sweetdixieflowerinak
The Stats
Oct 22, 2006
I have a calendar that I've been keeping track of my weight loss on. I'm going to transfer the data here so others can see my progression.
03/9/05 Surgery day 351
03/23/05 331 lbs -20 lbs
04/06/05 330 lbs -21 lbs
05/04/05 307 lbs -44 lbs
05/08/05 304 lbs -47 lbs
05/22/05 301 lbs -50 lbs
05/23/05 299 lbs -52 lbs
05/25/05 297 lbs -54 lbs
05/29/05 295 lbs -56 lbs
05/30/05 294 lbs -57 lbs
06/05/05 293 lbs -58 lbs
06/12/05 288 lbs -63 lbs
06/13/05 287 lbs -64 lbs
06/22/05 282 lbs -69 lbs
07/03/05 281 lbs -70 lbs
07/07/05 279 lbs -72 lbs
07/10/05 278 lbs -73 lbs
07/17/05 277 lbs -74 lbs
07/18/05 275 lbs -76 lbs
07/19/05 273 lbs -78 lbs
07/20/05 272 lbs -79 lbs
07/23/05 271 lbs -80 lbs
07/26/05 270 lbs -81 lbs
07/29/05 269 lbs -82 lbs
08/01/05 268 lbs -83 lbs
08/02/05 267 lbs -84 lbs
08/04/05 265 lbs -86 lbs
08/17/05 264 lbs -87 lbs (Geez 13 days it took to lose 1 pound Arrrggghhhh!!!!!)
08/21/05 263 lbs -88 lbs
08/23/05 262 lbs -89 lbs
08/24/05 260 lbs -91 lbs
08/28/05 259 lbs -92 lbs
08/29/05 257 lbs -94 lbs
08/31/05 255 lbs -96 lbs
09/04/05 253 lbs -98 lbs
09/05/05 252 lbs -99 lbs
09/13/05 251 lbs -100 lbs Wahoo! I can't believe it!
09/17/05 250 lbs -101 lbs
09/24/05 249 lbs -102 lbs I'm not losing so fast this month.
09/25/05 248 lbs -103 lbs
09/28/05 246 lbs -105 lbs
09/29/05 245 lbs -106 lbs
10/02/05 244 lbs -107 lbs
10/13/05 243 lbs -108 lbs Finally! It only took 11 days to lose one pound!
10/18/05 241 lbs -110 lbs
10/24/05 240 lbs -111 lbs
10/25/05 239 lbs -112 lbs
10/26/05 238 lbs -113 lbs
10/30/05 237 lbs -114 lbs
11/02/05 235 lbs -116 lbs
11/07/05 234 lbs -117 lbs
11/08/05 233 lbs -118 lbs
11/13/05 230 lbs -121 lbs
11/14/05 229 lbs -122 lbs
11/15/05 228 lbs -123 lbs
12/04/05 227 lbs -124 lbs I've been on quite a stall there. I was getting discouraged.
12/06/05 226 lbs -125 lbs
12/07/05 225 lbs -126 lbs
12/11/05 224 lbs -127 lbs
12/13/05 223 lbs -128 lbs
12/15/05 221 lbs -130 lbs
12/16/05 220 lbs -131 lbs
12/26/05 219 lbs -132 lbs
12/27/05 218 lbs -133 lbs
12/28/05 217 lbs -134 lbs
12/29/05 215 lbs -136 lbs
01/09/06 214 lbs -137 lbs This is where my one of the surgeons in my surgeon's office said I'd most likely stop. Huh! Showed him!
01/16/06 213 lbs -138 lbs
01/17/06 212 lbs -139 lbs
01/22/06 211 lbs -140 lbs
01/25/06 210 lbs -141 lbs
01/29/06 208 lbs -143 lbs
02/18/06 207 lbs -144 lbs Sheesh I thought I was done. 22 days to lose one pound. Yikes! Scarey!
02/21/06 206 lbs -145 lbs
02/25/06 204 lbs -147 lbs
03/05/06 203 lbs -148 lbs
03/08/06 202 lbs -149 lbs
03/12/06 201 lbs -150 lbs
03/16/06 199 lbs -152 lbs Yeah! I'm finally to onederland. I can't believe it.
03/31/06 198 lbs -153 lbs Boy is this weight loss moving slowwwww. Oh well at least it's not going back up.
