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I have been working out consistently for several months now.  My sister is a physical therapist so she helps me with my workouts.  Each workout I get on a sit-up bench and it has been my arch nemesis...until last night.  It has different levels and I was finally able to do level 4 with ease.  Woohoo.  I have progressed on every other thing I have done except this and now I have.  I'm so happy!!!!!za- [ =.,

It's been a little over 6 months since I've had my surgery.  I've lost around 60 lbs...not bad huh.  I had a goal of losing 100 lbs in one year.  I don't think that goal is gonna happen.  Over the last month (especially last week) there has been a war between my fat girl who I have named Lulu and my skinny girl.  I have struggled to maintain the right mentality regarding my food choices and my sweet tooth.  I spent all of last week cleaning out my gma's house who passed away in Aug.  I ate out most meals (another area I haven't conquered) and indulged my sweet tooth to often.  Now I find myself not wanting to eat like a skinny girl.  During that week long trip to GA I gained 6 lbs.  I'm not at full restriction which made Lulu happy cause she could petty much eat what she wanted...just not as much as she used to though.  Since being home I've lost about 3 lbs of that weight.  Thank God for the routine of work again.  It helps so much!!!  Right now I'm fighting with my love of carbs and sweets.  I also wonder if there is such a thing as band fatigue.  At times I miss my old way of eating.  I know for the untimate reason why I chose WLS (a better quality of life) I have to let go of those old habits and loves.  It's just hard sometimes. 

I'm determined to win this war for the skinny girl but Lulu is fighting hard right now. 

I had my post op appt yesterday and it went well.  I've lost 17 lbs so far and they were pleased with that.  It's kinda weird just watching the lbs fall off.  However, I know all good things will come to an end but I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts.  I'm still not allowed on soft foods.  Oh well.  Now for the good news....my gas pain is so much better.  I'm still burping like crazy but at least the pain is better.  I was momentarily worried because I started having pain in my shoulder but luckily it didn't last long.   Another milestone is being able to sleep on my side...not all positions are comfortable but I can find one that's good.  It's so nice.

Day 1 - My surgery was scheduled for 7:30 am the Dr was running a little late so we didn't get started right on time.  The surgery went well thankfully however, coming out of anesthesia was not as good.  I've been put under several times and I never come out of it the same.  This time was the worst.  I was disoriented, in a lot of pain and felt like I couldn't breath.  Once I got oriented and calmed down I was overwhelmed with the amount of pain I was in.  I did not expect to have that much pain.  My chest felt horrific.  No one told me it was going to feel so bad.  At that point I wondered why I even did this surgery.  As the day went along it got better...thank God.  I also had unexpected back pain but a heating pad helped with that.   It was a miserable day.

Day 2 - This day was a much better day.  Even though my stomach started hurting, it was tolerable.  However, the gas pain is still lingering and starts to become a nuisance and at time painful and the broths are starting to make me nauseous....I also start to get diarrhea.  I never thought I would be ready to drink another protein shake.

Day 3 - Is much as the same as day 2.  Gas is still the major annoyance.

Day 4 - Finally a shake...it was the highlight of my day.  It was so nice to have a shake and yogurt.  The proteins starts to help with the diarrhea.

There is a disconnect with me that there is something in me to help me lose weight.  The thought of a life long battle coming to an end seems almost surreal.  This journey is going to be interesting.

It has been 4 days that I've been on a liquid diet.  It hasn't been as hard as I thought it would be.  Don't get me wrong it's not super easy. I don't get really super hungry until the evenings.   I'm not nearly as miserable as I thought I would be.  I think that prayer playes a huge role in that.  So far I've lost 8 lbs but I think most of that is water weight. 

As it gets closer and closer to the time of surgery I find that I've lost most of the excitement I once had.  There is more of a feeling of determination and nerves.  I have to say that I'm a very lucky girl in the amount of support I am receiving from family, friends, and coworkers.  It's really helping.   

Well everything is set for my surgery.  Now all I have to do is get through this week of a liquid diet.  Today is my first day and it's noon and all is well.  I'm hungry but it is managable at the moment.  However, early afternoons are the worst for me...especially when I get off work.  Not looking foward to it.  I have a mild headache but that's nothing new...I've had a headache for 3 weeks now (allergies). 

Hope things keep going this well.

Well I have met one major goal and that is to get my medical clearance.  My BP was so high they didn't want to give it to me.  However, I did some research and changed my diet and everything is good now.  I have my medical clearance and well on my way to surgery.  Now I just have to get my mom to cosign for a credit increase.  Hopefully that will be done tomorrow!!!!

All is well in SW Florida!!!!

I am one month away from my surgery.  As I approach this month I have many emotions swirling in my head.  There is excitement about the new possibilities that await me.  Fear of the unknown.  Anxiety about getting all the information right.  Trepidation in going on a liquid diet.  Relief in knowing that soon I will be freed from this extra person (fat) I've been carrying around most of my life.  Comfort in the fact that I have a wonderful support system and all that have been told have been very supportive. 

I'm not looking at this last month as my last hoora.  I've had my last hoora for the last 20 yrs.  I'm approaching this month as a preparatory time.  A time to start learning about eating a high protein diet.  To start eating meals that will be post op.  I don't think I've ever had a protein shake before.  So I'm asking about different brands and how they taste.  I've started taking my vitamins and started an exercise routine.  Even though I'm only able to do 5 min at a time on my Elliptical, I'm encouraged that I went from one 5 min session to two 5 min sessions and just last night I did three 5 min sessions.  I was even able to walk away rather than collapse on the couch gasping for air.  

I know that this walk is not going to be easy for me.  However, I also know that I have never been more ready to do something.   

PS...My last meal will be at Carraba's