I got Married!! My husband and I tied the knot on 10/14/07. I am down 112lbs in these pics!!! Enjoy them!






Here are some honeymoon shots.




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Thanks for stopping by. My name is Crystal and I am 24. Everything in my life is going great except my health and weight. I have the most wonderful boyfriend in the world and I have really a great job. I work for my local cable company and I do tech support for computers. I have a degree in networking and computer technology. I build and fix pcs. I LOVE videogames. My family, my boyfriend, videogames and computers are my life. I am slightly freaky looking :). I have purple hair and about 20 piercings now. I also have a full backpiece of all videogame characters. 




My boyfriend really does a great job of making me feel beautiful and loved but I know deep inside that being over weight is not who I am. I feel like I am lost in my body. I just don’t feel right; at times I even feel monstrous which is so upsetting. I hope to break out of this body and find my self in something I am comfortable with.
This is a pic of me preop with my boyfriend around christmas. So happy with him but so sad about myself.




I have not been over weight my whole life, but as I got older the weight just kept coming on. Now at my highest ever at around 278 it has to stop.
Last year I started a new job which happened to be at night and I found the man of my dreams at that job. Since I started working there I have gained about 45 lbs. I am now at that point in my life where my weight is not just affecting me cosmetically but it is really becoming a health problem for me. Luckily I have no serious issues like diabetes, but I suffer from HORRIBLE back pain and other issues. I can’t wait for the day I can walk for hours with no pain.
I really started looking into the surgery heavily about 3 months ago and since I started it has gone really smooth (so far). I am my final stop before surgery. I am awaiting approval I think; although I got a letter in the mail today saying my coverage for surgery is available. I still have to talk to my Dr. and find out what he thinks about that. I do have a tentative surgery date of Sept 25th but that should be changing to hopefully the beginning of October right around my b-day.

For me and my boyfriends 1 year anniversary (8/2) he surprised me and took me to Six Flags. I was so excited but I completely forgot that since the last time I went I had gained about 40lbs. I absolutely LOVE roller coasters and going with my boyfriend is so much fun. I got on the first ride which was the King Daka. I really barley fit into the ride but thought nothing of it. Then I tried to go on the Nitro ride with him which is so much fun and his favorite ride and OH MY GOD I really did not fit. I had to squeeze myself in and 2 people had to help buckle me in. I was trying to blame it on having 40ddd boobs but I knew I was just too big. When the people were helping me squeeze in I think I saw to guys sort of snickering at me thinking it was funny. I am not sure if I saw right or I was just being self conscious. I cried so bad after I got off that ride. I felt so horrible. I wanted to go home so bad but I did not want to ruin my boyfriend’s day at six flags. He was really amazing and said no I do not want you to be unhappy; I want to leave if you want to and we can come back once you’re all healed from my surgery. I love him so much he is so great to me. After this incident I knew there was no doubt in my mind I was getting my surgery. I never want to go through that again. I do not want my weight to prevent me from doing things I LOVE.

Here is my journey so far:

7-11-06
Bariatric Seminar:
This is my first time meeting Dr. Ahmad. I attended a Bariatric seminar and I also went to a support group. I thought this was a great thing for me to attend because it really educated me on the whole process plus I got to meet people who know exactly how I feel and have been in my shoes. I really would love to keep going to support groups but my work schedule does not allow it. I made an apt to meet with Dr. Ahmad one on one and discuss everything in detail.

7-20-06
Meeting with my surgeon:
Today I meet Dr. Ahmad personally and I took my boyfriend who is totally supportive and my mother who is also very supportive. I am so lucky to have them in my life. We had a question and answer session basically with Dr. Ahmad and he really did a great job making my mom and my boyfriend comfortable about my choice. He also discussed all the apts I have to start getting done before my surgery. Here we go, on my way.

I was told today that my insurance company usually has no issues with approving my surgery but I would need 6 consecutive months of weight records from my Dr. I already have 4 and I have apts for the last 2, one in August and one in Sept than my notes will be done and I should be able to turn my papers in to get approved.

