TESSIE59
My New Life
Oct 25, 2007
Without getting into long stories, in addition to my weight issues, I have dealt with panic attacks and depression for most of my life. My panic attacks turned into agoraphobia. There was a time when I couldn't go outside of a 7 mile radius. As I gained more weight, it became easier and easier to just stay home. When I decided to have gastric bypass, the biggest hurdle I had to overcome was that the surgeon was 30 miles from my house and the hospital was 35 miles away. As some of you remember I chickened out of my pre op testing because of the distance and the fact that I had to go up 5 floors in an elevator. I seriously wasn't as nervous about the complications of the surgery was much as I was the panic attacks I was afraid of having being that far out of my comfort zone. God was so good to me during that time and saw me through everything.
This last weekend I took my kids on vacation to Virginia. We were gone from Friday morning until Monday night. It was incredible. I have not left New York State in 30 years. Not only did we go, but because of the weight loss, I was actually able to enjoy myself. I can't tell you how excited I am about this surgery and how God has used this in my life.
This last weekend I took my kids on vacation to Virginia. We were gone from Friday morning until Monday night. It was incredible. I have not left New York State in 30 years. Not only did we go, but because of the weight loss, I was actually able to enjoy myself. I can't tell you how excited I am about this surgery and how God has used this in my life.
STAY AWAY FROM MY SCALE
Aug 20, 2007
AS YOU KNOW I HAVE BEEN FEELING VERY DISCOURAGED ABOUT THE AMOUNT OF WEIGHT LOSS THAT I HAVE HAD SINCE SURGERY. I LOST 14 POUNDS THE FIRST WEEK AND NOTHING SINCE. WELL, SO I THOUGHT. I FINALLY BROKE DOWN AND CALLED THE DOCTOR TODAY. THE FIRST THING THEY TOLD ME WAS STOP STEPPING ON THE SCALE. IT SHOULD BE A TREAT NOT AN EVERYDAY THING. SECOND IS I AM NOT EATING ENOUGH FOOD AND HAVE PUT MYSELF IN STARVATION MODE. I AM PRETTY SURE THAT I HAVE NEVER HEARD ANYONE TELL ME I'M NOT EATING ENOUGH. THEY TOLD ME TO EAT A LITTLE SOMETHING EVERY TWO HOURS TO GET OUT OF STARVATION MODE, AND GO GET WEIGHED AT THE DOCTOR. WHEN I DID INSTEAD OF ONLY BEING DOWN 14 POUNDS I AM DOWN 26 POUNDS. I WAS WEIGHED 2 DAYS BEFORE SURGERY.
I WANT TO SAY THANK YOU FOR EVERYBODY GIVING ME ENCOURAGEMENT AND THE SAME INFORMATION MY DOCTOR TOLD ME TODAY. I SHOULD HAVE JUST LISTENED TO YOU GUYS AND STOPPED WORRYING.
I WANT TO SAY THANK YOU FOR EVERYBODY GIVING ME ENCOURAGEMENT AND THE SAME INFORMATION MY DOCTOR TOLD ME TODAY. I SHOULD HAVE JUST LISTENED TO YOU GUYS AND STOPPED WORRYING.
08/18/07 ONE MONTH OUT
Aug 18, 2007
I AM ONE MONTH OUT. I AM DOWN TOTAL OF 42 POUNDS BUT THAT BREAKS DOWN AT 27 POUNDS PRE-OP AND 15 POUNDS POST OP. I HAVE TO SAY THAT I AM DISAPPOINTED AT THE AMOUNT OF WEIGHT THAT I HAVE LOST. I LOST 14 POUNDS THE FIRST WEEK. THE DOCTOR SAID THAT I AM RIGHT ON TRACK BUT TIME WILL TELL I GUESS. IT SEEMS LIKE I HAVE SO FAR TO GO. WELL I WILL JUST KEEP ON GOING.
VERY DISCOURAGED
Aug 10, 2007
WELL I AM 3 WEEKS AND 2 DAYS POST OP. I AM SO DISCOURAGED I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I LOST 14 POUNDS THE FIRST WEEK AFTER MY SURGERY AND HAVE NOT LOST ANYTHING SINCE. I KEEP GAINING AND LOSING THE SAME 2 POUNDS ALL THE TIME. I WAS HAVING SOME TROUBLE GOING TO THE BATHROOM, BUT THAT SEEMS TO BE SOMEWHAT RESOLVED. I KNOW I'M NOT OVEREATING IF ANYTHING I CAN'T POSSIBLE BE EATING MORE THAN LIKE 600 CALORIES A DAY. I THINK I'M LOSING INCHES BUT NOT FOR SURE. I NEEDED THIS SURGERY SO BADLY AND IT'S CERTAINLY NOT GOING TO HELP IF I DON'T LOSE ANY WEIGHT.
