Update on my Insurance Process

Sep 22, 2015

It's been a while since I've posted! I'll apologize now for this being so long. Like you're about to read a book! lol When I left off I was at month 4 and hadn't yet had my sleep study. I have now had my CPAP for about a month and I'm currently trying to get my rainout issues under control. It's really very annoying. I just can't seem to get use to wearing a mask every night. The doctor says I may also need my tonsils out once I get some weight off. On the bright side, I'm now getting treatment for a serious condition that I didn't know I had and it's a comorbidity closer to insurance approval.. not that I want to be sick. I recently had surgery on my arm where they discovered a precancer. I had to have the area excised and stitched up. My latest biopsy was all clear so that was yet another issue averted. I'm obviously still seeing my Dr for my fibro and I also recently started seeing a doctor for all my horrible joint pain. There's a reason I've gained so much and it isn't just my eating habits! lol I obviously have some issues. Anyway, this isn't the first orthopedic dr I've seen. I've had to have physical therapy over my knees and everything but I still have problems. I have osteoarthritis and chondromalacia. The Dr thinks I may need surgery on my knees to relieve pressure from the kneecaps. I've had issues with my knees since I was a teenager even before I gained the weight so I know something has to be done for sure. He also thought a carpal tunnel surgery may be necessary. I had an MRI of the knees and I'm suppose to be going in for nerve testing to reconfirm that I have carpal tunnel before I have a follow up. Here's the thing though, knee surgery scares me like 1000x worse than a weight loss surgery! Which brings me to my last issue, migraines! I have a bad neck to go along with all of my other issues. There is no curve to my neck. I think it's called cervical kyphosis. You couldn't look at me and tell that I have so much going on but it's there. lol When my headaches get really bad I have to see my chiropractor and I always stop going once my issues are fixed. Last week I had a horrible migraine that I had to go in and get the pain & nausea shots for which I never do. I usually just deal with the pain. I started seeing my chiropractor again and my knee issues came up. I never thought to talk to him about my knees! He adjusted my hips and knees and it helped immensely! That being said, I will be putting off the orthopedic specialist as long as possible and am more determined than ever to keep up with my chiropractic visits. As you can tell I've being going hard core trying to get my health on the right track. I want my knees, neck and headaches to cooperate long enough to get through workouts and I'm beyond sick of being sick! Oct 1st will be my 6 month weight checkup with the pcp! All of my paperwork will officially be in and ready to be resent off for insurance. If they deny me again I'm sure I'll be twice as devastated as before but I won't give up. I'll be appealing their decision. I feel like I've done my part. I meet the weight standards, I have comorbidities, I've done my 6 months and paid every week for insurance to pay my bills... I will have my surgery!! lol Now you know where I am physically, there's no way  to explain all I'm dealing with mentally & emotionally. I'm terrified of the surgery, that something will go wrong or the surgery will fail for me. I'm terrified of being denied by insurance and terrified of not being denied and facing the surgery. I hate going to the Dr so all of these doctor appointments are draining and this is just concerning my health. I have a whole world revolving around this struggle to be healthy.. a husband and 2 very, very busy kids 8 & 13 yrs old. Both are straight A students and extremely active. My daughter is in 8th grade. She is currently a cheerleader while doing gymnastics, archery, beta club, academic team, youth services for her school and she's also active in church. My son is a 3rd grader who plays both football and basketball this season while taking MMA classes. She has braces while he's in the process of having his put on.. between my doctor appointments, my kids appointments, practices, games, homework and the remodeling of 2 rooms in my house.. I feel like I'm battling a hurricane. I've decided to keep my surgery somewhat private so I can't expect everyone to know they need to back off but I just cant be this horribly involved sports mom right now, working concessions, throwing parties.. I just can't explain why. I'd for sure say I'm a hot mess of stress and emotion. lol For once I have to take the time to take care of the things I haven't wanted to face, even if that means I look selfish. They may not understand that they are a big reason why I need to do this but maybe one day they will. They are actually very considerate kids but it doesn't stop me from feeling like I'm being selfish. I just keep pushing past it, pushing forward. I made myself a motivation wall inside my closet door to help keep me reminded of every reason that this is so important. The surgery is going to happen. I won't stop until it does, I just hope that it's enough to help me get my life on the right track.

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