7-28-06
Upper Endoscopy:
Today I had my upper endoscopy. Wow what a crappy feeling, I hate being put under but it all went really smooth. Dr. Ahmad preformed the endoscopy and he did a great job. Not much to say but the next day I got a call from Dr. Ahmad’s office and they told me that they found a COL? in my stomach that is basically a bacteria that could cause ultzers?. He informed me that it is common and is easy to treat. I then started a two week medicine that would take care of the problem. Even though the medicine was nasty I really appreciate how thorough he is. It is a good thing he found that.

8-1-06
Nutritionist:
Not much to say about this apt, it was what I expected it to be. But the nutritionist was really nice and helpful. She really gave me alot of ideas on how im going to have to eat after the surgery being I am a vegetarian. I know I can make it through this.

8-7-06
Psych:
Its official I am not crazy. I swear, the Dr. said so. HAHAH. Anyway the apt went fine, she just asked me a bunch of questions and decided I want the surgery for the right reasons and realistic reasons.

8-11-06
Cardiologist:
Nothing much going on here either, they just hooked me up to a machine for about 2 seconds and said everything was fine and asked me a bunch of questions. It went smooth.

8-16-06
Abdominal ultrasound:
Ouch this hurt. She was pushing on my rib cage with this tube looking thing. Not a big deal though I have had much worse done to me. Everything turned out to be ok.

8-17-06
Pulmanologist:
This apt was a weird one, they had me breathing into some sort of machine for about 10 minutes, I thought I was going to have no more air left in me. But I got through it and they gave me clearance for my Dr.

That is finally the end of all my visits that he requested. I have an apt with him on 8/22 to discuss everything.

8-22-06
Meeting with surgeon #2:
I met with Dr. Ahmad again and I told him everything was done. He said great and advised me I have to lose 10lbs before my surgery. YIKES. The first thing I thought of was if I could lose weight that easily then I would not have to be getting this surgery. But O well I have to tough it up and do it. I also got a tentative surgery date of 9-25. This is very tentative because I plan on having it in Oct for work reasons and my b-day is Oct 14th.

9-5-06
Meeting with my regular Dr:
I finally got my last note and now I can hand them in to get approved. I have a meeting with Dr. Ahmad 9-13-06 and I will be giving him all this paperwork and hopefully making a definite date.

9-9-06
I got a letter in the mail today that said my coverage for obesity surgery is available. I have no idea what that means, I want to think that it means I was approved but I don’t want to get excited. Plus I have not given my surgeon the 6 months of weight history yet so I am not sure if they already sent in my request or are waiting on me. I can’t wait to my apt on the 13th to find out what this letter means. Hopefully I can schedule my date!!!! I can’t wait.

10-8-06

I found out that letter was just saying the coverage was available but had nothing to do with me being approved or not. So we will see. My Dr. said they put the papers in on Tuesday 10/3 and I still have not heard back yet but I am going to be as patient as I possibly can. It is now Sunday so I can't call today and tomorrow (Monday) is a holiday, so hopefully Tuesday I may hear something. I got my date pushed back again to Nov 1 when I went to see my Dr on 10/5. We moved it because without knowing if I am approved yet the middle of Oct would be a little difficult with work and everything. I am so nervous and excited at the same time. I hope I get approved so I can start my new life.

10-9-06
WOO HOO I called the insurance company today and they told me the whole surgery was APPROVED. In fact they said it was approved since August 29th. Make sense? Not to me. It seems that letter I got in the mail was actually an approval letter just like I thought it might be. I must have called 5x today to verify that the request for bariatric surgery is covered and every person I spoke to told me I was approved and they gave me a reference #. They said the gastric RNY procedure, the Dr. and the hospital stay and all of the treatments are completly covered, all I have to pay is the $1000 deductible that I have to meet which is cake compared to the price.
It does not make sense why on friday when I called they told me they have not recieved anything for surgery yet and today I call and they tell me I have been approved since 8/29. O well, I will take that as an answer I am soo happy. I am going to give a definite tomorrow though because the person from the Dr's office that deals with the insurance will tell me for sure. Tomorrow I am also going to a support group again. The first one I went to was great, everyone was VERY VERY sweet and inspiring. I love having people that know what I am feeling. Tomorrow my boyfriend will come with me as well. It will be real great for him to know what he may be going through with me after surgery. I hope I am not an emotional roller coaster. Anyway, all back work is done now all I have to do is lose 10lbs before Nov 1. Not that easy, this will be hard for me because losing weight and me dont seem to get along. Wish me luck, I will try my hardest, it is only 10lbs....

