SweetLuvableAngel
2 weeks post op
Feb 09, 2009
Well, I have to say that this surgery has been the single most challenging thing I've ever done. I thought it would be an easy surgery. Boy was I wrong. I woke up in the recovery room screaming in pain and didn't stop for the next 3 days until they finally found a pain med that worked for me. I had a horrible outlook on life at that point. I hated the decision I had made. I hated myself. I hated the surgery. I cried and ranted and at times even screamed. I missed my best friend....food. I still do miss it but I have hope now. I have hope that I will be able to eat normally (just smaller) in the near future. I am down 29 pounds as of today and am feeling pretty good. I still get pretty exhausted easily but when I'm not exhausted, I have boundless energy. I can't wait for my body to catch up to my mind. I want to run and play and my fat body says noooooooooooo. LOL! I'm shrinking though and hopefully soon, I'll be able to run and play and be the active person that I want to be. Hubby is leaving for a 6 month deployment on the 21st and I don't even want to think about how I'm going to get through this without him. I'll do it though. Knowing that this is our last deployment ever helps a lot. Hopefully the time will fly and he will not recognize me when he gets home. To new post-ops out there who are having trouble, it's normal and okay. Your feelings and hormones are going to be all over the place and that's okay. It does get better. I promise! Love to all!
