Ok... this is a first for me.

Sep 07, 2009

Crying over food.  I have been ok.   This is day 6 in the liquid diet.   I have been careful not to be around people when they are fixing food that I know will be a tempation.   But tonight was a first.   I came over to mom's house and I helped them make some baked potatoes.  They are going to have steak which is my very favorite food of all time.   A nicely grilled rare steak is unbeatable.   Well... I knew I was going to hide in the bedroom when they were eating.   But, they put the potatoes in the toaster oven and they smelled SO good.   We put butter, garlic powder, season salt on and in them (sliced them first).  Then a little salt and pepper on the outside..... OMG!!!!  In the oven, they smelled so wonderful.  I immediately got up and left the room to the farthest room in the house.   But I could not escape that smell.   I went into my moms room and laid on the bed and cried.   I want SO much to have just a little bite of anything.   Something to chew.... something that I could enjoy the spices of as I chewed it up.   I will never take for granted the flavor of anything ever again.  I feel so stupid.  I made mom feel guilty when she came in and saw I was crying... OVER FOOD!!!! REALLY???   I dont know if this is the emotional train wreck that everyone goes on or if it is happening for me earlier than everyone else... but I am really mourning food.   God I hope this gets easier. 

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