Overweight again!

Aug 12, 2020

I'm shocked. Not sure how but I went from my usual 55 kg to 69ish. BMI of 26, overweight got the first time since 2011 surgery. My clothes don't fit.

it might be a mix of:

  • Quarantine
  • changing my diet for the better, more nutritious food to combat anemia etc (it worked) but maybe I'm eating more?
  • under medicated for hypothyroidism 
  • been doing IVIG infusions for my autoimmune illness for 2 years 
  • death of a loved one a year ago
  • anxiety in general from everything

I have a plan as being overweight (although people don't notice) is too uncomfy:

  • start tracking food, eat max 1200 calories a day 
  • start walking 1h per day
  • I should lose for now 3kg to get to BMI of 25 and "normal weight" but keep going
  • I plan to take 4 months of diet and walking to lose 4kg per month and get to 52 kg again. I'm fine with 55kg though
  • I have an apppitnment with thyroid doctor to review bloodwork and perhaps up my dose as it seems too low based on my TSH and T4. She's better than me at determine T3 and such.
  • I'll also phase out my infusions as autoimune ccondition finally seems to be going into remission.


    Had to buy 2 large comfy dresses for summer today and I hate it! I want to fit back in my clothes. As I never gained serious weight, I think I just eat whenever I want and it suddenly seems I cannot do that anymore. Wish me luck. 
6 comments

Stopped thyroid meds, gaining weight

Dec 08, 2016

So I stopped it for a while to see how I do... specially with the $300 doctor visit... maybe I don't even need it?

Results:

  • gained weight for the first time in years... up to 128 pounds.
  • feel a little foggy brain and less of a sharp mind.
  • more tired

Maybe I will have to come to terms with taking thyroid meds for the rest of my life... the weight doesn't bother me as much, but the brain being foggy certainly does.

 

2 comments

Left work, not eating, 108 pounds

Mar 16, 2015

After a hellish month with new dumb/weirdo boss, I left work two weeks ago. I don't cook much at home and usually eat out when working so it's been hard. I haven't been eating very well and lost probably around 8 pounds already, according to my home scale I'm at 108 pounds or 48.98 kg now. BMI of 18.5. Great... unemployed and too thin. Ugh. Not ideal.

I think I'll go eat something, as if I lose one more gram I'll be underweight :(

BMI Categories:
Underweight = less than 18.5
Normal weight = 18.5–24.9

 

0 comments

Surgery in the family?

Jan 17, 2015

The only other member of my family who reached obesity, my older sis, is considering doing the surgery too.

It's quite shocking as she is one of the few who I can say is extremely happy, in a happy marriage, two grown kids... it's not like she "needs" it to feel better about anything or so. She and husband, who is thin, have an intense relationship with cooking, being gourmet kind of people etc. I wonder if having the surgery will change her/their life together in a good or bad way... I am a little concerned. Sometimes it seems their life revolves around food, going to restaurants, being gourmet foodies.

I am conflicted. I've recommended the surgery to her in the past and she was not interested. Now that she is, from her own desire, I am worried she doesn't understand she will never be into food again as before. Because it's a big part of her life... is it for her indeed?

What to even say? Be honest and say that food is something I don't care about now, that I just eat for living, and I am not interested in anymore?

She is more fat than I ever was. What about all that skin that she will have left over? I am used to her being big since she became a mom almost 30 years ago. I don't even know how she will look like.

2 comments

Addicted... to buying clothes

Oct 21, 2014

I know I don't need any more clothes... I know I have more than enough. I know my closet is packed already. I've bought enough smaller pieces in the past years after surgery.

Yet every few days or weeks... I keep buying and buying. Cause it's fun. Cause I like playing with the clothes for work. But...

The truth is I think I've gotten a little addicted. Now that everything can look good on me (although XS is a little roomy and large on me... I've been thinking I'm too thin, but that's another story). Could it be because I am now working for a fancy company where people dress relatively better than most places, so that might influence a little in my desire to buy and perhaps this in fact makes sense?

Anyway... being a little addicted to buying clothes - does it correlate to the relationship we had with food before? Is it really an addiction?

14 comments

Heartbreak & weight loss

Oct 04, 2014

I'm brokenhearted and disappointed in the last 2-3 days, and I just can't eat. I lost like 10 pounds already, down to 110 pounds - 49.89kg - a 18.9 BMI. Anything under 108 pounds would be Underweight, which is less than 18.5, while Normal weight btw 18.5–24.9. This is a little scary place for me to be, I always feared getting there.

