Tracy S.

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I've lost 108 lbs. now and loving life.  I have gone from a size 30 to a size 20 in pants and those are getting too big.  God is amazing and this surgery is awesome.  My labs are good - a little low on beta caratene, so I suppliment that.  I had a fatty liver - not any more.  Yeah!!!!!!!  My tummy has been kinda off the last few days, but I am sure that will subside.  I realy need to start exercising.  I see the sagging skin, but know that exercise will help only a little with that - I need the exercise for more energy more then anything.  Our house is on the market and we have a contract on a house in WV.  Hope we sell soooooonnnn.  God willing.  Life has been very busy - but slowing down now - thank goodness.  I was 5 months post op yesterday and my birthday is in a week.  I'll be 36 and am so glad I am looking ahead to many more years then what I was thinking on my last birthday.  My husband is going to try to get the surgery this year.  His poor back has been a mess - he is getting a spine stimulator put in on the 23rd of this month.  I hope it helps his pain - I hate seeing him in all that pain.  Life is good though!!! 

Of, coarse it has been a while and I wanted to update my progress - First let me say this surgery is AWESOME!!!!!!!!  I am down 72 lbs.  I was wearing size 30 when I started and now am getting ready to move into size 24.  It has not even been 3 months!!!!  My mom's retirement party is this Friday and I will see a lot of people that have not seen me since before surgery, so that will be fun.  
Though I am loosing weight ,I know I am not doing as good as I should.  Not enough protein, water or any exercise at all.  I feel like I sabitoge myself a lot.  But I have felt that way most of my life - I have to remember this surgery was on my body not my head.  Though somehow, my gravings for sweets are not near as strong as before, the craving for bread is still there, but not too bad.  I crave red meat a lot.  I wish I could get addicted to exercise.  How do people do that?  I feel so lazy, and I never thought of myself as lazy.  Will have to work on all these things.  I have an appointment with Carissa next week to go over my labs, so maybe that will be inspiration to work harder on this.  Til' next time XOXOXOXOXO

For some reason I have been putting off updating here.  I think about it often, but just put it off.  I have not written since the day before my surgery.  Surgery went awesome.  Went home the next afternoon.  I went back to work exactly 2 weeks after surgery.  I was totally amazed at how fast I was recovering.  I lost 30 lbs the first 10 days then hit a long plateau.  I got what I thought was a kidney infection after about 3 weeks out and went thru antibiotics to CT Scan of my kidney - turns out it may have been skellatory movement - I guess from the weight loss.  I didn't get sick until about 2 weeks out from eating and then drinking right after.  I now get nauseous a lot more than before.  But I am down 49 lbs.  This morning I weighed 284.  Amazing surgery this is.  I probably am eating too many carbs and fat, my bowls will tell you that.  I'm a STINKER!!  I am down about 2 pants sizes - a lot of people have noticed already.  I see my boobs drooping - UGH!!!  Those babies stood up pretty well, but there are sacrifices - right?  I have not exercised like I should and have been tired and listless.  Hopefully with some more practice on finding what makes me feel energetic will solve all that.  I need to go to a group meeting - support meeting through Dr. E's office.  I need to post more pictures here and can't wait until my parents see me.  They have not seen me since 2 weeks out from surgery.  They had to take that friggin' cat home - poor thing was all cooped up in my house with 3 parrots - what was cat kitty to do , but GET IN TROUBLE!!!!  And yes she did , climbed up Angel's cage and was standing on Rocky's one night too. 

11/2/06  Well, tomorrow is the big day!!!!!!  I am so excited.  I am soooo hungry today.  I can only drink clear liquids.  I am bored too, so that makes it worse.  I only have 2 little things to finish here at work and then I am leaving to go home at 2.  My parents will be there when I get home and then I have to drink that Magnesium Citrate stuff to clean me out.  Look forward to that!!!  Talking to my parents through the bathroom door.  LOL  OK well after tomorrow I will be on the losers bench with the rest of you and loving life.  My husband was so sweet this morning to get the bathroom ready for me tonight - extra toilet paper, smell good spray and magazines.  He is such a clown.  I love him to death!!!!  

God, I pray you will guide my dr's hands and help me recover from this surgery quickly.  I pray you give me patients and understanding of your will.  Please be with me through every minute of my new journey.  In Jesus name I pray AMEN!!!!!