JULY 21, 2007
Jul 21, 2007
I AM HOME FROM SURGERY. PRAISE GOD. HE HAS BEEN SO GOOD TO ME. I AM DOING EVERYTHING I'M SUPPPOSED TO AND I AM DOWN 4 POUNDS ALREADY.
JULY 6, 2007
Jul 06, 2007
TODAY I WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE MY PRE-OP TESTING FOR MY SURGERY ON THE 18TH. I CHICKENED OUT. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. I HAVE BEEN WAITING SO LONG FOR THIS TO FINALLY HAPPEN AND I BLEW IT. I DON'T KNOW IF I WILL BE ABLE TO GET THEM DONE IN TIME FOR MY SURGERY. WHAT HAPPENS IF I DO AND THEN I CHICKEN OUT THE DAY OF THE SURGERY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
JUNE 30, 2007
Jun 30, 2007
18 MORE DAYS UNTIL SURGERY!!!!!!!!!!!!
I SPENT YESTERDAY MAKING JUMPERS TO WEAR NOW AND AFTER SURGERY I MAKE SURE TO PUT TIES ON THEM SO I CAN DECREASE THEM AS I DECREASE. THEY ARE ALSO EASY TO TAKE IN WHEN NEEDED. I FIGURE THIS WILL SAVE A LOT OF MONEY ON CLOTHING. I ALSO GOT TWO NIGHTGOWNS, ONE I'M SAVING FOR THE HOSPITAL. WENT TO WALMART TODAY AND BOUGHT MORE FABRIC TO FINISH UP. I WANT TO HAVE IT ALL DONE BY THE TIME I GO IN FOR MY LIFE CHANGING SURGERY.
I SPENT YESTERDAY MAKING JUMPERS TO WEAR NOW AND AFTER SURGERY I MAKE SURE TO PUT TIES ON THEM SO I CAN DECREASE THEM AS I DECREASE. THEY ARE ALSO EASY TO TAKE IN WHEN NEEDED. I FIGURE THIS WILL SAVE A LOT OF MONEY ON CLOTHING. I ALSO GOT TWO NIGHTGOWNS, ONE I'M SAVING FOR THE HOSPITAL. WENT TO WALMART TODAY AND BOUGHT MORE FABRIC TO FINISH UP. I WANT TO HAVE IT ALL DONE BY THE TIME I GO IN FOR MY LIFE CHANGING SURGERY.
June 27, 2007
Jun 26, 2007
It's almost 3AM and once again I am not sleeping. I have lost another 2 pounds pre-op bringing it down to 338. I am trying to cut down on my portions, drinking more water, and chewing my food a lot more than I ever have. One person related it to feeling like a goat and I have to say I agree. I am very excited about the surgery, yet feeling anxious about it also. I have anxiety and panic attacks and I certainly don't like spending the night in a hospital 35 miles from home. However, I know that if I don't have this surgery, things for me would begin to start to get worse for me health wise. I am still committed to changing my life and allowing this wonderful tool to help facilitate that. I hope that I will be able to look back on these postings and chuckle that I was worried for nothing......lol.
Is it really possible for me?
Jun 10, 2007
Everyday I come to this forum. It has been so good. Everyone here has been so supportive. As I have allowed myself to get to this weight, over the last year my health has gotten so bad that I am home so much. It is painful to walk or stand more than 4 minutes now as I have developed osteoarthritis in my spine. So it has been great getting to know everyone on the forum. I read the stories of true life-changing things happening and I get so inspired. I have really done an about face. Never before did I even consider WLS until the last few months. God has been so good to me that my weight up to this point has not done damage to any major organs. I know that if I continue this way, this will not be the case. I am very committed to this surgery and what needs to be changed in my life for the rest of my life. I am afraid of one thing. Is this life-change possible for me? I don't feel that I have ever succeeded with anything in my life. I am 47 years old with many regrets. I am afraid that if I don't succeed at this, there is no hope left for me in my weight loss battle. Seeing this transformation in real people makes me want it so bad for myself. I have never lived, I have only survived for my whole life. I want so much to be healthy. Am I the only one that has gone through this?
I got the call today
Jun 04, 2007
Surgery is set for July 18th at 10:30 am. I am so excited.
About Me
Frewsburg, NY
Location
43.2
BMI
Surgery
07/18/2007
Surgery Date
Feb 05, 2007
Member Since