500 insulin and put me on a u100 insulin so i am finally starting to feel as though this surgery was worth it. I think you are on an emotional rollercoaster right after surgery. I will up date soon. Thanks to sherri for my beautiful profile! hugs and kisses

Dec 28, 2004

Dec 28, 2004

Thank goodness christmas is over. This year was so very stressful with my upcoming surgery. Next year will be better. Got a call today from St. V's. my lab results were good, however i need to take some iron as it was a bit low prior to surgery. Bought some extra big cotton elastic waist pants to wear home from hospital. My jeans wouldn't be too comfortable on my insicion. Starting to get really scared and nervous

Dec 24, 2004

Dec 24, 2004

had all my PAT's yesterday. What a long and stressful day. 7am till 3pm. So far, so good. Merry Christmas to everyone.

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01/05/2005
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Sep 16, 2004
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