Writing is like Therapy

Oct 27, 2009

So... I am doing better not being so hard on myself... Trying to see myself as that same fat person.

I am still maintaining my weight in fact I have lost a couple of pounds in the last few weeks so I am happy :-)
This week has been rather interesting, and I have been looking back over the last two years and thinking about where I was and how far I have come since I had surgery and how incredibly different my life is.  

I have come such a long long way and I really need to be proud of myself for that, and I need to keep pushing on and keep progressing.

I used to be really self concious about the fact that I had Gastric Bypass surgery, I didn't want to tell anyone especailly most of my family, I was really hesitant to tell people about it, but that has changed a lot.  I took a huge step in my life to get help and get healthy, there shouldn't be any shame in that.  Do Drugs addicts get ridiculed for going to rehab, or alcoholics for going to AA?  Why should I be judged because I got the help I needed?

Now its different, I will tell any one and don't feel uncomfortable at all telling people how far I have come, or tell them about the steps I have taken to become the person I am today.

Some people still seem to have a problem with it however - i have one particular family memeber who thinks I have screwed my body up for the rest of my life, and over this past weekend made a very good point to tell me that I was still fat (mind you I am only 140 lbs - started at 300) Some people will bever change their opinions and always think they are better because they have never had to experiance life as a (fat) person.  For those people - I have no time in my life for you, I am happy and healthy and going strong every day, living life more than ever, and enjoying every minute of it!

I am not going to get down on myself when people say stupid things like call me fat... because I am happy with me, and comfortable being the person I am and FINALLY Comfortable in my own skin, how AMAZING is that!! I never thought it would be possible to come as far as I have in the last 2 years .  Down 160 lbs and maintaining, I have a wonderful man in my life who treats me better than any one has ever treated me,. I have made new freinds, and pushed those volitile abusive people out of my life - those who don't really care about me.  I have a new career (one I very much enjoy) I have started over compleltey in soo many ways,and it was all soo worth it.  It has been an amazing ride, and its just beinging!  Life has just begun for me i am no longer sitting on the side lines! :-)

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West Allis, WI
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25.4
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09/04/2007
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Apr 03, 2007
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