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Well it's been five months post op and i'm down to 192lbs from 272lbs!  This journey has been amazing and I have had so many WOW moments and new life experiances it's been fantastic! I know i havent' stayed on the boards as much, but i really feel like because I've lost all this weight, i'm not sitting in front of a computer like i did before but actually LIVING my life!  I turned 30 in Jan and dreaded that birthday so much, but when It came I realized that this was the best birthday ever!  Not because i got gifts and a party but because I have LIFE, and ENERGY, and I'm excited about living and participating once again!  The Self-confidence i have gained and the joy that has entered my life since having my surgery is amazing!!!  I no longer feel like a wallflower or a watcher but a participant in everything I do!  

I hope that everyone else whether you are just beginning your journey or are years post of, can have the same Joy in life that i do now!!!

wt pre-surgery: 272lbs
wt 5mo post op: 192lbs
total lost so far: 80lbs

Clothing before surgery: 20/22 2X or 3X
Clothing 5mo after surgery: L or XL shirts, and 13/14 pants

Well i'm officially week 7 post op.  I'm down to 235 from 272 (day of surgery)!  The reason i haven't been on much and updated is because i was having a REALLy hard time and didnt want to just "vent'!  i was getting food stuck and was super nauseated almost everyday, i couldnt take my vitamins, stomach pill or even tolerate a protein shake.  My hair started falling out, and i was getting super depressed.  I went and saw the doc last week and he said i'm doing fine!  he thinks it was just a "grouchy" pouch and that things will get better...he was right! =) I started feeling better last week and was able to eat, drink, and take meds.  Today was the first day i could get my whole protein shake in with no issues, and nnow i have no nausea at all! =)  Hopefully this is a downward roll from here on out and things will continue to be easier. I'm going to start going to the gym begining tonight with Zumba!!! =)  then back to curves 3x's a week like i was doing before surgery, hopefully that will jumpstart the weightloss a bit more and help kkeep my muscles good and strong! =) Will update a little later with measurements!

So I'm one month post op and doink okay.  I still have the pinching pain on my left side usually daily but at least not ALL day.  It's been horrible doing all the protien, vitamins, and food/fluids.  I'm trying my hardest to get it all in though.  doing much better on the water for sure!  And can get at least one protein shake in per day too.  I am still at 250lbs and been stalled for exactly 2 wks now.  BUT yesterday i pulled on a pair of jeans that had accidently got thrown into the dryer (so i just KNEW they were going to be super tight and hard to button'/zip) and low and behold they slid right on, zipped, and buttoned with out any pulling, sucking in, or laying down to get them fastened!  I was soooooooo excited.  So i tried on my super tight, no stretch to them, favorite jeans in size 18 and they slid on (usually couldnt get them past my thighs) and the button is about an inch from fastening...i'm sooo sooo excited because that would be the first pair of jeans that aren't made with any spandex stretchable stuff in them! =)  maybe just another week or so and they will fit i hope!  don't have time to do measurements today but will get them done this week to post!

Well i'm still having some twinges of sharp pain in my left side under the incision they put the stapler through.  It's very aggrevating as I feel pretty good, but i still cannot bend well to that side nor touch my toes or bend over to pick something off the floor without that increasingly shap pain...blah.  I know it is just the scar tissue and incision pulling and not a hernia at least..but still...sigh....

I've faced a few challenges this week with eating/fluids/vitamins.  Each dayu has been harder and harder to get it all in VS at the beginning i was doing okay.  i ordered some CLICK protien mix online and it should be here by weds.  I bought vitamin water zero and am having an easier time getting those 20oz bottles down than crystal light, and i decided to cook almost all my meats in the crock pot in order to get them the SOFTEST to eat!  It has definetely helped!

I got chicken stuck a few times and that really really sucked.  Felt like a rock sitting int he middle of my chest and after i heaved a few times it just slid down but damn that was terrible.  It's made me more mindful of the amount of a bite i'm taking and to chew chew chew much much much better! 

I'm down to 250 but currently at a stall...it really doesn't bug me that i'm at a stall like it does everyone else.  I guess cause i spend more time focussing on  eating/drinking ect vs. the weight.  Nothing really fits any differently but i know it will all come in the end!  Just trying to be and stay healthy and work hard to make this tool of mine work!

Hugs to everyone on yoru journey!

Tasha

Weight 250 (down 27lbs)
Height: 5 foot 8.5 inches
Clothing size 2X or 3X shirts, 20/22 jeans, shoes 10 (stayed the same)
Measurements:
neck- 14.5 in (-1 in)
rt arm- 17in (-0.5 in)
lft arm- 17in (-0.5 in)
chest & bra size : 47 in (-2 in) same bra size42D
natural waist at belly button: 47.5 (-0.5 in)
hips-  51.5 in (-0.5in) 
rt thigh - 31.5 in (+0.5 in =( )
left thigh- 31.5 in (-0.5in)
rt calf- 19.5 in (-1 in)
left calf- 19.5 in ( -1 in)

Total inches lost= 7 in across the entire body! =) How exciting!

