4 months post op

May 02, 2012

Hi All

I am officially 50 lbs down from my weight at my last nutrition visit. it feels good to see this number, like a small achievement. And it was. Every pound was difficult to lose. I will drop 3 lbs then up 2 then down 1 and up 2 and down 1 and so on and so on. eventually, over the course of 2 weeks ill lose a total of 5 lbs and go down from there. But man its frustrating. I know stalls happen and the scale will go up and down but geez its frustrating and sometimes defeating to see that number up, especially if you think that the previous day went well. no matter how frustrating it is i am so happy to be down 50 lbs. it reminds me that i will never be out of the clear. its easy to gain it all back and i will forever have to pay attention to what i eat and how much activity i am doing.

I have cleared out my entire closet. All i have left are some xl tshirts and shorts and tanks that i wore 3 years ago. for some reason i hung on to them, before surgery i never thought i would get back in to them regardless of 'trying'. I am happy to announce that the shorts i wore to Las Vegas 3 years ago now fit and are loose! I like to wear shorts now. sooo crazy! I am enjoying carnivals and fairs and being out and about. i flake on my friends less and dont get anxiety when invited to social events.

Eating. The big topic. I can eat about 800 calories per day and be satisfied. I always have to remind myself to drink water and eat protein first. I struggle with cleaning my plate and even though i have significantly decreased the size of my portions i still can eat too much. or get full (not bursting), pause for 10 minutes and eat again. basically eating a second helping. weight loss was slow and stalled more than it is now and very frustrating. I have since recognized the issue and stopped it, for the most part. in month 3 i was struggling with giving in to habits and letting them control me. On Easter i put my foot down and decided to not give in to habits and let them drag me down. The surgery gave me power and i have to preserve that power. In general i have alot of control over my life, as a single mom i have to be. But this area, eating, is such a weak area. I continue to practice control and learn more about myself, triggers and better answers to deal with the triggers.

I starting doing the C25K but was unable to complete it. I injured my foot, i tried to keep working through it and was able to keep going but my energy level was going down, down, down. to the point where i could not make it through a single day. I would sleep for 12 hrs and need more. It was really awful. So i stopped exercising until i lost more weight. Which is today. Today marks the day that i return to the gym. I will be riding the recumbant bike 30 minutes per day and work my way up. Depending on how i tolerate the increase of activity i will hopefull do bike and walking for 60  minutes per day but i need to take it slow because my energy level is fragile. I do need to be more active and want to start doing Callanetics. its a mix of yoga and pilates that completely reshapes your body. I just need a vcr and im good to go.

I cannot wait to go shopping. Sometimes i go to the store and see something that i totally love and want but then remember it wont fit next year. its so hard to pass up cute clothes.

Check out my current pics that i just uploaded :) at first i couldnt see the difference, just feel it in my clothes (even my new clothes) but seeing it online here instead of just on my phone i can really see the difference. i look alot less bloated and possibly happier :) 

Go Sleeve Go

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