After Second Fill 3/10/07
Mar 10, 2007
Well these fills can feel like a bit of a joke, but I am told they will get there. Working on my mind and what is real hunger is so important. I am down 35 pounds and it has been a slow ride for me. I have been ok with it I am just scared that I should be doing better. This experience has be eye opening. I am feeling great and would recommend it to anyone thinking about it. This is not a solution, yet a tool to guide you. I am feeling wonderful while excercizing and I am a going to add Yoga and pi;ates to my routine, aside from ballroom dancing and the tredmill. To anyone wondering how to make this decision... what are you waiting for? Life is short and there is no time like the present start living your life happily ruight now.
2/3/07 After 1st Fill
Feb 03, 2007
Well to be honest the first fill didn't feel like too much. It's funny we really have to work on our brain. I still feel like late at night is a trigger for me, but I am dealing with it well. I just don't eat. Food can not control me or anyone of us. It truely is difficult to rewire our brains, but we have to constantly make sure we feed our minds with new ideas and goals. This surgery is about a new you not just a new body. I feel like I am on that journey and doing well with it. I am down almost 30 pounds since I started my journey. Thank God for helping me along and all my friends here at OH that keep me motivated.
1/17/07 I am better than last week
Jan 17, 2007
It has been a month post-op. I finally got throught the whole day today feeling energized. I am down about 23 pounds from the start date and about 16 pounds from the surgery date. My clothes are feeling bigger and people are noticing a bit more. I am having a great day. Not all days are great or easy, but this is life we all have our days. I am feeling more hungry in the last 2 weeks, but it's not awful. I think this surgery is a second chance at life. I have been so upset for so long about the way I look, I am ready to look the way I feel. Anyone who is thinking about the surgery this is great! It is slow enough where it seems like you are working hard at losing weight, but people are not staring because I dropped 40 pounds in a month. I feel both surgeries are a blessing, but each surgery is suited for a different person. I can only hope to feel this good in a couple of months. My fill is on 1/22/07. I can't wait to see what it feels like.
Jan 10, 2007
Well I am very upset today. I don't know what's going on. I am almost a month post op and my weight has not dropped in the last two weeks in fact, I gained a pound according to the scale. I just don't get it. I am doing what I am suppose to do. What is the problem. I haven't even been snacking between meals so I could get all my water in. I am starting to feel like this may have been the wrong choice for me. I know I am being hasty, but seriously how do you plateu a month post -op I mean I am barely eating. I am working out. Where do you go from here?
12/20/06 One week Post-Op
Dec 20, 2006
Well, I am feeling good except for the fact that I am more tired than ever in my life. I have trouble getting up in the morning and mid-day I feel like I get sleeping. I have lost about 11 pounds since surgery I can't quit tell yet due to the swelling. I really don't have much of an appetite. I still can't get my liquids and protein all in. Food that smells good stills triggers the idea I am hungry, but I will be eating soon. The days I am having trouble I keep saying that this is a small sacrifice and short time to ensure my health. I can not lie though the hlidays will be a challenge I decided not to sit at the table with everyone it would psychologically be too hard. I am making Christmas cookies today and I feel I will be fine, especially since sweets weren't my thing anyway. This experience is still a positive one and I am looking foward to my journey.
12/15/06 Home from Surgery
Dec 15, 2006
When I woke up from surgery I felt like a train hit me. I asked for pain meds right away and then I felt drugged and fell asleep. By the time I got to my room I was feeling better. I got to my room aroun 4:20 PM by 5:10 I got up to walk. I found that when I walked I felt nauseas, I almost threw up. I was dry heaving and boy did that hurt. I went back to my bed ASAP. I asked for anti-nausea medicine and then I was feeling better. I tried to walk about an hour later and was still dry heaving, I knew what I had to do. I wouldn't take anymore pain meds since the first time they gave them to me. After that, I felt so much better I get nauseas on pain meds so for me, it was best not to take anything. I am pleasantly surprised how well I am feeling. I am sore near my incisions, but other than that I am feel good. I am home and I didn't think about where I would sleep. I tried to sleep in my bed, but I found that laying flat seemed to strectch my incisions so I slept on a recliner chair last night. I am finding it hard to get liquids in, I have no appetite. My stomach is funny it is making all kinds of noises. I can't stop burping which for me is strange since I didn't burp alot before surgery. I forgot to add one thing. IO couldn't pee after surgery so they had to use a cathter, 3 times it was awful. On the third time the nurses couldn't find my urethra so they poke me too many times to count. So the biggest complaint of my surgery would be that I am so cut up down there I fel like I am peeing razor blades.I am feeling well otherwise, and I would recomend this surgery in the future.
Dec 12, 2006
Well this is it, tomorrow is the day. I have been praying for a speedy recovery and the strength to do my best. I have some mixed emotions, but none of them are a feeling that this is wrong. It is drastic however, but necessary. In my life I have had many ups and downs. I have learned something important along the way. Obstacles are only there if you allow them to be. There are always reasons why we can not do what is best for us, we can only put ourselves out there and know that the sun will still rise and set if we decide to enjoy it or not. It is in our conscious effort that we decide to enjoy life for what it truely is, a place to search for yourself, to reflect on all those questions that run through our heads. Living is the easiest part of life, it is happiness that makes it all feel worth it!
Dec 08, 2006
Well I had my endoscopy today and I'm feeling fine, except that I am very tired and feel a little drugged. My surgery is only 5 days away now it is getting more real. I am excited, but I don't feel prepared I have a lot to do this weekend to prep for when I get home from surgery. I just hope I don't forget any important things.