10-24-06
Ok the clock is ticking down. My surgery is one week from tomorrow (Wed). I am so excited but nervous at the same time. Thursday (10/26) is my pre surgical apt w/my surgeon and that is the day he will weigh me and see if I have lost weight and he can go through w/ the surgery. I was supposed to lose 10lbs and so far I am only down about 4, it is SOO hard. I started weighing in at his office at 278.3 and I am now down to 274. I am trying soooo hard, I dont cheat at all, I am eating SUPER healthy and the scale is not going anywhere. GRR.

He says he wants me to lose the 10lbs because it makes the liver smaller which makes it easier to get to my stomach, plus he wants to see that I am motivated. If he could only see how motivated I am.

I really hope he gives me the ok on thursday because if not I would be heart broken. I already got all my disability stuff taken care of at work and have all the time off scheduled. I have all my friends and family ready to visit me in the hospital. If he says I am not ready I dont know if I would have the energy to go through all of this again. But I guess only fate will tell, if it is meant to be then it will be.

If I get the ok, Friday (10/27) is my pre surgical apt w/ the PCP. He will then give me surgical clearance.

I CANT WAIT TO BE ON THE OTHER SIDE!!!

10-26-06
All that worrying for nothing. I lost 7 lbs, I am now at 271.2, w00t!!!. He felt my stomach and said it was soft enough for surgery and said he will do the surgery on me. After I got the ok I went over for my pre surgical testing. OUCH is all I have to say.

I went to Mather Ambulatory and I have to say everyone was SUPER SUPER nice. First I had to fill out some paper work. Then a lady called me in the back and asked me some medical questions. Then she sent me off to a lady named Yvellyn. What a sweet heart, she really was awesome. She did my EKG. Then a lady came in and stuck me in my artery on my left wrist. She needed to get blood from there, not sure why though but all I know is that it frickin hurt so much and now it is really brusied and is swelled up. It is like a large lump on my wrist but it is going down alot already. After that I got my chest xray and then back into the room for Yvellyn to take 5 viles of blood. Everything went smooth but now I am worrying about something else.

Tomorrow (10/27) I have an apt w/ my PCP and I am getting medical clearance. I hope all my testing today goes smooth and he clears me. Once he does I have nothing else to worry about. I am getting so excited now. Wish me luck tomorrow w/ my clearence from my PCP. Good night for now :)

10-27-06
WOO HOO Im cleared. My PCP took me in today and signed off right away on my clearance. He checked all my results and decided I was good to go. So at this point I am really exctied. This is probally the last time I will post until after my surgery. Thank you everyone for the wonderful words. I really appreciate all the support.

10-31-06
Well it is officially Halloween and the day before my surgery. I am sooo excited and nervous at the same time. I am home now because I took off the day before the surgery to prepare. I cleaned my WHOLE apt from top to bottom LOL. In a little while I have to call the hospital to get all my instructions for the morning. I really cant believe my date is here, it seems like it came so quickly. Tomorrow will be my re-birthday. I want to thank all my family and friends for being so supportive and also everyone that I have met on here. Thank you soo much. And to my boyfrirend if he reads this, thank you for being so amazing. I love you more then I could have ever dreamt I would love somone. Unlike many guys you have seen me at my highest and still love me unconditionally and never make me feel bad about it. You are my night in shinning armor and I cant wait to live a whole new life together. I LOVE YOU JEFF.

Thank you everone, I will see everyone on the losing side!!!!!!!!!!!!

