I just can't believe my eyes!

Oct 25, 2007

So... I've lost a total of 88 lbs, and I'm *this* close to breaking the 200lb mark on the scale. I haven't weighed less than 200lbs since elementary school, and that is no exaggeration. I'm wearing a size 18, also something I haven't been able to do since 7th grade!!!! This is all a little unreal to me, but I LOVE IT! My friends all tell me I'm a "hottie". I don't think that word has ever been used to describe me... ever. I mean, I've always been the pretty, chubby friend with the great personality. Never the hottle. I'll take it, though... no complaints here. I have noticed people treating me differently, being nicer, paying more attention when I speak, giving that second glance... but in a good way.  It breaks my heart to know that's what it takes for people to care, but it is what it is. I've earned it.

Doug has lost an amazing 115lbs!! He absolutely looks like a different person. I just can't believe how sexy he is. I find myself more attracted to him now than I ever was. Our life is becoming something we both always wished it was. Our marriage is stronger, and we are still losing weight at a steady pace. Life couldn't get much better!  He's mentioned several times how he receives more compliments and attention at work than he ever has. I truly believe he's going to be getting the recognition he's deserved for a long time... Like I said, it's a little sad that it took losing 115lbs to be treated like a human being, but this is his time! He's happier than I've ever seen him. He's no longer sleeping with a C-Pap, not even snoring! No medications, no breathing problems, more energy... This is the best thing we've ever done for ourselves, and the best thing we could have done for our marriage.


Goodness, Gracious....

Sep 12, 2007

Wow, how things have changed! Doug had his surgery on August 22nd and has absolutely blown everyone away with his success! He was up walking as soon as the nurses said he could get out of bed. He walked something like 35 laps the first night, and ended up setting a record on the surgery recovery floor. I am so proud of him! To be honest, I'm a little jealous of how well he's done considering the hell of a time I had. We've gotten to the point now where we eat the same things, so that makes it much easier for both of us. I don't think I could have handled him eating Chinese food in front of me for one more day!  He's lost an amazing 75lbs, and I've lost 63lbs. We've already gotten to the "I hardly recognized you!" phase. I cannot tell a lie... I flippin' love it!! We're having to buy new clothes, we have better sex, we have more energy to play with our daughter, we're just happier people all around. Our one year wedding anniversary is also Doug's one month surgiversary...  Life is great!!

3 weeks out

Aug 08, 2007

Ok, so I did it!!! Let me start by saying this was not at all what I expected... In more ways than one. The pain was much worse than I had anticipated! When I woke in the recovery room I thought I was dieing... literally! I couldn't breathe, I couldn't move, I could barely speak (I'm told this is not unusual for someone having their first surgery). All I could think was "what have I done to myself?".  My entire stay in the hospital was miserable. I got very little sleep, and I felt nauseated and tired constantly. And the pain.... the pain was just awful (Okay, I know, It sounds like a horror story, but I'm getting to the good part.)

So we left the hospital. The relief I felt was enough to make up for the pain I was feeling at every pothole and railroad crossing. I made it clear to my husband how much it hurt... poor guy.  Being in something other than that hospital bed was great in itself. Sitting upright in a bucket seat with lumbar support, yes please! I eventually passed out and slept the rest of the ride home.

Home. Ahhhhhhh! So I've been back for a few weeks now, and every day is better than the day before. I feel stronger, more energetic, and less pain with every day that goes by. I am having a hard time getting all my protein, but I hear all the early post-ops singing the same tune. I try my best, thats all I feel I need to do. My husband is big on keeping detailed notes and diaries, but I can't do it... I'm just not going to force myself to be organized and methodical after 24 years of being scattered and spontaneous. I'll just go with the flow, thanks. I'm currently weighing in at 255lbs, down from a high of 298 (one month pre-op). Doug is also losing weight at a surprising rate, and he's still pre-op!! Needless to say, I don't regret a thing! I am so proud of us for becoming the healthy, happy, active parents we were meant to be. I'm sure our little girl would agree.


ONE WEEK!

Jul 10, 2007

Yes, I'm freaking out! I don't know what it's going to be like... I've never had surgery before.... I keep thinking about all the people I hear about that have awoke partially during surgery only to find they can't speak or move, but can feel everything. Seriously... that's my biggest fear. I know, the chances are slim to none.... I guess I just have to freak about something, or I just wouldn't be me.

I have been on a mostly liquid diet for a month now, and I have lost about 15 pounds. I'm pretty proud of myself, and I hope my surgeon is too. I'm one of those weenies who need constant reassurance and guidance, or I let my little world fall apart. The forums are great for that... I get to see I'm not the only one wondering what the hell the "foamies" are. I feel like theres still so much I'm not prepared for, even though the last year of my life has been devoted to researching and learning about the procedure. I even joked with my surgeon that I could probably just do the surgery myself! I have just got to quit worrying about what lies ahead, and get through it one day at a time... right? So guidance, advice, stories of success (or otherwise), and prayers are gladly accepted!


We have our surgery dates!!

Jun 26, 2007

We've finally made it! I will be having my RNY on July 18th! So soon! These next 3 weeks are gong to feel like waiting to go to Disneyland. I don't think Ive ever been so nervous or so excited... ever. I'll be going in for pre-surgery testing on the 16th. Maybe I can convince them just to go ahead and do it then, haha!  I've been waiting to set my own personal weight goal until I had gotten everything squared away. I have a long history of getting my hopes up, only to be let down in the end. I think its fair to assume this time everything is going to work in my favor.  So, my personal goal is 160 lbs by this time next year. Thats realistic, isn't it?

My husband will be having his surgery on August 22nd. When I called to let him know we had a date, I thought I sensed a disappointment in his voice. I just assumed it was because I was going to be having my RNY before his. I asked him about it later that night and all is well. He said that was the moment when it all became real to him. He had finally accepted he was going to be having surgery. I know exactly how he feels...

We're not religious people, but I do believe in the power of positive thinking, and the power of prayer is real... so please keep us in your thoughts and prayers!


OH HAPPY DAY!!

Jun 14, 2007

My husband and I were BOTH approved this week! I got the call out of the blue, and to tell the truth, I thought she was going to tell me something went wrong and that I couldn't be approved... I guess I am just used to being let down. Not this time!! I got so excited!! I started jumping up and down, laughing and wanting to cry! I can't believe its finally going to happen... I also can't believe that it's come this far, that I've let myself get so big that it would take something so drastic to get me back to good.... In my hysteria, my daughter (now almost 2 years old) said "Mommy happy! Mommy happy!". Yes, Mommy is happy!! I'm ready to put this all behind me and think only about the future of our family.

My husband got his call this morning just as he was leaving for work. I overheard him on the phone, and I knew right away he was relieved to finally hear some good news. As he was kissing me goodbye, he kept smiling and saying "I'm approved!!".

What a happy day for our family!!!!

Well, I'll be back with a surgery date soon!!


So, here we go...

Jun 11, 2007

So you may or may not know... My husband I are both in the process of getting insurance approval for our RNY procedures. We've gone through test after test and office visit after office visit. More than a year in the making, and I tell you, I'm tired! I never thought this would be so hard! At least, when someone claims this is the easy way out, I'll know better. Pages and pages of records, charts, reviews, and other paperwork, have been sent to the insurance company... now we play the waiting game.  My husband has been faithfully calling to check on the progress. So far, nothing... 

I can't wait to be back with good news!!!


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Terre Haute, IN
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07/18/2007
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Aug 17, 2006
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I just can't believe my eyes!
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