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Well last time I wrote i was so close to Inner Thigh skin removal.. IT didn't happen why? because the insurance said since i lost 40lbs in 3 mos i was not at a stable wieght so denied me on surg day yes that is right got sent home from surg because no one did thier job and read the denial before hand i was prepped and ready to go. I went into a deep depression feeling useless among other things. I could not belive this happened I came so far and this..so i have had to maintain a steady wieght for 6mos before they will reconsider well i am gonna try again end of june and hope for the best. winter was hell with my fibro  with constant weather changes it made it difficult to maintain my exercise and well  i am afraid i gained about 15lbs... great huh?  not really i have been very upset with myself over it and getting back to the basics all over again.

The thing one most relize in this journey is it don't end day of surg.. it continues for life. Life is never the same again and anyone who thinks it will be is wrong dead wrong. eating habits,exercise habits fluid intake,health is never the same you have to be ready for ups and downs and roadblocks that are thrown in your path.  I have been stopped in my tracks many times had to regroup and change my thoughts and plans. When I thought I made a mistake having this surgery My fiancee showed me a pic of when i was almost 500 lbs and i cryed. To this day it gets hard,my health has declined due to malasorbation and my fibro which is not controlled due to malasorbation. Even though i live in constant pain and need to give myself b12 shots monthly, and twice a year get iron by iv for 5weeks once a week . it was all worth the crap i have to do, i can fit in a booth at a resturant,buckle my seatbelt, sit in the tub,ride my horse, ride a bike,walk w my kids and dogs around the creek all without dying 10 steps out. eating out when that happens lets me have leftovers for 3meals, feeding my family has been a challenge cause they really don't like my healthy foods but are learning to at least try it..

I HAVE chosen not to gain by wieght back and 15lbs is a setback ,but it can be fixed. NEVER forget where your journey started and remember it only ends when YOU FAIL YOURSELF!! SURGERY DON'T MAKE THE NEW YOU !!!! YOU DO ITS YOUR CHOICE TO MAKE IT WORK OR LET IT FAIL ITS UP TO YOU!!!  the scale may not always be your best friend, look at it as your guide and not as a punishment. BELIVE IN YOURSELF AND NEVER GIVE UP YOUR DREAM!!!! this JOURNEY is a tough and trying one. never forget the support you have here on the site and those who love you. we all are on the same journey together we can do it!!!!!

Well here we go about 2 weeks from excess skin removal off my inner thighs.
  its not what most would think,i'm not getting a total thigh lift just removing excess skin that is causing skin infections. I am scared some as when I had the panni done I had lots of complications again it was not a tummy tuck I do not have a flat tummy but my panni don't hang to my knees anymore.

I can say almost 2yrs out and I still have my days that I struggle to maintain. me and scale have words often these days. It still is a battle But a battle that I can say I am winning to a point. working out for me has become a problem not because i don't want to, but with my fibro it makes every step sometimes unbearable. I am forcing my body to work out to a point. so lately the scale has not moved which is good but i need to start losing again since I gained some wieght and none the less I truly am not the bit happy about it.

So I can say that working out is something i must work on again and take it slow which for me is a challenge at times. My hair has grown back!  and well my tummy didn't explode from drinking soda either!!  I don't dump..then again I wish I did!!!
  mini snickers are evil:)
Eating is going wonderful bread can be evil at times... water has become my best friend right along with crystal light pkts.
  oh yea bars are my go to protien on the run when there is no time or tummy is too stressed to eat a meal.  Yes that happens I still have grouchy pouchy days.
 pasta is a killer for me rice is fine go figure.
I have learned through all of this FOOD IS NOT MY BEST FRIEND ANYMORE!!! Yes that is right food now is something i must do to remain alive.
 I enjoy all the things that have come my way since my surgery... fitting into non strecth jeans,buying non wide width shoes, shopping at walmart,fitting properly in my truck,fitting in the bathtub, and sitting in a booth at a resturant and not getting stuck!!! fitting in a public bathroom stall without stradling the toilet to get in or out.. and so much more.  relizing that a kids meal is a little too much to eat yep that is right too i used to eat two giant value meals and still be hungry yea i look at the amount of food now and think what the hell were you doing to yourself..

life with my family is so much more fun and enjoyable i am not afraid to go out with my man and not think he is embarssed by me now he lets other men know i am takin. he always did that before too but now its different.

Riding my horse again was a great moment I could fit in the saddle and not think i was gonna break her back. I can ride a bike again with my kids. I am looking forward to winter somewhat I am goin sledding with em even if it hurts damn it.

Don't ever think having this surg was a mistake cause it will save your life!!! it saved me and my family!!!!!

yes its true you read right.. on Oct 26 i go for preop appt and pre surgey labs . Then on Nov 8 I checkin at 6am and surg is at 8am . finally my big bags on my inner thighs will be gone. its a good thought yet i know my body and with each surg my body takes longer to heal. Knowing this is the last surg makes me happy i could do my batwings but have decided those can stay and remind along with the scars on my belly and legs that we will never go back where we came from. It is yet still hard to read about some who are just above the line of obese and then they reach thier goal within a few short months and then thier are ones like me even after almost 2years we still struggle with our self and our scale.. Hell 200 lbs gone but still have a ways to go in my book i still hit the chart at the drs office as morbily obese .
  I sometimes wonder when it will stop and i will finally be content , rusty says i lost 2 whole people yet i am still not happy with the scale at times .

well off i go to do something constructive today

So in this journey we learn protien is our best friend to most of us means protien shakes. I am almost 2yrs out and I still make protien shakes when in a pinch or tummy is a little grouchy. We all know drinking the shakes the same way day in and day out get old fast. I have decided it would be great to share my go to recipes for some yummy shakes. feel free to use them and mix em up.