11-1-06 Day of Surgery
What a day. I got to the Hospital at 6am. I was in waiting until 8:45 and then they walked me into the operating room which freaked me out, it was like a frozen food section in the room and there were like cutting tools everywhere. I really dont even remember them putting me out. The next thing I remember was them pulling a tube out of my throat which actually gagged me and I thought I was choking and I couldn't breath for a few seconds. For the rest of the day the only thing I remember was my whole family and friends coming to visit but I was too groggy to remember much. They also had me walking around to get my blood moving around, that hurt alot but other then that there was not much pain laying down. I have to say it is very hard to get comfortable in a hospital. My back was killing me the whole time I was there.

11-2-06 Day after surgery
This day I started remembering stuff and was a little more conscious. I was still kind of sleeping the day away on pain killers but I not realized they were feeding me my IV through my NECK!!!! Ouchies. The anasthestiologist had told me if they couldnt get a good spot in my wrist they would go for the neck which is the best spot. Honestly it did not really hurt in the neck because of all the pain meds. I really hated all the crap they had me hooked up to, my neck for my IV, I also had an incative IV port in my right arm just incase they needed to get stuff in there, they had a folley (spelling) in my hoohoo and a whole bunch of stickies connected to my heart and belly and a thing on my pointer finger, that was my heart monitor, and a little ball bag looking thing that was hanging out of left side of my stomach that was feeding my direct wounds with a number. And they had this message things for my legs that would blow up and deflate to keep my blood running in my legs. I felt like an expermentation. If I can remember correctly it was this day at like 5am that they took at my folley which was nice, I like to go pee when I can control it LOL. By this day the pain started to kick in :(

11-3-06 2 Days after surgery
Today was alot of walking around the hospital floor, alot of pain meds about every 3 hours, it was weird, my body woke up every 3 hrs when it was just about get more pain meds and walk and go to the bathroom. Today I also had to have that nasty drink for my leak test to see if my new stomach was leacking. That hurt to get there and then to sit up in a wheel chair hurt as well. They got me down there and had me stand up and drink some NASTY stuff. The tech said he did not see any leaks but he did say he noticed a blockage. That freaked me out, the last thing I wanted to go through was surgery again. They brought me up to my room and about an hour later they took me back down again ,this time they wanted to get another xray of me standing up and sitting down. This also hurt ALOT, but this time I did not have to drink that stuff. The said the blockage they say had passed, my Dr. said he was not worried about it, he just wanted to check it again. And he said the blockage may have been caused by all the pain meds swelling up my intestiens, and also because I had not passed gas yet and not had a bowel movement. All was good though *phew*. When I go back into my room I finally got my first drink. I had 20cc's of watered down apple juice. That seemed to be the best thing ever. Then later that night they had me eating Jell'o. That was great to. For the rest of the night nothing more eventfull, just alot of walking, pain and pain meds. O today they took out that ball thing that was hanging out of my stomach. That was soo annoying. OOO Today I also had bowel movement, sounds gross but it was really releaving.

11-4-06 3 Days after surgery (final day in hospital)
Today I was eating a drinking alot more. This was my final day in the hospital. They took out my IV in my arm first ,then the lady came in to take out the IV from my neck and realized they had attached it with 4 staples. That hurt a little coming out. My Dr. also said I didnt need to use the leg things anymore. Idid alot of walking around, like 2 laps each time and that was pretty much it. I was let out at like 4:30pm and the nurse had given me my last dose of pain med before I left that would last about 4 hrs. My Dr. also gave me a prescritpion for Perkeset. I was on my home now, it went smooth, my boyfriend and my mother took care of me. I was finally able to shower, that felt great. At night around 5am the pain started to kick in though. I woke up after about 8hrs of no pain meds and was in massive pain. I walked around a little bit, had some sugar free jell'o and water and took more pain meds and went back to sleep.