Well i'm at a total loss of 27lbs at the end of week 2.  I can't see any changes in myself yet, although a few neighbors have commented that my face looks slimmer.  The only other place i think i've lost anything is my BOOBS  LOL!  it's okay though i know it will come off.  I try really hard not to get on the scale everyday...i so want to though, but have been trying to only weigh myself on friday's.  The doctor released me to eat all foods, of course only meat and fish, eggs and PB has to be first then if room (which there isn't) i can have green veggies.  I'm still struggling with the protien drinks, it's a killer just to get one in per day, but i'm working on it and trying out recipies now that i'm able to get around much better without pain. I get dizzy sometimes, and i do not get all my water in like i'm supposed too.  I can usually get 32oz in but i really need to step it up and get at least 46oz (my goal this week)  At week 4 i'm to start walking 20min per day 7 days per week.  Its getting chilly out and i love to be outside this time of year so that shouldnt be a problem to accomplish! 

Mini-goals of the week : drink 46oz of fluid per day, drink ONE whole protein shake per day, continue to stay positive and focused!

This week has been super hard for me!  I'm in a constant struggle to get fluids, protein, vitamins, and meds all in during the day.  I've been tired and weak and just want to sleep all day one day, tearful and ranting the next, the feeling almost normal the next...it's definetly an up and down rollar coster.  I have lost 19lbs since the beginning of this process and 12lbs since the day of surgery.  My first wow moment was today when i borrowed a pair of my neighbors maternity pants (cause i dont want the zipper and denim to rub against my staples on my stomach).  Well she is a little smaller than me and handed me a pair of 18 Liz Lange maternity khaki pants...i'm thinking "oh no way liz lange are made small and these aren't even made of a stretchy material!" but i decided to take them home and try them on, and they FIT and not just FIT but were a little bit LOOSE on the butt and thighs and around the waist...holy crap!!! That was amazing to me!  I also got my JP drain pulled out of my side this week.  It was such a weird feeling getting it pulled i couldn't even describe it...not really painful, but uncomfortable.  Once that 15 inches of tubing was out of my body i felt amazingly better, and had better movement in my abdomen.  I can now bend about halfway over, and can sit/stand without as much struggling and pain. I alsol can BREATH better without it in!  I'm still working on walking everyday.  I just get so winded sometimes i can't get more than a lap around the house.  i'm hoping that things improve drastically over the next week.  I'm ready to just be a little more "normal"

tomorrow is my first venture out of the house, we shall see how i do!

Current weight 260lbs

Well Friday the surgery went very well, i woke up in Recovery and could barely talk but they understood that i was asking for my pain medicine!  they hooked me right up to the PCA pump of Demoral and that really helped a lot...things were way fuzzy friday for me and i was in and out the entire day.  Saturday morning i woke up and they took me to get a barium swallow with pics to see if there was any leaks..NO LEAKS...BUT...i didnt have good movement through my lower intestines so i had to be on ice chips and water  for another day or until i passed gas.  I was burping but i never did pass gas until sunday morning...didnt' see the surgeon until today around 1pm and he wen ahead and released me to full liquids, however, the nursing staff and aides were TERRIBLE and i only got water and crystal light all day and i didnt even get a dinner tray until i complainded!  FINALLY i got my little cup of soup and it was FANTASTIC...but have yet to pass gas or burp so i dont know what the surgeon is going to do tomorrow.  he said i could go home tomorrow as long as i was passing gas but i havent since this morning so i do not know what will happen.  Hopefully i will be able to go home!  I'm so missing my own house and my kids!  I am doing better manageing pain, and honestly it's not too bad today.  Friday and Saturday were pretty bad, but today has been very good!  That's about it!  Hoping tomorrow goes smoothly!

Well the time has come.  Surgery is tomorrow morning and i have to be there at 8am for my 10am surgery time.  I've very nervous now and a little scared.  For the past two days i've been on a clear liquid diet, it is going okay though i've been a little emotional.  Not sure if it's because I'm a week or so away from starting my period or if it's the lack of food =) lol...i've been weepy at times and last night broke down in the shower for no reason at all crying.  My biggest fear is death and not making it through the surgery.  I worry about my children and my husband.  But i had a GREAT friend call me today and we talked and i got it all out so now i'm feeling a little better.  I just wanted to post here because for the past few days i've felt like maybe i was a little overboard emotional or crazy even, and that no one else felt like this!  but after talking to her and being reassured again that things will be just fine, i'm back on track and ready to rock and roll!  My new life begins tomorrow and it's time for a change....


STATS:
Weight 280 (approx my scale only goes to 270)
Height: 5 foot 8.5 inches
Clothing size 2X or 3X shirts, 20/22 jeans, shoes 10
Measurements:
neck- 15.5 in
rt arm- 17.5 in
lft arm- 17.5 in
chest & bra size 49.5 in & 42D
natural waist at belly button - 48 in
hips- 52in 
thighs together- 49in
rt thigh - 31 in
left thigh- 32in
rt calf- 20.5
left calf- 20.5 in

So here is my starting point...i never wanna see thoses #'s again! =)

I really can't believe how calm i feel about having this surgery...i thought i would be sort of freaking out by now, but i'm not!  I mean i am a little worried about all the risks and if something bad were to go wrong...but really i'm just exceited!

i've been super busy trying to get in these last two nursing classes out of the way so that the whole month of october i can devote solely to recovering from surgery, re-learning how to eat, and healing.  I am going through excelsior college so luckily my classes can be put on hold and it's no big deal, but i'd like to not be stressed out in nov and dec trying to get them all finished by the end of the year before my funding runs out!  So for now i'll focus on my school work, getting my house all together, listing my final stuff on ebay so i will have some saved cash in october, and spending time with myf amily!

My new life is going to begin on 10-8-10 and i'm super excited!