Steph_L
LD Day 13
Feb 01, 2009
weight: 379.8 (which seems like too big of a jump...maybe my body is getting over all the caffeine I accidentally was served a few days ago).
Lots of diarhhea and stomach discomfort today - was scared to death I'd come down with flu and would have to postpone surgery. Now think it was either aversion to the diet root beer I drank or aversion to all those iron pills I've been taking (exascerbated by less food in stomach...I couldn't eat that protein pudding one more day)
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Lots of diarhhea and stomach discomfort today - was scared to death I'd come down with flu and would have to postpone surgery. Now think it was either aversion to the diet root beer I drank or aversion to all those iron pills I've been taking (exascerbated by less food in stomach...I couldn't eat that protein pudding one more day)
LD Day 12
Jan 30, 2009
weight: 384.5 (very exciting as this officially puts me all the way under the "20-30" lbs the surgeon wanted me to lose pre-surgery. Good thing I still have a few more days as I weigh nekkid and the surgeon weighs me clothed :)
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LD Day 11
Jan 30, 2009
weight: 386.8
Amazingly tough day; a very dear friend finished her last day at work *and* celebrated her 40th birthday, I felt terrible for her and for myself (I've known her for over 20 years and we've worked at the same company for the last three years. The thought of not seeing her nearly every day makes me want to howl like a dog).
We had a small happy-birthday-sure-sorry-you're-jobless gathering at a nice restaurant. It was amazingly difficult at first to sit there with my glass of sparkling water while they drank cocktails, ate salads and then started on their main course. Part way through, however, I was able to just enjoy the rich smells of roasted chicken, pork chops and walleye. Vicarious pleasure.
I don't like how this last phase has me obsessing about food - I didn't use to do that before. Last night I sat through a wonderful production of Faust daydreaming about metworst and cheese. The night before was filled with thoughts of sloppy drive-through cheeseburgers (a friend astutely noted that all of these daydreams are about fatty foods - my body must be craving fats).
Had a moment of excitement at work today - my phone rang but I was in a meeting and ignored it. When I returned the call I learned that it had come from the hospital system I'll be at for the surgery but not who had called. I called my surgeon's office and learned that the hospital had also called them saying that my insurance was saying that I wasn't approved for the surgery (!!!). Fortunately, the ladies at the surgeon's office were all over that - they insisted "yes she is!" and called the insurance company to prove it. I'm so grateful that I didn't hear about this until after it was resolved; I think my head would have exploded...
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Amazingly tough day; a very dear friend finished her last day at work *and* celebrated her 40th birthday, I felt terrible for her and for myself (I've known her for over 20 years and we've worked at the same company for the last three years. The thought of not seeing her nearly every day makes me want to howl like a dog).
We had a small happy-birthday-sure-sorry-you're-jobless gathering at a nice restaurant. It was amazingly difficult at first to sit there with my glass of sparkling water while they drank cocktails, ate salads and then started on their main course. Part way through, however, I was able to just enjoy the rich smells of roasted chicken, pork chops and walleye. Vicarious pleasure.
I don't like how this last phase has me obsessing about food - I didn't use to do that before. Last night I sat through a wonderful production of Faust daydreaming about metworst and cheese. The night before was filled with thoughts of sloppy drive-through cheeseburgers (a friend astutely noted that all of these daydreams are about fatty foods - my body must be craving fats).
Had a moment of excitement at work today - my phone rang but I was in a meeting and ignored it. When I returned the call I learned that it had come from the hospital system I'll be at for the surgery but not who had called. I called my surgeon's office and learned that the hospital had also called them saying that my insurance was saying that I wasn't approved for the surgery (!!!). Fortunately, the ladies at the surgeon's office were all over that - they insisted "yes she is!" and called the insurance company to prove it. I'm so grateful that I didn't hear about this until after it was resolved; I think my head would have exploded...
LD Day 9
Jan 28, 2009
weight: 387.8
Bookclub last night was Hard! Sitting there surrounded by women happily holding (and munching from) plates of tasty treats. The hostess very sweetly made up some SF jello for me so I had a treat too. I'm so awe-struck by the amazing support I've had from my friends - what a blessing!