11-5-06 Day 5
Today has been a little hard. It was the first full day out of the hospital without their pain killers. Its been hard to keep myself hydrated and I feel very hungry. I thank the stars that I've had my boyfriend there to help me with everything. He has done everything from prepairing my food to helping me in and out of bed. I was feeling kinda crappy earlier today but its now 7 and I feel much better after eating. The past two days it has also been mentally difficult, I think this is a phase but I keep asking myself why did I have to do this to lose weight? Could I have just done this on my own? Is it all worth it? I think I will get over this, I think its normal. I know it will all pay off in a few weeks.

11-6-06
Things are a little better today ,the pain is still very much there but more dealable, I think I am getting used to it LOL. I was a little weak today because of what I am DRINKING but I had some broth and stuff is better. I thank god everyday for my boyfriend, he is really my angel. I would be miserable if it werent for him. I cant wait until I marry him. Anyway tomorrow is my apt w/ my surgeon and we will discuss stage 2. I am going to discuss this whole eating thing and not feeling full at all. My hardest thing is HEAD HUNGER, every where I look people are eating and there are so many commercials on food I never realized it. I am a vegitarian and I am suddenly wanting meat because it is food. On the losing side. I am almost down 18 lbs. The first 8 I lost before surgery and 10 I lost since surgery. So far it is working.

11-16-06
Its been just over two weeks and the pain is starting to subside. My incisions are really looking good and really only hurt when going over bumps in the road or laying on my stomach to go to bed. Otherwise they hurt but not that much. BUT I am soooo hungry. I find my self starving all day and I am eating my 3 meals a day and drinking water in between. I have been eating Cream of Brocolli and Cream of Cheddar soup all the time. I am so sick of it. I also have protien shakes but nothing is filling me up. I cant wait until stage 3. The other thing is I noticed since I started this stage I am not losing weight anymore. The first stage I dropped about 20lbs since the hospital, since this stage nothing has came off AT all. It is beginning to be very frustrating but I will have to just stop thinking about it. I really have to throw out my scale that is taking my life over lol. Today I have an apt w/ my surgeon as a follow up, I hope he tells me to go on stage 3 but I doubt it. Anyway thats pretty much it. I will keep you posted.

11-19-06
Well a few more days have gone by and things are looking up. I went to the Dr. on the 16th and he put me on stage 3. So now I am some what eating food LOL. I have been eating mashed potatoes, eggs and pastina. I am not so sure I know what the full feeling is yet. Although I know when I do eat, after about 10 min I start to feel like something is stuck in my throat. So I figure I would stop eating at that point. I am not sure if that is a sign to stop but I will take it as one HEHE. Otherwise I can say I am starting to be less hungry and the head hunger is kind of lessening. I cant say it is gone but it is less. My scale is not really moving much, maybe 2 lbs. This morning it said I was at 249.5 which would be about 29.5 lbs since I started 2 weeks b4 surgery. I cant stop weighing myself. Anyhow, just wanted to give a quick update, and O the incisions still kind of hurt. Putting my arms up to do my hair hurts my upper left incision, I feel a pain inside of my stomach. I just hope it gets better. Bye for now.

12-1-06 1 Month

Hi everyone, it is officially 1 month from the date of my surgery. Things are going swell. I am down about 32-34 lbs. I fluctuate, how annoying. The pain has basically subsided completley, no more sleeping pains etc. The only pain I encounter now is from eating. GRR. I am finally only stage 4 and able to eat regular food. With these powers comes great responsibility. I have to train myself not to eat 30min before or after which I have been doing pretty good on. I have to eat VERY slow, other wise I will feel it, and I HAVE to chew everything very well. I have had a couple of times where I ate to quickly and boy did that hurt. I almost threw up on time but thank goodness I have not throw up yet *knock on wood*. Anyway, everything else in my life is going great, things with my boyfriend are still wonderful as ever and we are done decorating out apt for x-mass. It is so perty. Anyway time to watch "Heroes" thanks for reading. Update in a couple of weeks :)

