Tammie J.

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Well it has been exactly one year today, and i have lost half of me!! I am down to about 138 pounds and a size 7. I have been maintaining this weight for about a month and a half. Unfortunatley, there has been alot of stress that has assisted in the weight loss, but I am working on management of that issue. I just know I am will survive! So here I am, one year after weight loss surgery, I have lost 140 pounds.
Good luck to everyone who is just starting the process, it is difficult, I know.

I dont think I wore I a size 8 since I was nine years old. My family tod me I looked itll. I need to gain about 20 punds to be normal...I am not complaing, Just a little worried..It will work out,,,I hope, we will see how it goes!
Tell me about your progress, Keep me posted

In the beginning I thought, WOW this is great, now I am down 22 pounds below my goal. I am getting alittle concerned because I still have a few more months of losing. I am wearing a size 8 which I have not worn since 6th grade.  My sister is worried as I have so many health issues since surgery. My gyn is concerned as well. I will keep you all posted on this matter. Any ideas please feel free to help.

I never thought I would see this day! Actually I cannot remember the last time I wore a size 10, but I do know the smallest I was in highschool was a 12/13. People ask me all the time "Dont you see it?" I tell them "No, when I look in the mirror I still see the same Tammie I have always seen". I dont see myself any different. Is that crazy or normal? I dont know. It was nice today, I was out grocery shopping and this attractive guy parked behind me and as we both got out of our cars he stated "Well, today is my lucky day, Its not that often I get to park up front and share a spot with such an attractive woman". I did not even know how to respond to him, its been so long since somebody has complimented me like that. Then of course the negative thoughts come, and I think in the back of mind "Well would he have felt that way if I was still the way I use to be?" Then I think to myself "probably not". and I end it at that. I guess the relationship I was in before my surgery and the first part of my surgery has really done alot of damage to my self esteem. I work all day long teaching people how to solve their problems, and hell half the time I cannot even solve my own. Oh and in regards to the previous relationship folks, the jerk is still messing with me. He stole my daughters new cell phone for her birthday and my jewelry out of my house while I was at work. He later informed me and the police "Well I bought most of it I should be able to have it back". Is this guy nuts??? And to top things off the idiot left a note on my bed stating "Now I give you reason not to trust me". So he breaks into my home and steals mine and my daughters things and leaves a note to let me know it was him! To be honest, it was pretty devastating to me. I had to re buy my daughter cell phone and it was not cheap. Its her 16th Birthday gift so I got her one of those sidekick phones. And I really felt sad and violated that someone had done that not only to me but to my baby. My son is graduating and turning 18. I bought him a car for his birthday-graduation gift. To be honest, it really made me feel good to be able to do something special for them both. They have really suffered through this whole weight loss and weight gain cycle with me over the years and what comes with the cycle is depression so I really feel my kids suffered just as much if not more than I did over the years. Anyways, nothing else really going on with me, I just wanted  to check in and get some feelings out there. I hope you are all doing well on your journey and take care. I will keep everyone posted

Well I did it! I stepped on the scale this morning and it said i weighed 169! Wow,  I lost 101 pounds...in 61/2 months! I was shocked, and surprised seems how I eat so much more now! I orginally claimed my goal weight to be 170 but I guess by looking at my body, I could still lose some weight in my tummy area so I am hoping that at 160 my stomach area will be alittle flatter I still am wearing a size 12. Things are going well, It was funny because I had to take one of my mentally ill clients into the surgeons office yesterday for a post op appt for a gallbladder surgery, and the surgeon began lecturing my client about changing his eating habits on and on. I told the surgeon that we try to promote the clients to eat healthy but due to them being adults, we really cannot tell them that they can not order a pizza or eat at Mc Donalds. So the surgeon tells my client " You better watch out with what you eat, you may turn out to be like some of my other kind of patients". I had to laugh and I told Dr Juarez "I am one of your other kind of patients, you did gastric bypass on me six months ago" He looked shocked and told me I was doing a real good job  That made me feel awesome, because I really dont have alot of support as I am sure if you read my blogs you know, if it wasnt for all of your positive comments, I really dont know how I would be feeling. So thanks to all of you and thanks to you Dr Juarez for not even recognizing me six months later!