10/30/06 I don't know if this is normal or not, but I have been an emotional mess this weekend.  My faith is being tested.  I want to hand all this fear, anxiety, doubt and sadness over to God and just be excited about this surgery.  I don't know what is keeping Him and I from getting closer, but I feel a avoid a lot of times.  I feel God very strong at church, but I need that feeling all the time.  I need to dig into my bible more.  I just felt scared I might die from this surgery, or end up with some major complications.  I am having this surgery to improve my life here on earth, I'm not ready for heaven yet.  I want many many years with my husband and to be a more active Christian and work harder for God.  Joe is positive that God is not ready to take me yet.  LOL He jokes that God knows him and Ali can not make it without me.  That made me feel really good though.  I like knowing he depends on me.  I need him so much and I am glad he feels the same.  Anyway, I think I am over this tearful weekend.  FOUR MORE DAYS!!!!!!!  I just want it to be here.  I have probably gained 10 lbs since I broke my ankle.  I got on the scales this morning and it kept saying E - error - HELLO - have I gotten so fat that the damn scale can not weigh me any more.  Friday can not get here fast enough.  God bless all of you going through this very emotional surgery.  I am sure I will need the support groups big time to resolve where ever all this lack of control comes from.  Hoe about that Oprah show.  I saw maybe the last 120 minutes of it.  So, I guess I will be come a drunk or slut after surgery.  Lord, I pray today that whatever is berried deep in me that causes me to have an addictive personality that I face those things and resolve them.  Amen.  OK that's all for now.  Keeping my chin up today, need to just take this one day at a time. 

10/23/06  Well, it has been a while since I updated.  Just was trying to put the surgery out of my head for a while - the time was going by too slow, now it is almost here, 11 more days.  I have a Doppler on my legs today to make sure there is no blood clots from the broken ankle.  Believe it or not, I am stuill in the boot cast, but I think it will come off Halloween.  It feels a lot stronger.  I take it off sometimes to get some walking on it.  I shaved my legs last night and cut my self all up on all this fat skin.  I can not imagine what it will be like when my skin gets saggy - OUCH!!!  I am excited though.  I have been eating way too much.  Eating everything I think I will not be able to eat for a while.  I feel out of control, so I will have to get to meeting as soon as I am able.  Been having trouble getting in touch with all the people I need to.  These Dr. office don't even have time to return calls.  Not too much longer.  God bless you all that have been a support for me here so far.  You are all angels sent from above.  I will need you so much more here soon, but I know I can depend on you all.  Hugs and Kisses!!!!!

10/03/06  Well not much different then last time I wrote other then I know my husband and I are OK.  I have been down and very frustrated witht his ankle, but next Monday i go see the Dr again and make sure it is healed and I hope I get this durn air cast off my foot.  I do feel better today.  I guess I can see some light at the end of the tunnel.  31 days to go and I will be on the looser bench - YEAH!!!!!!!!!  I have gained weight since I broke my ankle, so my mobility is even worse and the cast does not help much.  But the time is ticking down, so I need to stay positive.  We did get our Scarlet Macaw.  Her name is Daisy and she is a hoot.  talks alot and dances all the time.  Trying to keep giving my other 2 babies as much attention.  So, all is well for now, I will post a picture of Daisy later. 

 

9/4/06 - Well Happy Labor Day to everyone!!!  I feel useless around my house - all weekend my husband has been running and running and I probably did too much for a broken ankle, but not enough to feel like I am doing much.  I am just getting depressed.  Tomorrrow I find out if the foot Dr. wants to do anything to this ankle.  Alex called last week and we went on and rescheduled the surgery date to November 3rd.  So that's the date for now.  I hope the bone does not move anywhere.  I love my husband sooooo much and I feel a little tension between us, not sure if it is me or not.  I get depressed and I think everyone is mad or upset with me.   Enough of the pity party for now.  I do have some good news, we are getting a Scarlet Macaw to foster.

8/30/06 - WOW what a time I have had.  I was getting closer to surgery and the time seemed to be creeping by and BAM, I BROKE MY ANKLE!!!!  I did it playing on the jet ski and I really did not wreck it or fall off just being Evil Canevil (sp).  Speaking of which - I think the Devil had a hand in this.  So, Dr. E has decided we need to change the date to 2 weeks after the boot comes off and make sure there are no blood clots.  I am sooo very thankful that man is so careful!!!!!!!  I would jump on the operating table today to get this thing going.  That is why he is the surgeon and I am the patient - more like the patient with no patience - LOL  So I go to the Foot Dr again on Tuesday and then I will call Alex and reschedule the surgery and update it all here - UGH!!!!!!!!  Life has it hurdles.  But GOD IS GOOD!!!!!!!

 

07/31/2006   I just want to say God has blessed me with a wonderful husband, step-daughter, home birds (my kids) and job.  I prayed and asked Him to support me and be my rock for this surgery.  I told Him if the surgery is approved, then I would know He was behind me 100%, but if it was denied, then I would leave it alone and not pursue it.  I need God's support, and I know He is hear for me through this long journey I am about to take.  I try to live by God's will, but a lot of times I take over and make my own decisions without His approval.  I am just glad He said yes to this.  That would have been very hard to turn away from.  that's all for now.  I do have a gallbladder ultrasound tomorrow and then nothing until August 24th.

 

 

Well I can not believe I going to put these pictures on here, but I need to SEE my progress - 27 days until surgery YEAH!!!!!  From looking at these photos I can see how exhausted I am.  And WOW look at that Butt - momma got a caboose.  See photos of me in pink and black  (UUUGGGGHHHH!!!!)