12-16-06

Hey ,its been a little while since I updated so here we are. My surgery was a little over 6 weeks ago and everything was fine up until 12/6. That Wed I started to feel nauseas. From that day on the nause has stuck around. It comes and goes though and I really have had no appetite for food. At some points thinking about food makes me sick. I spoke to Dr. Ahmad about this and he says he does not think it is related to the surgery because if it was I would have felt this way from day one. He suspsected it may be part of a cold that is going around. To be safe though, he ordered some testing for me. I went in for it yesterday. First I had to have an upper GI with a small bowel. Well for anyone that has had the surgery we all know the nasty stuff they make you drink to see that you are not leaking. Well multiply that nastiness by 10X. This was disguisting and I never want do it again, I dont care if I am throwing up all over the place. First thing he made me do was stand up and take an x-ray , while doing this he made me take this drink that looked like salt in a cup but when he put water in it, it fizzed like alka seltezer. He told me to take a sip of that, EWWW it was very lemony, it was not the taste that made me sick though, its because it fizzed up and made me want to burp ALOT, and after surgery burping is different. If you swalllow some air, IT HURTS alot, so that was making me sick. Then he gave me this cup of nastyness. He said take big sips when I tell you to. Well I did and this shit was so nasty, it was as thick as glue and tasted like chalk, this is when I started really gagging and was holding back from vomiting. I had to take about 3 sips of that. Then he layed me down on a table and gave me this other nasty drink. It sort of seemed like the company tried to add a little cherry taste to it, but it FAILED. It was disguisting as hell, this drink I could not get down and they wanted me to drink like a whole 8oz of. There was no way, I took a couple of sips and told them im sorry but I cannot do it. This whole week and a half I have been nauseas and you are going to give me something that will make me throw up? Not goood. So this test took 4 hours becasue every half hour or so they wanted to take another xray to make sure the liquid was going down the proper course. I tell ya, like I said earlier, I would rather throw up all over the place then take these tests again , these far surpassed the one I had to take in the hospital. After this test I got blood work which was a synch. So that leads me into today, I have been feeling a little better and have been able to eat, but I am scared for life from my experience yesterday LOL. Bye everyone.

1-14-07

Well I am now 10 weeks out. I am at work at the moment and horribly depressed. My Uncle Peter passed away yesterday at 7:15am and I just cant believe he is gone. I love him so much and I will miss him terribly. I hope he will be strong in heaven and watch down over all of us. Having the surgery did something special for me. The last time I saw my uncle was 10 weeks again I was in the hospital recooperating from surgery. I was so suprised and happy that he came to see me. I am also so happy that for some reason my boyfriend took a picture of him w/ my father in my hospital room so I have a picture of him on the last day I saw him. Uncle Peter, you will forever be in my heart and I will always love you.

As far as me and surgery goes, I am down about 48-50lbs. I am having a tough time dealing w/ the fact that lately I have not lost more weight. I feel like I am at a stand still and I keep getting depressed thinking that I cant do this. At this point I have no choice though, my body will do what it wants to do so all I can keep doing is eating right and working at it. Ok back to work bye everyone.

1-30-07

Hey everyone just figured I would stop in for an update. I am now 2 days away from 3 months post op. I am now down about 54lbs. Eating for me latley has almost become normal again. It kind of scares me. I feel like I am eating more then I should be able to but friends of mine who have had it said I am fine. I think I had this pre-rendered thought that I would be able to eat one thing maybe the size of an egg and be full for hours. That is not true at all. I can eat an egg over easy and a piece of whole wheat toast, and then I will be full. I notice that soon after I am hungry again. I feel like I am always hungry which is bad. But I tend to snack on fruits and vegetables and that holds me over for a while. I guess I am doing something right because I am loosing weight, SLOWLY, but at least I am not gaining. If anyone has any input on how I am doing or where I should be at now as far as weight loss, please feel free to tell me. I am worried I am not going to reach anywhere near my goal weight. I guess its because I am just so used to being over weight that I cant imagine being happy about myself. Other then that things are going pretty good in my life. I will try and post new pictures if I remember. See ya everyone.

