FINALLY! The scale said 137 this morning. I had originally set my goal at 138, so I'm one pound below goal. 116 pounds lost, over 100 inches lost, in 46 weeks. I spent the morning trying to get pictures together for you guys, so now I'm going to be late for work, so I can't say everything I want to say about what this means to me.
Obesity has been my life long prison, and today, I finally feel free! Love you guys, will give more details later!
Now, the pics!
ETA: Oh, size 6 jeans, size L top, 34D bra. I started at size 24 jeans, size 4XL tops, 46DD bra.
I literally ran out of the house to make my train this morning. I was so excited that I finally (finally is relative, but I had been stuck at 139 for 3 weeks-I'm NOT complaining!) hit that elusive number that I HAD to get pics up because I know how much you guys love a photo-whoring, bleary eyed, Tassia!
But because the DS is not just about being thinner, I had to come back and post all the OTHER stuff besides the outside that have changed for me in the last 10 1/2 months.
-My blood pressure is n-o-r-m-a-l! 106/62. Pre-op, I was running 150/100-Stroke territory
-I can breathe. Because of my previous tummy tuck, I carried my weight in my upper abdomen. That bulk compressed my lungs and any kind of exertion left me breathless. This limited my activity so much that I was practically a hermit.
-I can eat now.. lol. The first 6 months, eating was VERY frustrating. Two bites and done. Carbs wreaked havoc on my gut. Any kind of carbs. Bread, fruit, veggies, rice, potatoes, sugar.. you name it, it was a MESS! Now, not so much. Only sugar gives me awful diarrhea. I can eat carbs if I have room left after my protein, and I don't really worry about gas or potty issues
-My measurements have changed as follows:
Chest Before-51 inches Chest After: 36 inches
Waist Before- 49 inches Waist After: 30 inches
Hips Before- 52 inches Hips After: 35 inches (translation: NO ass!)
Thigh Before- 28 inches Thigh After: 18 inches
Arm Before- 18 inches Arm After: 12.5 inches
Calf Before- 19 inches Calf After: 13.25 inches
Neck Before- 16.5 inches Neck After: 12.25 inches
-Shopping is expensive!
I've never reached a weight goal I have set for myself. Always 20-30 pounds short. Having made it here is unreal to me. Pinch me, seriously. I've been obese since I was 7. I uploaded a bunch of pictures of me at various times of my life-at times I should be ecstatic, but I know that there's that little asterisk in my mind. "Yeah, so? Look at how fat you are".
I was diagnosed with an eating disorder at the age of 38. A grown woman with a nursing degree and two children to care for and I was determined that I would rather die than regain the weight I had lost. It took the tough loving of my best friend and my sister to get me to help that I needed. It was truly a prison. My therapist has been with my through this whole thing. And we're monitoring things, but let me tell you, this is NOTHING like that was. I eat. I eat whatever I want. I eat nachos and steak, and pistachios, and even candy. I eat because I LIKE FOOD, dammit. And that's not a sin. And I workout when I can. I don't feel the absolute compulsion to workout until I passed out.
I'm thinner than my always skinny sister. My friend tells me not to lose anymore weight. My mom says its like she has a new daughter. My kids are proud of me. My daughter is giddy that we're sharing clothes!
A few people have commented on how good my belly looks. No sagging skin. Well, been there, done that, and have the scars to prove it. I had an anchor cut tummy tuck in 1999, after I had lost from 293 pounds to 163 pounds. Although its not as tight as it was back then, its held up pretty damn good for what I've put it through. I've also posted pictures of before my tummy tuck, after the weigh gain, and current, on my profile, but they're semi-nudies, so only if you're my friend.. lol.
Well, that's it. I'm still not rich, I still have other problems, but let me tell you, the absence of the constant "fat-track" in my head is liberating!
I heart my DS, big time!
And how can I thank all the wonderful people who led me here. I can't name them all, because I know I'll forget some. But a special thank you to Diana-her surgery wars posts piqued my interest and I never looked back. Larra, who held my hand, virtually, last summer through some struggles I was having reconciling if I should have any kind of WLS. And to Nicolle. (Did you all know that me and Nicolle's sister went to the same high school? Yeah, we didn't either until we met irl over a year ago. Its a small world!) She's amazing, a dynamo, an incredible living, walking testament to all that is good. Oh, Nicolle, my mom thinks we look alike too!.. lol. And to my angel Stephanie, I'll never forget your kindness!
That's all. Thanks for indulging me ;)