TheCityDoll
So, here I am at 30 years old, never married, single, living in New York City as a Corporate Executive for the Largest Store in The World! I Started researching WLS seriously in early July. After much research, I chose the Duodenal Switch with Dr. Roslin at Lenox Hill Hospital in New York City. After much difficulty with insurance approval, I finally got a surgery date set for December 1, 2008. After some complications during my surgery, Dr. Roslin was only safely able to complete the first stage of a 2 part operation. I ended up with the Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy. I am now unsure as to whether or not, I will procede to the second stage and that will be determined upon my progress with this portion of the surgery. So far, so good, and according to Dr. Roslin, I may not need to go back in for the second stage.
My issues with weight started around 8 years old. I can remember vividly being one of the bigger kids in my class. I was not yet obese, but I was what they called, "big boned" at the time. I remember being so embarressed and ashamed when they did the class weigh in and the nurse would shout out your weight across the room, so that the teacher could notate it in their records. This embarressement would go on for the next 23 years. I've gone up and down the scale, but one thing has always remained... and that is that I've NEVER reached my goal weight and when I gained the weight back that I lost, I would gain back more than I originally weighed.
So for most of my life, I've always been that girl that they said, "you have such a pretty face." Did anyone ever realize how insecure that really made me feel? When I looked in the mirror, I didn't see a girl that was all that big. Even now, I kind of think I see myself thinner than the rest of the world does. Partially because I wear flattering clothes, but also because I am used to my size, for the most part.
My weight really ballooned these past 2 years of my life(prior to surgery) and I realized I could no longer control my issues with food and weight. I had a dream one night and looked in the mirror and I was thin. I've never been thin in my entire adult life, or even most of my childhood.... Somehow, I still remember so clearly what I looked like thin and it was really me. Then I woke up and decided I had to do something about it. I couldn't go on watching my life pass me by and seeing all the missed opportunities, whether it be within my career, or watching the possible love of my life, pass me by... That's when I decided I would look into WLS. The process was arduous, but well worth it, as you really prepare yourself for the major life change in that time period. I have no regrets about having surgery and feel it was the best decision I've ever made in my life. I would not change a thing.