2-6-07 13 Weeks post op

Today im feeling good, FINALLY. I actually sort of like the way I look in my clothes. On 2/1 I had an apt w/ my surgeon and he said I am doing great. I was at 223.5 which brings me about 56 lbs down. He said the average weight loss is 60lbs in 6months. I am only 3months out and already down 56 lbs. That is such a good feeling to me. As of yesterday my scale said 221. W00t that would bring me down 57lbs. This is great I almost weigh less then my bf. My BMI went down about 10 points. W00t!!!! This is such a wonderful feeling knowing that FINALLY something is working. But also I am really trying hard this time. I am eating SOOO much differently. I finally know what it is like to make a good decision.

2-22-07

w0000000000000tttt.....Jeff proposed to me last night!!! I am actually engaged to the love of my life, I am so lucky to be with him. He did it at the karaoke cafe/bar that my dad always hosts every week. He asked to do a duet w/ me and at the end of the song he got down on one knee and proposed to me on the microphone w/ my whole family there!!! It was really a fantasy proposal. I cant wait to start planning now. I will keep everyone updated. Bye :)


5-01-07 6 Months post op and 85lbs down!!!

Ok so it is May 1st and everything is going great. Planning is going very smooth for the wedding. I picked up my wedding dress about 2 weeks ago and it zipped up, wow, because I ordered it like 4 sizes to small like 2 months before that. This just means it will have to be tailored more, o well.

As of this morning I am down 85lbs w00t I am so excited, I didnt think I could do this and I have been and its so great. I finally am starting to feel good in clothes and even in my new bathing suit LOL. And...

Guess what...Jeff and I went to Six Flags 2 weeks ago and I fit on EVERY ride with no problem, we had a blast and we went on EL Toro 2x and it was amazing. Jeff could not keep up with me, I wanted to keep going on rides all day. Soon we are going on a cruise (June) and I am so pumped, I cannot wait.

I posted new pics of me 6 months out so check em out if you want. Ok thanks for reading I will try and update soon. :)

5-17-07

Ok, WOW 5 months until my wedding I cant wait. Today I finally reached 90lbs down exactly and I am wearing a size 14 pants. This is the most amazing feeling, I am starting to actually feel comfortable in my body. I have not been this light in YEARS, probally around 6. At this point I can really say it was all worth it, and I would do it again tomorrow if I had to. I was trying on dresses that I have not worn in years and they FIT w00h00.

In about 3 weeks we are going on our cruise and I hope, I HOPE that I get under 190, I am so close, I am 193 as of this morning so I have a chance I think. I just have to keep focused and continue going for the walks around my building at work.

One fear I have though is gaining weight back, I feel for the last 8 years of my life I have been heavy and all of a sudden in 6 months I get to a stage in my life I feel comfortable, I fear that it could go away just as quick as it came. But I know if I keep trying and dont give up I will be fine.

6-17-07

Woohoo!!! I just returned home from my cruise w/ Jeff and family and I lost about 4lbs :) I am now down 95lbs, I am so close to a hundred I can feel it. The cruise was amazing, we went to Bermuda, St Thomas, St Maarten and San Juan. It was 10 days of complete fun. Finally I felt really good about myself. I wore sexy girly outfits every night and I felt confident. This was the first time in a LOOOONG time that I felt good about how I looked. I cant believe this all worked for me, I would not change a thing, getting to feel good about my self again is something I never imagend would happen. I finally am starting to love my self again. I cant wait now our wedding is in 3 and a half months and we get to go on vacation again!!! WOOT. Ok thanks for reading to whoever read, I will update again soon. Lots of love.

7-15-07

Well, things in life are going great. I am finally a member of the Century Club and I could not be more happy. I am down 103 lbs and I am 8 months out. I am getting married in 3 months and my dress is big on me, a lot. Which is bad, but id rather it be to big then to small. I am starting to love life again. It is hard to believe how quickly all those horrible thoughts I had of my self went away. I am really not self conscious anymore. I still eat very small portions but sometimes I will be bad and have a snack here or there but in moderation. My body surprises me though , like sometimes I can have a couple bites of a sandwich and sometimes I can eat a whole slice of pizza.  Well, I will update soon, hopefully before the wedding which I plan to. Thanks again for reading.