I feel like I now fight against getting too thin. I am just not that hungry usually. When I am, in the 3 main meals, I can't eat much... so that's why I struggle with keeping weight on now. Oh my, who would say.

Life is just so different post surgery. I think I'd eat more in the past when brokenhearted. I have no appetite and just want to vanish right now.

edit: one more day and 2 pounds lost. I am at 108 pounds and 48.9 kg, underweight territory. oh my. I can hardly eat now because of the heartbreak, but also before it was hard as well. I feel like I have to force myself to eat as I have no appetite really. I wish I was a little fatter than this. 55kg would be good. Ah. life can be so sarcastic with us sometimes.

3 comments

My surgeon died

Jul 09, 2014

SO weird to find out Mr. Aceves had died.

I had been cc-d in an email from his coordinator stating we will all miss him, etc. - she didn't specifically say he passed but it felt like that.

Did some googling and found out he died in a plane crash a couple of weeks ago. I don't know many people who died and having the doctor who did such an important surgery on you die feels really strange.

It's a shame really as when I came back to the US and saw the super fancy NY doctor (who operated NJ Governor later), he looked at my X-Rays and told me my surgery was perfect. And it's interesting to be saying it now, as no one reading this will question my sincerity, as it's not like anyone needs to advertise for Dr. A anymore.

I can't say I connected emotionally with Mr. A. when I first met him when I went to Mexicali to do the surgery - we didn't get along well and he seemed angry that I was not that sure about wanting to do it. But in the end I did (more than 3 years ago) and I don't regret it.

I am visiting my home country and it's crazy how EVERY SINGLE PERSON I see from the old times tells me I am thin but -- maybe too thin. I see it in their eyes (and most of them didn't even see me at my biggest, they saw me with 65-74 kg with is what I used to bounce between). I was even called anorexic this week when I didn't finish a small meal. But you know what, I will always thank Mr. Aceves for the good job he did on me. I'll take being on the really thin side over being twice this size anytime.

RIP, Mr. A. Thank you for changing my life for the best and making me feel good about myself again.

2 comments

More traveling and more weight lost - below XS

May 05, 2014

Just weighted myself (albeit at night time) for the first time in 3 months (since I started dating someone new) and this is the thinnest I've been throughout my journey: 110 pounds / 49.9 kg. 105 pounds lost :O I thought I didn't lose any weight but people have been commenting that I look thinner, and a few XS clothes are too lose.

I almost think I am too thin... although I'm not usually that hungry, I try to eat constantly and several meals a day, but it's not that easy to eat a lot per real meal (lunch or dinner) - I wish I could eat a little more quantity-wise on those. I wonder why did the surgeon have to make my pouch SO small, if it was really necessary.

 

I am also a little worried because normal weight is >18.5 BMI and I am currently on 18.9 and could use more weight easily if I don't try o constantly eat.

 

I don't think I regret doing the surgery though. The successful guy I'm dating would never look at me at my previous weight. Not sure it's a good thing but it is what it is.

0 comments

Traveling & losing weight

Feb 01, 2014

Just came back from a 5-day business trip. It seems everytime I travel now I (unwantingly) lose a few pounds.

This is the thinnest I've been since my journey started: 112 pounds (50.8 kg). I lost 4-6 pounds on this trip. Must be because I don't snack a lot between meals as I do at home. My co-workers and mainly my boss would think it's really weird I don't eat much on meals and then snack all the time in between... but that's not the reason I didn't snack. It's just hard to find the time to look for snacks on a business trip.

Honestly I don't want to lose any more weight, so it's a little scary to have lost these pounds. I'll try to work a bit on it now that I'm back home.

It's been 3 years since my surgery (time flies!!!) and in my wildest dreams I didn't think I'd be this weight again.

0 comments

Post-surgery issue

Mar 23, 2013

It's been a while but I wanted to post an alert here for those who had VSG in case you stumble across my profile. A year after surgery I fainted and hit my head, which caused me several complications (anosmia and then parosmia, smell disturbances). I later found out through neurologist that I had a magnesium deficiency. It was causing me to have tremors and feel like I was going to faint, post-surgery. Taking magnesium citrate supplement 2x a day cured it. So if you're having hand and feet tremors post surgery I strongly suggest you look into that before it causes you trouble. Just thought I put it out there as it could be related to surgery or lack of proper nutrition post-surgery.

0 comments

About Me
NY
Location
26.1
BMI
VSG
Surgery
01/24/2011
Surgery Date
Jan 07, 2011
Member Since

Friends 56

Latest Blog 11

×