Tonight was Orchestra Hall with BFF (Mendelssohn's Italian Symphony if you're interested
). BFF is so supportive and loving...and someone I can tell all the TMI details too (like the "trauma poop" story). We get tickets for an orchestra series and season tickets to the opera every year...didn't plan the dates but it just worked out that everything landed this week (the opera is tomorrow - Faust).
Having bookclub, orchestra and opera all the week before surgery has been a great way to get my mind off the diet and pre-surgery jitters and also has the brain and soul nicely topped off. I'm glad it worked out this way,
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Bookclub last night was Hard! Sitting there surrounded by women happily holding (and munching from) plates of tasty treats. The hostess very sweetly made up some SF jello for me so I had a treat too. I'm so awe-struck by the amazing support I've had from my friends - what a blessing!
Tonight was Orchestra Hall with BFF (Mendelssohn's Italian Symphony if you're interested
). BFF is so supportive and loving...and someone I can tell all the TMI details too (like the "trauma poop" story). We get tickets for an orchestra series and season tickets to the opera every year...didn't plan the dates but it just worked out that everything landed this week (the opera is tomorrow - Faust).Having bookclub, orchestra and opera all the week before surgery has been a great way to get my mind off the diet and pre-surgery jitters and also has the brain and soul nicely topped off. I'm glad it worked out this way,
LD Day 8
Jan 27, 2009
weight: 389.9
I've stopped posting the food diary since a) the surgeon's office told me to knock of the workouts and b) I switched to the Med Laboratories diet-in-a-box.
Not a bad day - and still have bookclub, one of the high points of my social life, ahead of me this evening. It helped that I was heads-down helping my boss with a firedrill most of the day. It will be difficult to be around the wine and yummy treats at bookclub but the hostess has very thoughtfully stocked SF jello so wouldn't feel left out and I'll also be surround by up to 13 of the best friends a woman could have.
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I've stopped posting the food diary since a) the surgeon's office told me to knock of the workouts and b) I switched to the Med Laboratories diet-in-a-box.
Not a bad day - and still have bookclub, one of the high points of my social life, ahead of me this evening. It helped that I was heads-down helping my boss with a firedrill most of the day. It will be difficult to be around the wine and yummy treats at bookclub but the hostess has very thoughtfully stocked SF jello so wouldn't feel left out and I'll also be surround by up to 13 of the best friends a woman could have.
LD Day 7
Jan 25, 2009
weight: 391.1
another bounce up but by the time I went to bed last night the hunger I'd been battling for days had abated. Here's hoping it stays that way (and that I just, for the love of God, get my period and move on from that too!).
10am - call from surgeon; my iron levels dropped 2 points from first lab work. Explained that I'd run out of iron supplements and hadnt bought more, waiting to see what I'd need post surgery, and they said I was to start taking iron 3x a day with orange juice.
Took this opportunity to ask about fluctuating weight I've been complaining about. It was very clear that she did not believe me when I said I'd been sticking to the plan which was frustrating and pushed a bunch of bad buttons. Found out that I wasn't supposed to be adding calories back in for work-outs (or even doing the work-outs for that matter). My work-out partner is bummed but this is good to know.
Decided to cut to the chase and just buy the "bariatric diet in a box" supplies from Med-Diet Laboratories (which turned out to be close to our house). Husband kindly headed off to get that and the iron supplements.
1:21pm - still haven't had anything to eat since last night and am doing ok...makes me hope that the problems with hunger are over.
7:34pm - well hot damn! That Med Laboratories food is very tasty. WIsh I'd started with this in the first place.
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another bounce up but by the time I went to bed last night the hunger I'd been battling for days had abated. Here's hoping it stays that way (and that I just, for the love of God, get my period and move on from that too!).
10am - call from surgeon; my iron levels dropped 2 points from first lab work. Explained that I'd run out of iron supplements and hadnt bought more, waiting to see what I'd need post surgery, and they said I was to start taking iron 3x a day with orange juice.
Took this opportunity to ask about fluctuating weight I've been complaining about. It was very clear that she did not believe me when I said I'd been sticking to the plan which was frustrating and pushed a bunch of bad buttons. Found out that I wasn't supposed to be adding calories back in for work-outs (or even doing the work-outs for that matter). My work-out partner is bummed but this is good to know.
Decided to cut to the chase and just buy the "bariatric diet in a box" supplies from Med-Diet Laboratories (which turned out to be close to our house). Husband kindly headed off to get that and the iron supplements.
