6:45 am can't get here soon enough!

Jan 12, 2010

I just got the call.  I have to be at the hospital at 6:45 am tomorrow! Hopefully it won't be a thing where I get there and surgery isn't until 1pm! Driving back from the gym, I could really feel this sense of good coming over me. For the first time in weeks, I feel really happy and at peace with this decision. I went to a support group at my Dr's office and for the first time, I didn't say a peep. I just listened. I listened to peoples success stories, their fears, I just listened. We are all not alone in this journey. We are all like one giant team. I worked out right after the support group and I had renewed enthuasium in what I am doing. Maybe its just endorphins. Maybe I'm just crazy, but I know, for the first time in a long time, I'm healthy, I'm getting stronger, lighter, and overall happier. For weeks, I thought, am I doing the right thing, did I pick the right procedrure, am I gonna leave my wife over this. I can't worry about that now. I have no interest in worrying about it! I haven't had a good nights sleep in days. But today, I am at peace with this. I'm sure I'm gonna be nervous tomorrow, who wouldn't be.

So the plan is, going to work in a little bit til 9pm., coming home and making a second trip to the gym. Then I'll unwind by watching the Biggest Loser on DVR. No mention of food in there. The reason? I don't let it control my life anymore! I'm getting my life back. Could I lose all the weight without surgery? Probably. Could I keep it all off? Never!

Thank you everybody for your support the last few months. I wouldn't be where I am without it! I can only hope for you guys who are still waiting that I can be supportive of you. And for everyone getting surgery tomorrow, look at this as its our new birthday! We will be alive again! I wish you all good luck and  will say a prayer for you all!

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