Well I have two more pounds to go and I will have lost exactly 100 pounds!!! I am so happy about this achievement. I think its time for me to make other changes in my life as well. My boyfriend of three years is really starting to bother me. He is always so negative, and still makes his little comments to humiliate me. Though I knew in the beginning that he was a very unhealthy piece in my life, I dont think I was ready to make such a drastic change until now. I know he has to be cheating and messing around, seems how he hasnt even kissed me in three months and we have only been intimate once since my surgery in September. Sometimes I just lay in bed and wish that he would atleast give me one compliment, but instead when he gets mad at me because I question him about his whereabouts (when he comes in at 4 in the morning) he makes rude comments such as "I sure hope you dont think you look good you fat %^& b*%&ch" This morning was the final straw. I tried to be nice and hold his hand and he got mad and turned and rolled over. I knew then that there was time for a drastic change. There is no way I can be successful as long as I have this man constantly bringing me down and putting me down. For the love of God, I am an educated, independent beautiful woman and I know I deserve better.

Well its been alittle over six months since my surgery and I am at 176 pounds and in about a size 12. Though I am still feeling like I look horrible. I dont know if it is normal, but I look in the mirror and still see myself at 270 pounds. I honestly can say I dont see the change like other people see it in me. I still have not seen my surgeon since September. My PCP is starting to really annoy me, sending me to all of these specialists that want to do unnecessary surgeries on my brain, etc. I am really getting annoyed. I had pseudotumor cerebrai, that is a weight related condition, so Dr Juarez did the garstric bypass surgery to stop the pseudo tumor cerebrai. Well, my PCP is so obsessed that the pseudotumor is still there, he sends me to a neurologists that now wants me to go in for two brain surgeries. I am disgusted because neither one of them even have checked to see if the pseudotumor is even there, and plus isnt that what I had surgery for? I probably am not making much sense to anyone who reads this, I am just frustrated because now they are saying I have ESS which came along with the pseudotumor cerebrai, which affects my pituatary gland function. Who knows. One thing I do know is that if I still had pseudotumor cerebrai and increased cerebral fluid the same MRI that showed the ESS would have showed the increased cerebral fluid and it clearly stated that it did not see any increase, so why are these doctors trying toput me through more un necessary trauma? I think its time for me to find a new PCP. Well anyways, enough of my venting, I just wanted to check in and let you all know where I am at in my journey, and let you all know I am thinking of you all today

Wow, I could not believe it! I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 199.  I havent seen that number in years. Actually that is how much I weighed when I was nine months pregnant with my 15 year old daughter, so that should tell you how long its been. The surgery has been difficult on me. I am suffering from alot of nausea and tired alot, but as difficult as it may be, I am happy to see the numbers go down. Its been four months since surgery, and I have lost a total of 71 pounds! I have 39 more to lose then I will be at my goal weight. Let me know how all of you are doing out there and keep in touch!

Well, its been exactly nine days since my surgery, and I survived! I must say, the beginning wasnt exactly pleasant, and at the stage I am in, it not pleasant at all. I sometimes do get thoughts of regret, but I heard that that was a normal feeling. It is hard to say goodbye to the things I loved and enjoyed  in life, my favorite foods. I keep reminding myself that this was something I had to do. I could either good blind with the pseudo tumer or get the surgery, lose the weight and watch my kids graduate high school and my grandson Kaden grow up. This is the beginning of a whole new journey for me, and I am going to stay strong and ride these hard times out. I have not had any vomitting or nausea, and I have yet to experience the "dumping". So far so good. I see the surgeon on Thursday and I will keep this blog updated on my progress and the different stages that I will be going through. Hopefully he will switch me to some real food on Thursday! This liquid phase has really got me down .

Well today was pre-op, and l survived it! Though I must say, it was not very pleasant. I am a little worried because when doing the lung testing, I had some problems. Do to my weight being in my upper ab area, I have always had a difficult time using my lungs, so I tend to breathe more with my stomach muscles. Well, I guess my volume is at 75% and the respitory therapist said that that could be a problem. I hope not, I am so excited to start my new life, I dont want any complications. Other than that, everything went great, and I now have 12 more days to go until surgery!