 11-01-07 1 Year Anniversary

Ok well, alot has happened since I last updated. I am now married, the wedding was absolutely beautiful and I down 110 lbs. My dress was a size 12 and wedding dresses run a few sizes smaller then normal measurements. I am feeling absolutely great, I am finally happy in my body. Of course I would like to lose another 20lbs because some times I still feel fat but I am so happy with how far I came I cant believe this all happend within a year, how amazing. I am so happy I got this surgery because if not I obviously would have still gotten married, but every wedding picture I would have felt so far and ugly in and I would have been so unhappy. I actually liked all of my pictures. Same with our honeymoon to Jamaica, I was so happy with how I looked and felt. I climbed the Dunns River Falls in Jamaica and it felt great to be able to do it.

Next stop, makin babies, although we will be giving that a little time, however the practice is fun!

Ok well thats it for now!

I cant wait to:

Cross my legs - Its almost sort of comfortable.

6 months - This actually comfortable now

8 Months - Pfff, Piece of cake, I only sit with my legs crossed now, it is so comfortable..

1 Year - No problem!!!

Weigh less then my boyfriend - So close, just 3lbs away!

6 months - I am about 20lbs lighter then him now, w00 h00!!!

8 months - Tee hee hee, this is awesome I weight about 36lbs less then him, O the beauty.

1 Year. Now he is my Husband and I weight about 40lbs less then him, how SWEET!

See my private if you know what I mean - Mission Accomplished!

Shop at "regular stores" - Almost a Check, I finally fit into Old Navy pants. w00t. IM DOWN 6 SIZES!!!

6 months - Size 14-16 now w00t! I can shop at old navy no prob, this is a new world.

8 months - Size 12-14 This is better then ever, say good bye Lane Bryant, that is all to big for me now except the bras, I still have 40dd, dont ask. Otherwise I feel confident going in to a store and getting a Medium - Large tank top and sometimes Small. Pants are about a 12-14 or a large. I LOVE THIS.

1 Year - Pants are now a size 10-12, and shirts can be Small to Large. I feel NORMAL!!!

Be a member of the "Century Club" - 5/17/07- I am so close, I am 10lbs away as of this morning.

6/17/07 - I am now 95lbs down and 5 lbs away from being a member. SOOOO CLOSE!!!

I DID IT!!!!!! As of 7/13/07 I am now  a member of the Century Club. I cant belive this i am down  101.5 lbs. How amazing.

See my feet -Mission Accomplished!

Feel comfortable in my clothes - 6 months - Im getting there

8 months - I have to say, I really do. I don't just wear clothes because I have to anymore, I wear them to look "sexy" if that is possible LOL.

Not be considered obese...AT ALL
I am not obese  ANYMORE!!! And I never will be again. I am now just considered "overweight". My BMI is

at 29, and I just need to loose another 25lbs until I am considered "normal". I can do it!

1 Year - Woo Hoo, I am not considered obese anymore, I am now moderately overweight!

Fit in a roller coaster again - Mission Accomplished!

Fit comfortably in every chair - Havent been uncomfortable in a while!

8 months - I do not worry about this anymore, I fit in everything.

Stop being so hot all the time - 8 months- This is really not a problem anymore, I am usually cold and I only get hot if I am doing alot of work.

1 Year- I am always freezing, but I have my hubby to warm me up.

Wear a smaller ring size then 10 1/2 - Ring is about size 9 now!!!

6 months - My size 9 engagement ring is big on me now!

8 months - I got my ring re=sized it is now an 8 1/2. WOOO

1 Year - This is amazing, my wedding band is a size 8 and my engagement ring is a 8 1/2. I cant believe my finger lost 2 sizes.

Not hide behind everyone in pictures

I am now the first one up front, I have confidence now this is so much fun.

Go on a cruise and really enjoy my self- 5/17/07 - Soon and I think I will enjoy it this time, I cant wait.

Fit through a turnstyle w/ out having to lift up a little - Mission Accomplished!

 

 

 

 


About Me
Long Island, NY
Location
44.9
BMI
RNY
Surgery
11/01/2006
Surgery Date
Jul 16, 2006
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