Tiffany W.
1 Year Anniversary, how should I feel??
Feb 18, 2011
Today is my 1 year surgiversary. I remember this day like it was yesterday. Up early @ 5am. Arriving at the hospital @ 9am surrounded by my mom, grandmother and sister. Excited, not scared or nervous - wanting to get this thing over with (hated the waiting time between checking in and prepping for surgery). I walked in to Memorial Hospital that morning weighing 308lbs. not knowing what to expect....Fast forward 1 year exactly and I'm 172lbs (down 136). I lost a person. I woke up this morning and felt like something was missing. Why wasn't I excited for where I've started to where I am now? It's not that I'm sad or disappointed that I'm not where I'd expected to be at 1 year out or that gone is the firmness of my breasts, thighs arms and stomach. I just don't feel anything.
My mother called me this morning, excited and practically singing into the phone about how "proud she is to have me as a daughter" and that I've done an amazing job, look good and every other affirmation that you can think of. And when she asked me how do I feel, I couldn't give an answer because there wasn't one that would fit.
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About Me
Newark, NJ
Location
24.6
BMI
Surgery
02/18/2010
Surgery Date
Jun 07, 2009
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