Jessica S.

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Gooodness - after 2 months of staying (and going up) around the same number of 218 i woke up the past three days and have now lost 11.2 pounds! Finally - the number of the sweet 100's are becoming a reality (now only not to stall before i hit the 100's :)

Well I have always loved to travel, but the stress until the flight was over and then coming back was getting to be a bit much so I stopped doing it, unless I had to. I had always bought my own seat belt extenders and tried to hide them from people because I was embarrassed… Well not anymore!! I went on an airplane and sat in my own seat without an extender and had plenty of room to spare on my seat belt… AND as a bonus I could get the tray down so I could actually have a water or place to read my book!!!   Best feeling since surgery. Booking more trips ASAP!  

Most of you I don't know, however to know me is to love me, my big mouth and all.  I had a check up with my surgeon's office this afternoon and just had to re-tell my story.  I was walking into the office where he makes us go for up to 5 years after our surgery so all different types of people are walking in and out of the office – pre-ops, newly post ops, veterans, etc.     I heard a woman, who was clearly post op and lost what had looked to be most of her weight (now I don’t know how big she started out at or how much she lost, I did not get that far with her) she was talking to a friend she brought with her and looked at a lady who was going in for her initial consultation and clear as day I could hear her say "Its awful how people let themselves go and I will never get back to looking like her (meaning the woman sitting in the chair just two down from her)..  Well me and my big mouth said "So are you saying that you let yourself go before you got the magic surgery, because that’s what everyone in this office is here for just because you lost weight doesn’t make you better than anyone else in this room".  She looked at me like a deer in headlights and I just smiled and she then said "you obviously hadn't got surgery yet". I said actually I had surgery in August and lost over 100 pounds and have about 100 more to go, and I feel great.  Your attitude sucks and just because you lost a lot of weight I bet you're one of the people that is so dissatisfied with their life to make comments about other people that you don’t know and to save her comments for when she got out of the office because I didn’t feel like listening to her negativity.  And then I told her to "f" off.   I realize everyone has attitude changes but I truly believe I will never forget where I came from and how hard it was for me to lose weight.  Gastric Bypass isn't for everyone and it’s a lifelong commitment that everyone is not willing to commit to or can pay for.  I consider myself lucky and getting a second chance in life.  When I hear people that get a "better than you" attitude it makes me furious for making fun of them – for something they probably not that long ago were dealing with.   Maybe I should make my 6 months appointment the same day she is in the office again…

Well I hope the stricture has decided to "heal" up and I dont need to go back for #3 of opening it back up.... I can hold down some normal foods (Chicken, Meat, and Shrimp all hate me though thats for sure), but Im getting much higher to my daily protein intakes.

I had 2 dates last week.. Both went well... Told them both up front about the weight loss surgery and wasn't a big deal.  I even had a couple sips of wine on Wednesday and good news is I did not die.  Im not a big drinker so that will be far and few in between.  I am not sure about the entire focus of dating.. Im still a bit of an emotional wreak myself so its time to focus on me, rather than trying to please someone else... Ill keep them on my phone though :)

Off to try some tuna :)

 

Well here is to hoping the stricture stays open, I can’t believe I am about to say this however I miss my routine of work and all my friends there (don’t expect me to say that next week or ever again). I still can’t work out because im not getting in all my protein in – the shakes are making me ill (but I think that really has to do with the ulcer meds) so my doctor rather than put me on a “progression” of food he’s got me “whatever my stomach can tolerate” which my stomach seems to be handing all but meats and chicken okay. I’m still staying away from acids due to the ulcer but I really want a tomato salad with mozzarella cheese but tomatoes aren’t in season anymore so next summer – ill just dream about it until then.   I’m going to try protein again today with just water to see if I can stomach it, because the more protein the faster I will heel and feel like myself. 

I’ve lost a lot of weight so far and couldn’t be happier. I’m going to start checking into gyms this week and see about joining the one that’s for me and that I will actually go to!!   Well here is to hoping the stricture

Its been a very long couple of days…   I just got RNY on 8/10 so, I was a little over three weeks out. I was doing fantastic the first week and a half or so.. Moving around, enjoying what time I had off work thinking this is fantastic!! About week two into the process I was having a really hard time getting in any protein shakes and I couldn’t get down any eggs, cottege cheese or pudding ( I just thought well ill go back to all liquids like soups and water) since I was convinced that I had the stomach that wouldn’t be able to handle anything… I couldn’t even handle soups or water towards the end.   Wednesday I went into the hospital because I had not eaten in days (or drank anything for that matter) and was dizzy. They treated me for dehydration and was in there for a couple hours with a couple bags of fluids later I was allowed to leave because I had a doctors appointment that afternoon to see my surgeon about the whole eating situation.. Being treated by the way for dehydration was embarrassing, because I kept hearing you need to drink your water and I knew this I just couldn’t! By my potassium levels were almost 1 from throwing up for a week (normal levels are 3-5)   I went to my doctors office who pretty much told me he would bet I had a stricture and he wanted to do an endoscopy that day (which was fine I was ready to do anything to start enjoying any sort of food!). I just figured that they would open back up the stricture and I would be sent on my way.. which they tried but they couldn’t all at once so I got admitted to the hospital that Thursday so I could be on fluids (WAS NOT expecting that one). So Friday I had another Endo done and they seem to think they have opened the hole from my new stomach to the new section of the small intestine. I had to stay Friday for more liquids and to make sure things didn’t leak.   Needless to say in short you know your body, if something is wrong don’t wait – call your doctor immediately or go to the ER. 

I’m doing great. Once they opened the hole back up I feel like a new person. It can only hopefully get better from here.

I dropped under a BMI of 50 today!!! Thats been a goal of mine since January when i started my 6 month diet! I am a week out and so far have had (Knock on wood) no problems with my RNY.  I have to say a week out, its the best decision I think I have ever made!!!! I haven't been under 300 in at least 6 years. 

Well after cleaning my house for the past two weeks (Its amazing how many hours I spent thinking about food), I think I am ready.  My surgery is at 11 on Tuesday.  Its been a long process (over a year with appointments and diets) that has just flown by.  Like so many others on the site, im so excited to start the new journey in my life, however im also fearful of the unknown.  Just taking it as it comes to me.  My family will be with me and I have a great support group with my friends.  I can't wait:)