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Well, I am struggling to get the 8 pounds that i gained over the course of a year.  I don't know what is worse, the beating I am giving myself mentally for the gain, or the number on the scale that sends me into orbit.  I am still in a 8/10 so I don't understand why I am so consumed with this.  I need a good swift kick in the but to get me back on track. 
Going to try very very hard to get myself back on track and get rid of the few pounds i gained and keep myself active each and everyday....

Well it is Spring~  It is my second year of maintaining.  And I must say, it is hard work.  I am glad that I realized very early on that this surgery is a tool, and that having to work at eating right is a life long journey.  I had decided to start counseling a month ago to tackle the demons that atributed to help me get up to 265 pounds.  I have gained a few pounds back and it sent me over the edge.  I have a carb addiction and am trying to tackle it one day at a time, 
I look good at the weight that I am at, but like all the others that have had the fear of gaining your weight back, I want to address it now!  And so goes the ongoing work of life~
I hope that all the others that have had this demon living under the surface will also begin to deal with it and get rid of it once and for all.
In health and love, Teresasmiles~

Well it is summer. and I am not disapointed in my results from this life change.  I am holding at 147 and 150 on a weekly basis.  I would be lying if I didn't say that I would love to be at 135 to 140.  But, where I am at is a whole lot better than the 265 pounds that I used to be.  Just for the heck of it the other day I was shopping in Kohls and decided to take a pair of pants in the fitting room to try on in the size I used to wear, a 22.  Wholly moly. what a shocker!  I was able to get my entir body into one pant leg.  So, when I am having those "fat feeling" days. I will think about those pants and the unbelievable transformation that I have been through and then not feel fat.
Do we ever not feel fat anymore?  I think that it is something that will live in my head for ever and ever.  I am thi nking of going to some counseling regarding that. I think that I have some unresolved issues with my past and I am afraid that they will creep back to the surface and start me on a path of destruction. I didn't go through this surgery to go backwards!  So onwards I go.
I am trying to come to terms that I may be at the size I am meant to be, and that having a 135 goal may not be feasable for me. 
I hope that all are doing well and keep doing well.

 One year ago today I was having a change made to my body that ultimatley not only changed my body but my mind, and spirit.  I am 115 pounds lighter in body, and 100% happier in my life.  Making the decision to have this surgery was one of the best decsions that I have ever made.  I thank the Lord above for making it possible to have had this surgery.  I am not at my goal yet, but am ok with where I am.  I will get to my goal eventually.  My mindset is that it took many years to get to the size I once was, it isn't going to dispear in a year.  I am on my way though.  I thank my family for the never ending support that they have given me with this journey.  I thank you all on this board for your support to.  This board has been a god send to me. 
Teresa

Well it is 2009.  A fresh start to the new year.  I hope that my health just keeps getting better and better as the new year starts.  Last night was the first New Years Eve that my hubby and I went out and celebrated the night in for like ever. 
We have freinds that own the local pub where we live and they had a private ticketed party there last night. We went and had a wonderful time. 
I am in a size 8 and feelig great.  I need to start doing some serious excercising and ge my routine in order.  It is hard to go outside and walk when it is only 16 degrees outside,  so that leaves my excercise limited.  Anyways, I hope everyone had a great new years evening and has a wonderful healthy and happy new year.
Teresa

  Let me just say cheers to me! I am finally at what they consider a normal bmi for my height.  Yee ha.  I didn't ever think that I would acheive that. I still want to loose 15 or 20 more pounds.  I am thrilled with where I am at the weight.  I would be exstatic to achieve my goal of 135 to 140.  It would be awesome to get there before my surgery anniversary, but if I don't, no biggie.  I know that the last twenty might take a bit,  It just makes me thrilled to be at a normal bmi though.  Anyways, thought that I should document that and how I feel right now.
Teresa

Ok, so I haven't blogged in three months.  I can't believe that in 4 months it will be a year since my surgery,  I feel sooooooo good. Lots of energy, and a zest for life.  I am so thankful for this surgery and the life that it has given me back.  I am almost at a 100pound loss. 4 more pounds and I will have a hundred pounds gone.  That is a small child!  I love to shop now, I know that they say you have to be aware of other addictions creeping up on  you after the surgery, mine seems to be shopping.  I guess because never in my life have I been able to A, shop in any store and any department for woman,  and I never have worn a size small tops and 10 pants.  It amazes me... The sense of pride that I get for that is amazing in itself.  I am hopefull that I will get down to my goal wight by my surgery anniversary and if I don't, well, I wil keep trying..
To those of us thathave had this surgery, we are truly blessed...

  Ok, so I haven't posted in a longtime.  I am slooooowly loosing.  I guess according to the dr. that is ok, it is coming off, just not in leaps and bounds.  I know it is moslty due to me nt getting enough food in.  I am doing better with the water, but the food thing is hard when you aren't hungry all the time.  I have lost 79 pounds in just about six months.  I can't be disapointed with that.  I am now in a size 14, which is freaking awesome to me.  We were at a family reunion this weekend and I had some of the family members not recognize me at first.  Then on Saturday night the hubby and I went out with a friend of mine that I haven't seen since I had my surgery in February.  She was like "wow, you look awesome, hot and great hair".  It felt so good to hear that.  My hubby is starting to get real attentive to me now,  that is nice,  we have a great relationship.  We are celebrating our 25 anniversary next week.  I hope that everyone else is having a great summer and is feeling good. 

Ugh, a stall.  I am letting the stall get to me.  I know that we have to go through the stalls, but when you are loosing and then you get below that 200 pound mark and then it stops, it makes one panic a bit.  Makes you worry that you are done, this  is it!  I hope not,  I am believing that this is my body catching up.  I would love to hear from some of my friends out there that have or are having the same issue.  I also am having a hard time getting the amount of protein that I am supposed to be getting,  I think that I am going to have to go and do the protein shake thing,  Maybe that is why I have slowed down.  I have notice that I am also all of a sudden tired again.  Maybe my iron is low again.  Other than that I feel great.  Am walking 2 to 3 miles a day.  When it isn't raining.  I know that my clothing size is going down, I am now in a 16 and on my way into 14s.  YAY.  I cut my hair a bit shorter, I have to update some pictures here.  I have always used my hair as a hiding tool from my very round and chubby face.  Now that my face is slimming down, I wanted shorter hair.
will post more later, along with some pictures.  I hope to hear from some of you out there soon.
Teresa

 Ok, so I am out 4 months out, just about anyways.  And I have to say, I am feeling very very good.  Lot's of energy, I can't seem to sit for too long, which is a nice change from not having any energy at all.  I have not been disapointed with choosing to have this surgery.  I feel and look better every day.  I hope that all my friends here are doing as well.  It is so nice to look forward to each and everyday!  I hope every one has a great summer.  
Teresa