Feeling down today

Nov 28, 2010

I am really feeling down today.  I am really feeling my morbid obesity in my ankles, knees and butt.  Sitting hurts, standing hurts, looking in the mirror hurts.

I feel like a failure and I feel a lot of pressure from my step mom to EAT EAT EAT.  I have politely turned things down only to be given 2x as much with an expectation I'll eat it all.  

I ran into a HS acquaintance at the shopping mall today, and she's pregnant, and still skinnier than I am.  

My knees and behind my knees ache.

I need to remember days like today as I go through to the process to have surgery and then post-surgery self-care for the rest of my life.

I am ashamed I let things get this far. 

Hoping tomorrow is a better day mentally/emotionally.


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