04/01/06 197 lbs -154 lbs
04/04/06 196 lbs -155 lbs
04/28/06 195 lbs -156 lbs
04/30/06 194 lbs -157 lbs
05/08/06 193 lbs -158 lbs
05/10/06 192 lbs -159 lbs
05/11/06 191 lbs -160 lbs
05/27/06 189 lbs -162 lbs
06/03/06 188 lbs -163 lbs
06/10/06 187 lbs -164 lbs
06/20/06 186 lbs -165 lbs
07/07/06 184 lbs -167 lbs
07/08/06 183 lbs -168 lbs
07/09/06 182 lbs -169 lbs
07/30/06 181 lbs -170 lbs
08/04/06 179 lbs -172 lbs
08/13/06 177 lbs -174 lbs
08/29/06 175 lbs -176 lbs
09/03/06 173 lbs -178 lbs
09/18/06 172 lbs -179 lbs
09/23/06 171 lbs -180 lbs
09/24/06 170 lbs -181 lbs
09/25/06 169 lbs -182 lbs
09/29/06 168 lbs -183 lbs
10/24/06 166 lbs -185 lbs
Exchanged my coat today.
Oct 18, 2006
Turning my back on the Plus Sized section
Aug 14, 2006
Not obese anymore
Jul 06, 2006
Walking
Apr 30, 2006
My husband, dog, and I went on a walk tonight. We walked down by Cook Inlet and the Park Strip. It's really a pretty area and I love going down there. We took a wrong turn tonight and ended up on a cul-de-sac. At the end was a school playground. We had to cut through there to get back to the street. Well we went by the swings. My husband asked me how long has it been since you swung. I can't even remember. He said go ahead swing. I said no I'm too big. Then I thought what the heck. I hopped on and took off. My dog went nuts. She was charging at me. She's never seen anyone swing before. It was such a wonderful feeling. I fit in the seat of the swing and I was swinging really high. It felt like I was flying. We are going to walk by there again Wednesday night so I can get some pictures of me swinging. Weeeeeee!!!!!!
My husband picked me up tonight.
Apr 09, 2006
I just had to write this down. My husband picked me up tonight. Lifted me off the floor. He's been trying to get me to hop on his back for a piggy back ride, but I'm chicken. So he squatted down and grabbed me behind my legs and lifted me up. I'm so scared his back is gonna be out tomorrow. He said no way that I'm not that heavy. Another thing that happened tonight is I ran into an old friend at Walmart in the parking lot. She was getting in her car and I wanted to get her attention so I honked my horn. She thought I was someone that was mad trying to tell her not to leave her basket by my car. I got out and she had this funny smile on her face. I said her name and she was looking at me with this very puzzled look on her face and said I'm sorry I don't know who you are. I said Sarita it's me Kelli. She almost fell on the ground. Her jaw dropped and she said Oh my gosh I didn't even recognize you. She said oh my goodness you have lost so much weight. So we hugged and caught up on some things. Exchanged phone numbers. It was so bizarre to have someone that was my Maid of Honor in my first wedding not recognize me. We used to be so close and through the years with me moving out of state for a while and having different jobs we just lost touch. We had not seen each other in probably 4 years. I have been feeling down, but seeing my old friend just perked me right up. It's a nice feeling.
Arrrrggggghhhh!
Feb 11, 2006
Sadness Unrelated to Weight Loss
Jan 14, 2006
About 3 months ago I noticed that depression was slowly creeping up on me. I have been taking Wellbutrin XL 300 mg for a while and it's always done well for me. I have just been laying around not doing anything on my days off. I don't even want to get out of bed. I went to see my PCP Wednesday and she put me on Cymbalta as well. I didn't want to come off the Wellbutrin because it's the first one that ever worked for me. She also gave me some Xanax for sleeping and anxiety attacks I've been having. Even though I was just laying around I couldn't sleep especially at night. I toss and turn and wake up after only sleeping for about an hour once I finally got to sleep. I had been taking benadryl and that seemed to work for me, but it just stopped. I guess I got used to it. I did manage to get up today and do some laundry and clean the bathroom. I have been on the cymbalta since Wednesday. I don't know if it works that quick or if I just got sick of looking at my dirty bathroom.
