try and try again

Feb 17, 2014

I am working hard but i can never seem to stay on plan for more than 3 days, sometimes up to a week but when i am home on the weekends, i am having one seriously hard time. It was like this early on right after surgery and even before. I need to continue to try new things to combat this issue. One other issue ive been trying to figure out is why i am burpins so much. waaay more than originally. Im also feeling like there is a lump in my esophagus when i eat yogurt or gulp water. a surgeon from the same office i went for surgery said i likely have a hiatal hernia again :( big boohoo!!! But the burping is getting sooo bad i dont even want to eat. While out with my mom the other day i noticed when she got heartburn she would burp. SO i thought, i should try taking my omeprazole and see if that takes away some of the symptoms. I have never had the pain from heartburn except for very rare occasions. Ill check back in a couple weeks or months to see if it helps with the burping and decreasing my appetite.

On an activity note, I am using my fit bit and working very hard to get 8k steps on my days off and 10k+ on my work days. This is not too hard if i exercise. I am trying to incorporate some at home strength training like squats, planks 5lb dumbell arm exercises. I finally got over my fear of the weight machines at this new gym (ive used them at my old gym but not familiar with the different style or like being around all the teeny boppers playing nearby). I did not consistently go to the gym for the last 2 weeks. I have stayed around 212 for 2 weeks. A coworker sell Advocare, and i love their spark, so this last order i picked up some stuff to do the 24 day challange. im really excited for this :) i am going to start next week so i can use up some of the stuff i have made at home first. i will do what i should have done before surgery, measure and take pictures and keep track on my inspiration board. im not sure why i didnt do this for surgery. i think i was worried i would fail or that i would never forget how big i actually was. Well, i forgot. and i wish i would have those big number differences to easily compare. I cant wait to get to goal for 2014. I have to make some headway soon because before i know it... it will be december and i will only have maintained :( another big fear! i need to keep positive thoughts in the forefront of my mind and stop worrying and letting fear get in the way!! I need to stay consistent, determined, mindful and positive.

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