tbariatric
Feeling down today
Nov 28, 2010
I am really feeling down today. I am really feeling my morbid obesity in my ankles, knees and butt. Sitting hurts, standing hurts, looking in the mirror hurts.I feel like a failure and I feel a lot of pressure from my step mom to EAT EAT EAT. I have politely turned things down only to be given 2x as much with an expectation I'll eat it all.
I ran into a HS acquaintance at the shopping mall today, and she's pregnant, and still skinnier than I am.
My knees and behind my knees ache.
I need to remember days like today as I go through to the process to have surgery and then post-surgery self-care for the rest of my life.
I am ashamed I let things get this far.
Hoping tomorrow is a better day mentally/emotionally.