Hey lil sis. I wish that I could help you right now ... turn your sadness into joy. I remember right before your surgery we had a conversation about how happy you would be. You are now a size 12-14 in 7 months! Be happy and be proud. Repeat this phrase.... "this is my life today but it does not have to be my life tomorrow" Only you can allow the joy that you deserve to come through. Say right now... " I have people in my life that love me, care about me, and want to see me succeed" say these things and beleive them. If you ever need me, you know that I am only a phone call away. I am so proud that you are working. You have 5 children that need and love you. So, believe in yourself. Love you. M.Y.