Today I go to the doctor to see about getting an revision...I know i know I know. I have used this tool and I just don't know what is going on with it...DID IT BREAK...I am not being funny, but I am eatting between 800-1200 cal a day, tried the liquid diet, still go to the gym and nothing is coming off. Some say up your calories so i do,....NOTHING...Some say lower...i do...NOTHING...some say start from the begining..i do...NOTHING...I even stopped eating and just did the protein shakes..I lost weight but then gaining it back when I started eatting again. It is so upseting to the point that i want to cry. So I am going to ask my doc for a revision. I have been reading on it for awhile and I know that it is my only hope. I am still chubby and I am happy with that, but I still want to lose just a little more. Shit my "window" isn't closed yet. I am only 13 months out. I will just see what he says. I can not stress how bad I want this. I figure if I can't then I can't but I do not want to hear no today. Bad enough I only have how many days left of work...My company is finally closing the doors to this place and the truth is I am not mad, but I just want my insurance..I do not care about anything else. I need this doctor to tell me yes and that he can get me on the table before the end of dec...if not then I will be this size for the rest of my life wishing and hopingthat I can get down smaller.
If you are reading this say a little preyer for me...I am to be at the doctors at 11:15 today...