Mocha smoothie
1/2 c decaf coffee
1/2 c skim milk or soy milk
2 TBL vanilla or unflavored protien powder
1 TBL Cocoa
4 t splenda if desired
5 ice cubes
mix together in magic bullet or blender and enjoy

11o cal 15g protien 11g carbs
note i use this for a treat on summer days that i think i need a pick me sweet

PINA COLADA
1C Water
2pkts splenda
2 scoops protein powder
1 t pineapple extract
1/2 t coconut extract

mix all ingred. together and enjoy

Protien pudding
1 small pkg sugar free instant pudding your choice
2 c fat free milk
2 scoops unflavored protien powder
mix together and let set in fridge

1/4 c of pudding has 14g protien

I can not belive what i saw this morning. My scale moved but in the wrong direction. So here i sit thinking what the hell i did to myself. I'm eating right,protien yea,working out.....thats it doing everything but that .  My fibro is not being controlled so i am in pain much of the time so working out has been a problem....SO i have decided in pain or not I am going to workout...I have too came to far in this journey not too.
      So starting tomorrow morning at 7:30am after my son is on the bus for school my happy butt is walking up to the gym and working out for 45mins, I have got to get this extra wieght off that has planted itself on my gut and ass . 

PINA COLADA

1C WATER
2 PACKETS SPLENDA
2 SCOOPS VANILLA PROTIEN POWDER
8 ICE CUBES
1 t PINEAPPLE EXTRACT
1/2 t COCONUT EXTRACT

MIX ALTOGETHER IN BLENDER UNTIL SMOOTH

PROTIEN COUNTS WILL DEPEND UPON YOUR BRAND OF POWDER


VANILLA CHAI SMOOTHIE

1 C SKIM MILK
1/4 t GROUND ALL SPICE
1/4C SPLENDA
1/3 C UNFLAVORED OR VANILLA PROTIEN POWDER
3 t INSTANT TEA MIX UNSWEETEND
3/4 t VANILLA
3/4 t CINNAMON
MIX IN MIXER UNTIL SMOOTH

110 CAL
16 G PROTIEN
11G CARBS
NO FAT

HOPE THIS HELPS SOME OF YOU GET BACK TO DRINKING OUR LOVELY PROTIEN DRINKS TRY THESE ONES MY 13 LOVES THIS ONE ON HER WAY TO SCHOOL

Its been amazing ride this past year and half. I have lost alot of wieght and been in pant sizes i thought i would never see again. I am 7mos out from having excess skin removeal they took almost 30lbs. have one more to go to remove the excess that is causing me problems on my inner thighs.

the scale is creepin on me again and i have gained some wieght back. so not sure if it is the lyrica they put me or my ablifiy quite yet doubling watching my intake and making sure its not a human error called my own.  life has gotten easier on some things but still quite hard on others. learning how to eat when we attend functions and get togethers and tired of explaining why i can't eat alot gets old.

my children are learning that eating healthy is not a bad thing but a very good thing to learn and the lifestyle along with it is a good one.

Wow!!!
 what a change 6mos out and lost 107lbs since surg and total of 150lbs since the begining of my journey. It has been long and a challenge. Everyday is a new day,new start. I am learning so much and doing things that I thought i would never do again.

I crossed my legs the other day and didn't relize it tell my friend says wow you did it. being able to move my truck seat up and put the steering wheel down. those are just some things..i need new clothes for sure, I am in therapy now and go once a week to sessions i will always fight the food issue now i must deal with all the things that i tucked away for all these years.

I wish momma could be here to see all the changes in me..I know she has the best seat in the house in heaven. She was so happy i had the surg and seen the first stage of my loss.

I still some days have trouble eating but i hear that is normal.
i can't think of anything right now

Here I am a little more than 4mo's out. What a change in my life since surg. I am losing so much and what a blessing it has been . Its so strange to walk into places and have people say oh my your melting away. it's a good feeling.
  I am still struggling at times to get my food groups and amounts in ,by the time I eat my protein I am full. Still learning to try new foods as well.
 Taking my multiv. and B-12 everyday..need to find something to help me with my hair loss.

I am at a stall right now for wt loss..which really annoys me at times , but knows that it is normal and will happen from time to time. 
 The weather has been so nice here in Iowa and given me the chance to walk everyday and it has not been  a health hazard for me to do so ..example huffin and puffin as i walk and feel like i'm gonna die. I can now walk several blocks without being tired. walking upstairs is now a breeze and have started running up and down stairs for more exercise. Thinking about buying a wii so i can get some exercise games and do as well.

I don't go back to the dr till june..and goal is to loose about 30 more lbs before then so increasing my exercise is a must for that to happen.

 I am working on some recipes and will post some when i get them down.

Here I am 3mos out and oh what a journey this has been. I am now on 4th stage for meals. Which I have found to be daily challenge. I am trying new things and finding my tummy does not like some things. Today I made some steak and thought well they said I could have it so I tryed one piece and well I knew it was not gonna well so opted for something else instead.
My loss as of yesterday was 72.6 lbs since surg and over 85lbs since the begining of this journey. What a difference I see in myself,the energy,confidence I have gained. My family is enjoying the benifits as well..I have made this a family journey using this as a tool for my whole family to get healthy.

I still have troubles getting in my protien in some days,but get in all of water which sometimes makes me fell I will float away...at least I don't swell up from it anymore.
  I find myself missing diet coke....