1:21pm - still haven't had anything to eat since last night and am doing ok...makes me hope that the problems with hunger are over.
7:34pm - well hot damn! That Med Laboratories food is very tasty. WIsh I'd started with this in the first place.
LD Day 6
Jan 24, 2009
Weight: 387.8
Not the big loss I was hoping for after yesterday's gain but I also realize that I shouldn't be checking the scales every day.
This process is starting to churn up old stuff - the last time I was this hungry for so long was back when I was an abused child. I'll say it again - the normal (for me) PMS anxiety is not helping at all. I'm very concerned about unloading all over my poor husband. I think I need some time with some of my women friends.
There was sobbing, phone calls to friends, cuddles with husband...I got through this day but it was a tough one.
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Not the big loss I was hoping for after yesterday's gain but I also realize that I shouldn't be checking the scales every day.
This process is starting to churn up old stuff - the last time I was this hungry for so long was back when I was an abused child. I'll say it again - the normal (for me) PMS anxiety is not helping at all. I'm very concerned about unloading all over my poor husband. I think I need some time with some of my women friends.
There was sobbing, phone calls to friends, cuddles with husband...I got through this day but it was a tough one.
LD Day 5
Jan 24, 2009
weight 392.2
Getting tired of weight yo-yoing around when I'm strictly adhering to the diet. It's demoralizing. Can only hope there's a pattern and I show a big loss for tomorrow). Wondered if yesterdays 388.8 was a false reading but measured twice today (about an hour apart) and got consistent readings so am trusting the scale.
Getting pretty bored with the food plan so I will mix up the order of things today (while adhering to the same menu). Here's the plan for today (which will be updated if anything changes)
Calorie goal: 955; calories consumed: 1,077; calories burned: 227
Net calories: 850
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Getting tired of weight yo-yoing around when I'm strictly adhering to the diet. It's demoralizing. Can only hope there's a pattern and I show a big loss for tomorrow). Wondered if yesterdays 388.8 was a false reading but measured twice today (about an hour apart) and got consistent readings so am trusting the scale.
Getting pretty bored with the food plan so I will mix up the order of things today (while adhering to the same menu). Here's the plan for today (which will be updated if anything changes)
Calorie goal: 955; calories consumed: 1,077; calories burned: 227
Net calories: 850
| Food Item | Servings | Cals | Fat | Cholest | Sodium | Carbs | Sugars | Fiber | Protein | |
| Metagenics Ultraclear Plus Medical Food | 0.50 | 80 | 2g | 0mg | 35mg | 10g | 0g | 1g | 8g | |
| Jell-o sugar free pudding | 1.00 | 60 | 2g | 0mg | 170mg | 1g | 0g | 1g | 2g | |
| Metagenics Ultrameal | 1.00 | 160 | 2g | 0mg | 180mg | 24g | 0g | 4g | 15g | |
| Skim Milk | 1.00 | 80 | 0g | 5mg | 120mg | 12g | 12g | 0g | 8g | |
| Apple Juice | 1.00 | 117 | 0g | 0mg | 7mg | 29g | 0g | 0g | 0g | |
| Skim Milk | 1.00 | 80 | 0g | 5mg | 120mg | 12g | 12g | 0g | 8g | |
| Metagenics Ultrameal | 1.00 | 160 | 2g | 0mg | 180mg | 24g | 0g | 4g | 15g | |
| Mott's Sugar Free Applesauce | 1.00 | 50 | 0g | 0mg | 0mg | 12g | 11g | 1g | 0g | |
| Mott's Sugar Free Applesauce | 1.00 | 50 | 0g | 0mg | 0mg | 12g | 11g | 1g | 0g | |
| Mott's Sugar Free Applesauce | 1.00 | 50 | 0g | 0mg | 0mg | 12g | 11g | 1g | 0g | |
| Slimfast High Protein Vanilla | 1.00 | 190 | 5g | 10mg | 200mg | 23g | 13g | 5g | 15g | |
| Fitness | Minutes | Calories Burned | ||||||||
| Aerobics - low impact | 30.0 | -227.0 | ||||||||
| Totals: | 850 | 12g | 20mg | 1,012mg | 171g | 70g | 18g | 71g | ||
