04/03/2013 - Away Too Long

Apr 02, 2013

I definitely have been away too long. I actually needed some inspiration and found myself back here. Since my last post my life has been an emotional roller coaster and I believe, in part, because of that I have gained 40 pounds. I am desperate to get back to 130 and felt this was the best place for me to seek motivation, as it has always helped in the past.

I had worked for our local newspaper and was fired due to what I saw as a personality conflict with the new Publisher. For a short period of time I worked in another town doing the layout of a (shopper style) paper. I then decided to begin a new journey in life by starting my own newspaper. It was the first time I felt I was actually doing something for me. I knew it was going to be a great deal of work and many sacrifices but I was willing to do it. When I first discussed with my husband and my family they agreed I should do it as well. About three months into my journey my husband began to voice concerns about the fact my new journey was not making a profit. My journey caused much chaos and unhappiness in our home. Against the wishes of my daughter, the one person who seems to support me no matter what, I gave up the newspaper after a little more than one year in business. So, in July 2010 I found myself searching for MY TRUE SELF, once again.

In October 2010 I became a 911 dispatcher and found another job I love dearly. However, to this day I still catch myself asking "What if?" Writing was a therapy for me and I haven't done much of it since I have given up my newspaper. I find myself dreaming often of writing a book. I even have several ideas, but I can't find the motivation. I don't know if I fear success or if I fear something causing issues within my household or if I just fear that I may actually find the REAL ME.

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05/11/2006
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Oct 14, 2005
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