Sunshine73
Ok, here it goes....
I will be 36yrs old on 4/10/09. I am 4'11(1/2)..lol. Last I weighed at the doctor I was 218.3. My BMI is about 44. I don't look like I weigh that much, I do carry it well. I am more so bottom heavy-hips, thighs, booty :). I know many many people that have had the RNY surgery, some had great results, some that made me say .. oh hell no.. because they were to skinny and looked like death,(later found out that it was due to undetected ulcers that caused her to be malnurished-needless to say-she looks much better). I told people that I thought about getting it done, and of course I got the, you don't need that, just get in the gym, eat better, blah blah blah. And it made me rethink it, and made me ask what the hell was I thinking.. Well I really don't know what snapped, but all I know is that.. I have high blood pressure-last checked it was 174/96, then before that it was 160 something/104. The lowest I ever got down to was 138/42 and that was my Primary Dr wanted to see before she would clear me to do the surgery. I had to be put on 2 blood pressure meds-1 at night, 1 in the morning. I have migraines, that may or may not be hormonal, but are definitely due to stress-I take aleve, migraten and amtrypline, I have insomnia-I take ambien. I get cellulitis(boils) frequenly since 2007. I am also ADHD/Bipolar only taking meds for the ADHD. I take allergy meds as needed, more in the summer as I suffer with Urcartia during the warmer months. I am just really tired of taking all the meds, not remembering half the time all the crap that I do take. I have reoccuring back sprains and pinched nerves that I see the Chiropractor for. The lowest weight I have been was 120lbs..and that was in high school-before my first daughter(who is now 18 and graduating in June 09-whoo hooooo and college bound in Aug...) I was a high school athlete.. softball, tennis, track, basketball, flag football. I want to be able to do those things again, without feeling like I am about to cough up a lung. I wanted to try out for the women's football league here in Chicago, but I'm afraid I will stroke out or something. My only brother who is 43 has already had 2 strokes in 5 months. I REFUSE to be laid up in a hospital bed, because I didn't atleast try to do something that avoid from being there. I just makes me cry to think that I allowed myself to get this way, or even to think how I let it go this long. I just want to be a healthier and happier me by the age of 40.
STILL UPDATING..........
