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Other then my family, I am most thankful for the wonderful opportunity of having my surgery.  Thanksgiving dinner was like no other.....but you know what?  I didn't care, I didn't want my family to treat me any different, do anything different then our normal traditions....and I was happy just to be at the table with all of them, sipping on my soup.  I have such a supportive family, everyone is so thoughtful and happy for me.  I am so lucky and thankful for my family.  My dad and I walked in the "turkey trot" today, although our version was a much shorter walk, next year we plan to walk the 5 mile Turkey Trot. 

I feel so great, even got into a smaller pair of jeans today....life is GREAT!!!

Well I am ready to get out of the house, took a walk today, little chilly but it was nice out.  I think tomoroow I might go to the movies, I want to start getting around more, so I can go back to work Tuesday after my Dr. appointment. 

Weird how I feel full, even though I'm only drinking liquids.  Happy to have some tastier soups, other then broth.

Ok, I'll check with you guys later..

Tracy

Well it's Thursday, two days after my surgery and I'm doing very well. Sipping my liquids, taking a few strolls around the house, and feels good!!

Yesterday morning when they said I was going home, I was like what are your crazy?  But by noon, I was so ready to go home, amazing how quickly you can recover from surgery.

Thank you for all your thought and prayers.

It's the nigtht before surgery, I just finished taking a shower with the soap the hospital gave me.  I can't believe I'm going to fix my hair before I go to bed, but I gotta dry it, my hair does not like to air dry!!  I am so excited for tomorrow, I'm a little nervous too...but I think that is normal.  I worked so hard the last two weeks at work, getting everything finished.  I took my spanish test tonight, finished writing my paper for literature and after I post I will pack a little bag for the hospital and then my moms, where I will be recouping.

My family is so great, so supportive.  Stephanie is in Germany, so she sent me an email saying she will be thinking about me, saying prayers.  Lori called me too... she kept telling me how proud she is of me.  I don't know why that feels so good, but it does.  I'm proud of myself, for making this decision, having the courage to change my life, it's scary, but I just know it will be so worth it.

Ok, well I better get this hair dried so I can get to bed, it's already 10:00pm......

Good night and good bye old Tracy.....

Ok, well today was the day that everything went the way I wanted it to!!  My surgery is scheduled for Nov. 17, 2009, I'm so excited, happy, nervous, thrilled, OMG...YIPPIE

I finally have my second appointment with Dr. Harris, this Wednesday!  I'm so excited, insurance approval and then my surgery date.  All I can think about is please please let this happen in November!!  I don't want to wait until March and according to my boss I have a choice to make, my job or surgery.  I've never been so pissed off at this person and have to pretend to like them everyday.  I'm living a lie because I don't respect her, and totally feel disgusted to even talk to her.  It looks like the last 5 years when I got a "good" raise I was making a deal with the devil. I have so much anger inside, who is she to dictate my future, why does she feel that she has a right to put my dreams on hold.  Yesterday at church my priest said, "Jesus is in everyone, so if you hate someone you hate Jesus."  I love Jesus, but this person can't have much of Jesus in her, right?  Why was this message sent to me right now??

I've hit a road block in my journey.  I have one last appointment, but it's been cancelled and rescheduled, and cancelled and rescheduled again, because of illness.  Please pray that the September 25th appointment will be a go.  I'm so worried about a date, since my boss isn't very supportive, last week I found out that Dr. Harris only has two November dates left open for surgery.  I am really getting impatient and frusterated.  I just want this so bad.  

Weight loss hasn't been possible on my own, I try to eat high protein, low carb, I am excercising 3 days a week, why the heck can't I lose weight??

I've been thinking alot about all the things I want to do when I lose weight, have more energy, feel more mobile, active, confident.  So I decided I needed to make a list, to make sure I remember to do all these things.... this might be ongoing.. but here is the top 10:

1.  Jump on trampoline with my daughter
2.  Ride a horse (like I use to when I was young)
3.  Go skiing
4.  Go on a cruise
5.  Remodel garage, making a gym and game room (teen hang out, she turns 13 Friday, yikes)
6.  Ride on the back of a motorcycle (never have done this, but always wanted to)
7.  Get a tattoo (might be too painful, but again always wanted 1)
8.  Go to Bush Gardens and ride all the rides with my daughter
9.  Have a massage
10.  Try golf

WOW reading my list, I sound like a young hot mommy!!

