Realizations

Feb 14, 2012

In exactly one week, I will be 8 months out. WOW, I can't believe this process is almost halfway over for me. My surgeon told me that at 18 months, my period of losing will be over. So, I really have 10 months left. I really would still like to lose 47 pounds, which I think is achievable in that amount of time. But, here's the problem: I spent the last month not losing. When I say not losing, I mean I was eating the unthinkable foods. You know, the ones you dream about, but don't dare think about when you are awake. So, I realized my problem, Well, problems. 

1. I am a food addict, but when I went to OA, I felt very out of place. So, I finally found myself a therapst. I saw one, briefly a few months ago, but she was with my University (so she was free), but she was in training to become a psychologist so she couldn't help me enough. So, I found myself a weight loss surgery therapst. We start next Wednesday.

2. I wasn't practicing the behaviors I had been taught. Food wasn't my main focus each day, which it needs to be. For weight loss to really work, you have to make it your only thought during the day. Each decision you make, it needs to be based on whether it will benefit your goal (which is to lose weight). So, I'm back to obsessing in a good way. I have hopes to lose 10 pounds in the next few weeks, so we'll see how that goes. When I wasn't trying to lose weight actively, I maintained, which makes me feel a little better about when I'm ready for the maintainance faze, but for now, I've still got a ways to go.

3. I haven't been as serious about exercise as I need to be. So, from here on out, I'm walking at least 30 minutes a day. Period.

I'll check back in, in a few weeks. Hopefully, 3 goals will have been achieved here.

Steph 

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