Taaisha

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Okay  I lost 43lbs so far yay me lol. SO now i need to start adding a work out routine to this which is hard with my work schedule but will start i have a gym membership for a reason so I am planning to start tomorrow since its the begining of my work week excited about that ish not really. But glad i have a job

Ok is it just me or does every one else feels this way maybe  i could not tell before bc i ate through out the day but its like my breath stinks. I am constantly trying to brush my teeth and it sucks ass majorly. Is this happening to any one. Today i went bought my scale got all my good for my puree diet but man i was out for like  3 hours and got wiped out i bought some protein shots hoping that will help give me energy if i start taking them mid day to help push me through out the day.  I cant wait to eat like reall food not pureed blended etc but it will all come in due time i guess

So it was 2 weeks ago yesterday i was cut and i lost weight since I am excited but tired. I can finaly eat soft food im so glad to be able to chew my food up and have to swallow. I met with the dietician today got moved to a soft diet eating eggs yay. Okay so my problem is protien and water lol like every body else.  48!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OOOZZZ of water is a lot of water to try and drink every day i need a water bottle to help keep track of it. I also need a scale will buy today and protein shots I tried the unjury just wasnt for me i dont like having to drink it in 80z of water i like being able to do it quick like a shot she gave me some ideas so i am going to go and check them out. I need stuff that is quick and that will get the protien down fast. It sucks because when i ate what i want i normaly drank at that time having to seperate the 2 doesnt help at all either. Oh i am so glad i kept old bras i grew out of my new bras are becoming to big around keep rubing on my surgery scar so that was becoming an issue. Besides that they said i look goodi feel good. I been working out but stop for a couple days my legs were killing after i did up hill tread mill climbing thought i was going to die they hurt so bad. SO i might switch to the bike and see if that helps let me get down to 200lb and maybe start trying to do more on the treadmill. Or i need to get on the elipitcal or somthing im off to take a nap tired as hell

So sugar free gummies were a hit I loved to be able to eat somthing with substance that u didnt just swallow it worked awesome. I do think I gave my self freezer burn with popsicles. I would recomend people try the gummies the next day was the best i so i am going to make some more tonight

Or sugar free shaved ice that would be so good wouldnt it lol. Also yogurt is hard to find for dinner i had 2 ounces of yogurt purreed again by my personal chef grandma gots to love her and 2 sugar free popsicle filled me up. Today was the first day I felt hungry could be because I experimented with that meat bad idea learned my lesson from that. But i like not feeling hungry but i did get this feeling like i should eat somthing i know weired. I do need to get more hobies too lol. Tomorrow i am going to walk around the race track at the high shchool. i got to get my mind out of the food mind set. Walking though walmart i felt like a crack head in a crack store lol but i walked out with stuff to make my own sugar free popsicles yeppers

I am not hungry but the texture and taste of every thing i want i tried to eat a boiled egg much as I expected it ended in a violent painfull episode that just got over. This is crazy its like i am not hungry but the taste lol. I guess the battle of turning food into just somthing i eat to stay alive not any thing i enjoy any more is starting out rocky god damit.

Okay so people try these and tell me how they taste and if we should


Pine Apple Suprise
4 ounces of low fat milk/Soy
1 scoop of vanilla protien powder
1/2 ounce/shot of sugar free pineapple syrup
2-4 ice cubes and blend

Iced Mocha
4 ounces of low fat milk/Soy
1 scoop of Chocolate  protien powder
1/2 ounce/shot of sugar free coffeee syrup or reall coffee
2-4 ice cubes and blend

Root Beer Float
4 ounces of low fat milk/Soy milk
1 scoop of vanilla protien powder
1/2 ounce/shot of sugar free root beer syrup
2-4 ice cubes and blend

Strawberry Banana Shake
4 ounces of low fat milk/Soy milk
1 scoop of vanilla protien powder or plain
1/4 forzen banana
1/2 ounce/shot of sugar free Strawberry syrup
2-4 ice cubes and blend

Mudslide
4 ounces of low fat milk/Soy milk
1 scoop of vanilla protien powder
1/3 ounce/shot of sugar free irish cream syrup
1/3 shot of sugar free Kahula
2-4 ice cubes and blend

Chocolate RUssian
4 ounces of low fat milk/Soy milk
1 scoop of Chocolate protien powder
1/2 ounce/shot of sugar free Kahula  syrup
2-4 ice cubes and blend

Carmel Creme
4 ounces of low fat milk/Soy milk
1 scoop of vanilla protien powder
1/2 ounce/shot of sugar free Caramel syrup
2-4 ice cubes and blend

