In a War

Nov 30, 2009

It's been a little over 6 months since I've had my surgery.  I've lost around 60 lbs...not bad huh.  I had a goal of losing 100 lbs in one year.  I don't think that goal is gonna happen.  Over the last month (especially last week) there has been a war between my fat girl who I have named Lulu and my skinny girl.  I have struggled to maintain the right mentality regarding my food choices and my sweet tooth.  I spent all of last week cleaning out my gma's house who passed away in Aug.  I ate out most meals (another area I haven't conquered) and indulged my sweet tooth to often.  Now I find myself not wanting to eat like a skinny girl.  During that week long trip to GA I gained 6 lbs.  I'm not at full restriction which made Lulu happy cause she could petty much eat what she wanted...just not as much as she used to though.  Since being home I've lost about 3 lbs of that weight.  Thank God for the routine of work again.  It helps so much!!!  Right now I'm fighting with my love of carbs and sweets.  I also wonder if there is such a thing as band fatigue.  At times I miss my old way of eating.  I know for the untimate reason why I chose WLS (a better quality of life) I have to let go of those old habits and loves.  It's just hard sometimes. 

I'm determined to win this war for the skinny girl but Lulu is fighting hard right now. 

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