8-21-10 post. Home from the hospital part 2

Aug 24, 2010

Hi everyone!  I want to thank you all for your prayers and well wishes.  I found them all inspirational.  You guys are the best!

Well so far so good...mostly.  I have been adjusting to home life and I can say that I am so thankful to be out of the hospital.  My recovery is still on-going and I am struggling to get my liquids in.  It wasn't a big deal for me after my surgery for the week I was home before going back in.  I was getting in about 70 oz. a day.  Now I'm struggling to get in 40 oz.   I have only been off IV fluids for 2 days so I'm sure I wont be dehydrated right away but I am seriously concerned about it.  It seems to be getting better each day so hopefully i can get back on track.  I think it has something to do with the multiple scopes and repairs they did to my pouch...maybe swollen.  I have been tolerating the soft and pureed foods and it seems that the food actually calms my stomach.  

So here are my thoughts on all of this.  I still think that I needed this surgery!  None of that has changed.  But you can bet your life that I have thought to myself more than once that I wish I would have never done this to myself.  This was too much to endure!  I never bargained for this.  You think to yourself...I wont be that one percent guy, I will work through it just like everyone else and reap the benefits and live the good life.  Two weeks in the hospital, the docs not knowing what was wrong, losing blood and needing transfused, getting scoped 4 times, vomiting blood!!!  That was some of the scariest unsettling stuff I have ever gone through.  I picked the best Dr. on this side of the state.  She has done 8000 of these surgeries and is the head of the department at a center of excellence.  So, basically shit happens sometimes.  I realize that I am still really close to these setbacks and I am not really getting to enjoy the benefits of my hardships.  I am sure that if everything goes well from here on out I will be able to get some perspective and I will be more tolerant of everything.  Like I said before I needed this surgery, I want to be alive to enjoy my kids.  But, understand that unfortunate things can happen to good people.  I hope this makes me stronger and allows me to appreciate the benefits...when they come.  

I'm not trying to scare anyone (Scott) or deter you from making the decisions that will benefit you.  I am using this board to get the support and insight from my friends on here.  We share the good , the bad and the ugly.

Thanks for hanging in there with me everyone!

Swede

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