So many more....but this is a start for now!!!  Hey...what are some of yours??

After my appointment with Dr. Harris, and setting up my first nutrition class, and my first psy appointment, I was so happy, I am finally making progress towards my goal.  Then a dark cloud started to appear, and has been raining on my parade ever since.  My dark cloud is my boss, Anita.  Anita is usually pretty laid back boss, doesn't really bother me much.  We talk a little about personal business.  I wouldn't say we are friends, but she has been there to listen when times were tough with my daughter.  After hearing Dr. Harris say that I would be out of work about 2 weeks, I felt it was my responsibility to tell my boss my plans, because we would have to hire a temp to fill in while I was out.  My job can not go undone for two weeks.  I felt close enough to tell her that I was planning on having gastric bypass surgery, hopefully in November or December.  She got bent out of shape.  She knew one person that had the surgery and they had complications... I explained to her that I have done my research, and feel very comfortable with my choice in surgeons.  Then she asked when in November, I told her around Thanksgiving or Christmas, because I only have 3 vacation days left, and I would use the 2 Holiday pay days to help with my time off, STD doesn't kick in until day 8.  She told me that I could have it in November, but not December, because of the Holidays, she is taking vacation, and it's end of the year, we have to print W-9's and 1099's.  And then she continues to tell me that I couldn't have it in January either because of year end (accounting) and getting ready for the audit we have in February.  So she tells me that March would be best.  During this conversation I don't remember ASKING her when I could have the surgery.  I was really just being courteous to let her know that I would be out.  She continues to tell me that the owner of the company will have to know, I said sure, that I am having surgery... she said he will ask what kind of surgery you are having.  I said well it's none of his business, and it's against the law for him to ask me, and I would lie to him, because it's personal decision.  All that happened last Friday... well today is Tuesday, and work is so tense.  I think she went and told the owner, I just have a feeling.  I am so pissed that I confided in her, and so pissed that a person I have known for 5 years, and acted like she cared about me is so unsupportive because it might be a little inconvenient for me to be out.  

Thank goodness I saw Kelly today, she helped me realize it really doesn't matter what she says, I am moving forward, and hopefully I can have the surgery in November when it would work for all, but if not, then it will be scheduled as soon as possible, and not 4 months later.  This is my life, my choice... who does she think she is, I'm MY BOSS in MY LIFE!!  I have to admit, when Kelly told me to pretend she was Anita, and I could tell her how I felt, with no reprocutions, I really laid into her, and it felt so good.  I had wrote about it, but really saying what I wanted to say to her, help me so much.  If only I could say what I wanted... but since I need my job, I'm stuck biting my tongue.  

Well I guess I complained long enough.... WHO CARES ANITA!!!  I"M having my surgery with or with out your support, you are ONLY my boss.... that's it!!

So.. I had my appointment today with Dr. Harris.  I really like him, his staff is very friendly.  I've done so much research on weight loss surgery I felt very comfortable, because I knew everything that was being said.  What I was surprised about is the recovery time.  I want to have laprospocpic gastic bypass, I was surprised when the time to go back to work is about 2 weeks.   Anyone need that long to go back to work?  Does short term disability kick in?  I have short term disablity at work, but I really don't want to discuss my personal medical information with our human resource director, she is not known to be discret.  

My first appointment with Alison is set up for August 18th, which was my original appointment date, so that means I'm 2 weeks ahead of schedule.  Although, if I need 2 weeks of vacation and sick time, I will have to wait until 2010 to have my surgery.  I am really hoping to have it at the end of the year....but I guess we will just have to wait and see.

Anyone start low carb diet after first visit?  He suggested this to me....