Well, hello OH.com ...

Nov 20, 2010

Hi, all.

I am relatively new to OH.com, first a little bit of a lurker, then a commenter, and then I sent out the first little tendrils of connection through friend requests ...

I have been very grateful for all those who have gone before me in this journey and are willing to share not only the good stuff that is happening, but the icky stuff, too.  I'm an engineer by degree, and knowing how things work and the risks has been beneficial.  I'm worried about all kinds of stuff, since what I'm learning from my doctor and the forums doesn't jive with the informaiton I learned as a dieting adolescent (no less than 800-1000 calories a day, etc. ...) and I worry about the malabsorption of nutrients and how that may negatively affect things like brain health, other-random-organ health, etc. ...

But what I do know is that being at a BMI of 40.3 IS NOT HEALTHY and is really contributing to a poor quality of life.

So.  I am taking this one day at a time, and my first doctor's appointment is 12/6.  I'm told by my hospital that the absolute earliest I could have surgery would be 3 months...not insurance rules, but the hospital rules.  I'm sure there's a reason for that, and I look forward to learning it. 

However, right now, I am in a mode of "I want this gone, and I want it gone RIGHT NOW!!" as though I just want to unzip the fat suit I've been hiding in for the last God-knows-how-long years, and step into a much healthier life.  I've been preparing psychologically for the shift, I've been working out steadily 3-4x/week every week since June 14, and ... I WANT IT NOW NOW NOW.  Clearly I have some work to do on patience and delayed gratification.

Like many here I've done the diet circuit, and have had successful weight loss for a period of time only to have it come back on after a traumatic experience or radical life change.  Now, my old methods of weight loss, and new ones I've tried (including working with a NUT) haven't worked well.  In the case of the NUT I hired, I think I resented her more than appreciated her, and for that I will make amends someday...but as a result, I didn't welcome her inputs as readily as I might have had I had a different feeling toward her.

Many life changes are in the works, for which I am working one day at a time to prepare for ... potential job change, potential move, and FINALLY taking care of myself physically ... grateful to be here and have a community of folks around that understand.

Thanks!

T

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