Its been a tough month....

Mar 13, 2010

  I guess the free ride has come to an end.. It was so easy before to say no as I didnt crave things.. This month has been very stressful from personal family issues and  I havent been working my DS like I should be. Its easy to fall back into pre op crap. Oh.. im still drinking my Fruit2O like a mad woman but  I havent been low carbing high protein like I should for most of the month. I have discovered that now Im going to have to just work at it and  log it if I really want to take full advantage of this miracle called the DS.  Yeah. it sucks.. logging and all that but mentally I need that accountability as my will power just isnt cutting it.  I have got to curb my sweet tooth somehow as when I stress I crave sugar bigtime.  Who would have thought stupid little grapes are so high carb too.. i mean really 1 grape has almost as much carbs as a hershey kiss!  which.. isnt bad.. but the days of beingable to eat only a few kisses and be ok... are over.. I want more now.  The problem is that my mind may want it but when I do over indulge then I get gassy... lovely.  Ive not lost very much weight this month and Im dissapointed in myself.  I wanted to reach having lost 150.. but I guess that will be next month or so.  They say it slows down around now.. but geeze.. I guess I got spoiled on the ride and was just in a free falll and now came to a stop.  Now its up to me.. how bad do I really want this? I want it so bad.. but I suck at will power.. If I was good I wouldnt  have needed WLS.  I am very thankful for my DS as Iknow that there is no way in hell I could have done this with anything less. I would have crashed and burned along time ago.  I love my full fat foods.. I just wish there was  more low carb ready to eat easy desserts out there.. .. I need it bad. 


 

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