4.5 Wks Post Op

Jan 30, 2012

I am much more chipper when i am online here.

Today is my first day back at work and i am so happy. I had to admit that the last month has been on and off difficult. I went through all the grieving stages in the last 4.5 weeks. Wednesday will be 5 weeks post op and i cant wait to weigh in. As of 1/25/12 i was down 19.6lbs. Most of that was lost in the first two weeks, 17.8lbs. and the last 2 wks i lost 1.8lbs due to all the experimentation i did. I ate desserts, breads, chips, soda... anything i could eat i tried. Not all of it sat well and i did some throwing up.

Some items that dont like me....  White bread - stomach upset. Goldfish crackers - stomach upset. Cheez-its - stomach upset. Chips - cause headaches. Soda - im a fart machine. Desserts - have to be extremely limited or it makes me dizzy and nauseated.

I have started walking 30 minutes daily and doing Callanetics. Its a mix of pilates and yoga from the 80's and works miracles. Tightens and tones your muscles and is extremely low impact. You still sweat and feel it the next day.

I have made it almost an entire work day without falling asleep or getting a slump in my energy. I ate my protein first and have not snacked on junk. and i have sipped water all day. I am happy to be back at work. Tomorrow i will be crazy busy with my physician so i am going to have a timer on my desk to help keep me on track. So far my body has given me the proper cues. I start to wonder off in my concentration and feel a little twinge of hunger, i glance at the clock and its been two hours since my last meal/snack.

What i have gained from this procedure so far.... hunger and full cues. ive lost 19.6lbs and fit back into my fat clothes comfortably. (i never bought fat, fat clothes). an appreciation for water. an ability to listen to my body, every single part (i never listened before, i just ate). i found my smile.

I hope to gain more and more as i go through this journey.

My coworkers have noticed i am happier. I dont look dull or sick. my face is slimmer and i am taller ( i tried to tell them its the shoes but they didnt believe me).

I am still me though. that i didnt lose. But one thing i plan to do is identify the things i dont like about myself. like being socially claustrophobic. and change it! not hide behind the fat, or some excuse.

I am still human though. Since only losing 1.8 lbs in the last two weeks i felt like a failure. I was so distraught that i didnt follow the program right and ill be the only one to not lose. but then remembered... its only been 1 month. 1 month!!! and ive lost 20 pounds. My nutritionist reminded me that the glycogen is back in the liver now and that will attribute to low numbers. I decided to take charge. I have lots of low carb, protein choices. Exercise plans. and a better outlook. Just because i had weight loss surgery does not mean i can eat whatever i want. i have to pay attention and make better food choices. Its just a tool. i have to use the tool the right way. i will check in 2/22/12 on my two month progress :)

some nsv's... My belt fits again (wasnt able to use it for the last 2-3 yrs). My scrubs are loose and my dansko's fit (no more baked bread feet or adjusting scrubs to cover fat rolls hanging out). and im in a very tight 1X shirt (the 3x shirts were way too loose for comfort and no 2x's).

I hope all my friends are doing well and seeing better numbers than i am! :) Happy Losing

Sara

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