Last Sunday was one of the saddest days of my life. I had to have one of my dogs put to sleep. Words cannot express how tore up I am. I have been crying for the last month. She was so sick and even though she was in the animal hospital 3 times they just couldn't get her better. I went to the hospital and held her for a long time and talked to her and promised her no more needles and no more tests and no more eye drops and no more diapers. I kissed her and petted her and my husband did too. We sat and cried and just held on to her. She was in pain even with a pain patch on and she started whimpering. I knew it was time for me to say goodbye. It was the hardest thing I ever did. I stayed with her for about a half hour after they put her down. I just didn't want to say goodbye. I have never been so sad in my life. Bailey was my first dog that was just mine. Not my parents. We have been through so much together. She was always by my side and she was just a fun dog. I still have my other baby. Sugar Baby. We love her too and now I find myself watching her like a hawk to make sure she is OK. I'm afraid she will get sick too. Bailey was sick ever since I got her with one thing for another. She had chronic dry eye in one eye that she went blind in. We put drops and cleaned it 3 times a day to keep it comfortable. She had a cataract in the other eye that we had fixed last year and had to put drops in constantly. She had diabetes that we had treated with 2 shots of insulin a day for the past 2 years and she was on a special diet. I did everything I could for her, but in the end I couldn't save her. She had high lipids and triglycerides that aggravated her pancreas and bowels. She had a really bad case of pancreatitis. We had her cremated and my husband got her ashes last night in a pretty little tin and they had made an impression of her little paw on a little plaque and put her name and a heart on it. When he handed that to me last night I broke down really hard. As I sit here typing this my heart is breaking. I have gone through all the guilt feelings. Thinking if I had done this or that she wouldn't be dead now. I know logically that is not true, but you know how you blame yourself anyway. I have a special box that I'm going to put her little ash tin in and I'm going to put her paw print, leash and collar in too. It still hurts, but I'm getting better. I know I did the right thing by letting her go. She's not in pain anymore. She'll be waiting for me in heaven.
Whew! Christmas is over.
Dec 25, 2005
Don't get me wrong. I am happy to celebrate Jesus' birthday, but people just get so caught up in the material things. Everyone gets stressed. I get stressed. I like to give gifts to people, but I like giving them something they will like and use. So I struggle trying to come up with just the right thing.
My dog has been sick for the last 3 weeks we've been back and forth to the vet doing blood tests trying to figure out what is wrong with her. Her liver enzymes are high along with her triglycerides and cholesterol. They thought she might have Cushings, but she doesn't. She already has diabetes that we have been treating for about 2 years with insulin. They switched her to a new insulin and ever since then she gets sick. I think it's the new insulin, but the vet doesn't. We are taking her in Wednesday for yet another test. Sigh. I love my dog so much and it just kills me that she isn't feeling well. I don't want to lose her. I have cried so many tears over these past three weeks. I don't know how I'm going to handle this. It's breaking my heart. I have done my best to keep up with my vitamins, protein, and water. I'm doing pretty good. I've lost 132 pounds since surgery. I feel good and I think I look pretty good. We went to my inlaws house Christmas Eve and my brother-in-law actually gasped a little when I walked in. He and his wife had not seen me since before surgery. They travel a lot for work and we don't get to see a lot of them. He later told me before they left that I looked great. I was taken aback and didn't really know how to respond at first, but finally eeked out a thankyou. I still have trouble with compliments. I get embarrassed. I have lived so many years trying to hide myself, which was hard considering how big I was. I didn't like any attention put on me and I still don't. The other day a women came to drop off her prescription at the pharmacy and I went to the window to take it. My boss was on the computer at the drop off window and she just started going on and on about how great I looked and that I was just getting so skinny. I could feel my face going red. I don't know if I would have had that reaction had someone else not been there. I just never want to have anyone think that I flaunt it. I don't. I need to learn to take compliments in a more graceful manner. Why is it so darn hard? I don't mind handing out compliments. I do it all the time and I am sincere. Hopefully I'm not embarrassing others. I am in a size 20 now. They are getting loose. I have a pair of 18's to wear already. I tried them on the other night and I can get them on and zipped without laying on the bed, but they are a little snug for my comfort so I'll wait until I lose another 5 to 10 pounds before I wear them. I can walk all over the place without getting out of breath or my feet and back aching. It's amazing. I can run up the stairs now and never breathe the least little bit heavier. I do, however; need to start exercising more. I need to start exercising more days. I hate exercising. I don't know why. The only exercise I ever like was doing the Richard Simmons aerobics. When I moved I don't have enough room in my living room to do them anymore. My husband and I are going to try to buy a house this spring. I am going to find a place that has a nice size living room so I can do my Richard Simmon's tapes. LOL I know he is goofy, but he is fun and I think he is a sincere person. I think he genuinely cares for others. OK I'm gonna get myself in gear now and try to clean up some around the house. Bye for now.
Superman can have that super part
Dec 06, 2005