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Hi, my name is Sue and I live in Central Florida. I have been overweight my whole entire life. I cannot remember a day when I was thin...oh wait; I was thin when I was bulimic. Of course, I couldn't enjoy life because I was so tortured by food and what I needed to do with it. I was miserable. I am glad that I was able to quit. Actually, I didn't quit until I found out that I was pregnant with my first child, 9 years ago. I knew I couldn't have a healthy baby and continue with such a life threatening habit.
I am a divorced mom of two adorable boys. Tomas is 9 and Mateo is 6. Besides my health, my decision to pursue WLS is to be able to be the kind of mom who has the energy to do anything she wants with her children. I truly love the outdoors and swimming, but I am too embarrassed to go to any public place to swim. When we go to my brother's house and swim in their pool, I am fine. However, I can play with them for about 15 minutes and I'm telling them that mommy needs to rest. I end up resting for the rest of the day. I am tired of being that person. I am tired of being a person who is trapped in her self created jail cell. I get anxiety attacks when I think about having to leave my house to go somewhere public
I have Florida Health Care, FHC, amd my insurance covers 100% of the lap RNY. All I have to pay are my co-pays and I have to begin attending weekly nutritional meetings for roughly 4 months before the doctor will even consider me a patient. My doctor's name is Joel Sebastien. I met him once at the informational seminar held at his hospital. He was very informative and patient. It didn't matter what type of question was asked of him, he was very thorough in his responses. He and his multi-disciplinary team (psychologist, dietician, exercise physiologist rn, etc.,) are also very kind and helpful. They are always smiling and it is obvious they genuinely care about your health. They are not in it for the buck. They are there to see us succeed. He discussed his complication rate without missing a beat. The aftercare program is also top notch. There is a support group that meets monthly for those who are less than 1 year out. They also have a support group for patients who are over 1 year out. They don't just take your money and show you the door. Instead, I feel welcomed and truly supported. Can you tell that I just love my doctor and his staff? I can't wait to spend the rest of my life getting to know everyone.........
My main concern about all of this is that I am afraid to die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My children hardly ever see their dad and they are always afraid that I left them. My youngest will literally scream if he can't find me. They think I am going to abandon them or something. If I were to die, I could NEVER forgive myself for leaving them. I am in tears as I write this because I want this procedure so badly, but at the same time, I want to be here for my children. I am very scared and I don't even have a surgery date yet. I don't have ANY other conditions besides, obesity, high cholesterol and high triglycerides. Other than that, I am fine. No cardiac conditions, no pulmonary conditions, I feel like I am the perfect candidate. I WILL follow my doctor's orders to the letter, to make sure NOTHING goes wrong.
I don't know if anyone else has ever felt this guilty and/or selfish about their decision to have WLS, but I would love to hear from you!!!
I have been lurking in the shadows of this website for many, many months, but I am finally ready to set foot on the board. I need support and I know that I will find it here. I have witnessed so much compassion on this site.
I am so excited to be a part of such a wonderful site.
Take care,
Sue
About Me
Deltona, FL
Location
28.4
BMI
Surgery
07/02/2008
Surgery Date
Mar 31, 2007
Member Since