Butter Rum
4 ounces of low fat milk/Soy milk
1 scoop of vanilla protien powder
1/2 ounce/shot of sugar free butter rum syrup
2-4 ice cubes and blend

Peanut Butter Dream
4 ounces of low fat milk/Soy milk
1 scoop of Chocolate protien powder
1/2 ounce/shot of sugar free peanut butter syrup
2-4 ice cubes and blend

Pina Colada
4 ounces of low fat milk/Soy milk
1 scoop of vanilla protien powder
1/3 ounce/shot of sugar free Coconut syrup
1/3 ounce.shot sugar free pineapple syrup
2-4 ice cubes and blend

Fuzzy Navel
4 ounces of low fat milk/Soy milk
1 scoop of vanilla protien powder
1/3 ounce/shot of sugar free peach syrup
1/3 ounce/shot sugar free orange syrup
2-4 ice cubes and blend

Chocolate Covered Cherry
4 ounces of low fat milk/Soy milk
1 scoop of Chocolate protien powder
1/2 ounce/shot of sugar free Cherry syrup
2-4 ice cubes and blend

Okay So I come from a big line up of southern girls we love to eat and cook good, Genteics I tell you. SO now that I started this my grandma decided to change her eating habits. LOl whatever she eats better but still worse. SO yesterday after I walked the mall for 2.5 hours yes straight on my feet. She asked me to buy her BBQ!!!!!!!!!! may day not BBQ with the fango pop and coblers. i just looked at her like hello u were there i cant eat that why are u torturing me why jesus why. SO we went to the BBQ at first I said no I cant have any thing.  then I backed out ordered a lil bit of the shreded beef I know i know. i got home my grandma blended up in the blender while I eagerly awated my meat paste was alll excited she then had to add some ketchup 1/2 of tsp to make it more pasty and gave it to me. It was gross the texture was off I hated it but i ate it. The whole night I have felt guilty and full because its taking forever to digest and Wouldnt allow me to make from for other foods. I decided after that strictly liquid no going off the beaten path to new gross adventures.
So my other issue is Peanutbutter.Can I have it? Its high In protein and fat. One of my recipes I got from the hospital includes a peanut butter shake which I am drinking now and its so good. Can I eat peanut butter alone or is it a bad idea?
So I am learning to stay away from things hasnt been a week. Its not that I am emotional eater I have some to figure out. I love the taste and texture of food. If I have to blend and it loses the texture the way it feels i dont want it because its gross. Lol so now i have to come and figureout a new love  but its like how i would give to feel the texture and break down of a pretezel that every one had yesterday at the mall I had water. No carbs for sure. ITs hard but I know I can be strong just have to stick in there. BUt if any one knows any thing about peanut butter let me know know. Also I would love to meet with a group outside of the meeting and maybe do a cooking thing together. I got 2 cook books we can have a thing where we decide on a recipe pair up and cook it. It shows whats good for the diffrent stages of surgery and etc and if you u can blend it. Then we can learn to cook the food get tips and stuff that be really nice
Taaisha

Surgery is done I had to stay one extra night in the hospital because of the pain and nausea but once we got that all under control. I was able to go home. lets talk food I miss candy the taste and texture of it. OKay so I chewed and swallowed on gummy snack I know but it was so good i felt bad but its so hard because candy was my thing I loves the candy. I ate 2 0zs pudding but have been so full since then I cant eat any more its geting insane. Its like my medication is taking up alot of space in my stomach. But my grandma made some chicken noodle soup the dietation said she could blend it so she did and now its all creammy. Trying to stay away from the cream soups because of the gas and lactose u know. please excuse my spelling under the influence of oxycodone lol. I cant keep awake I feel like an old person I keep going in and out of sleep I been journaling my journey when  I can keep my eyes open. At this point so far not bad could be worse I am gratefull I have loving family here to help me who cares

Its almost one day away i am so nervous and hungry. i cant believe i am almost here its insane after all these months of trying and doing all the work its almost surgery day. My grandma flys in this tomorrow to help me with my surgery my. i went to the beach this weekend to relax and ate a bunch of crap it was like a funnerl of a good bye to all my  favorite foods but its for the better. I get to say good bye to all the bad habbits and hello the new healthy habits. Yay so exciting. I am very nervous because of the pain how will it feel. How soon can i bounce back what to do its all crazy.  I am more scared of the pain i never had surgery a baby i can barely tolerate the dentist but i am going to do it so nervous nervous nervous.