Ruthie K.
New Year!
Jan 01, 2014
Well Happy New year all!! I am the healthiest I have been for a very long time. I am 168 lbs from my highest weight, and 70lbs from my personal goal weight. I am a year and two months post op. Things slowed way down since July, but the last couple of weeks things seem to start falling off again. about 3 pounds a week or so. Im sure I will slow again though. I have been going to the YMCA a couple times a week, working out for about an hour and then swim for an hour. I hope to keep up with it and go a few times a week. Well I hope everyone is doing good!
6 Months Post op.... :)
May 05, 2013
Hello Friends!
Sorry it's been a while since I updated any thing. A lot has happened, first off I have lost.....127 pounds!!! I feel great and starting to feel better about myself (well most days anyway) I still have days where I get depressed. My weight loss has slowed down a lot, some weeks where I don't loss anything. Most of that is as a result of not eating the right foods, yes I have found it easier to just grab some cheese crackers or something quick. I know it isnt the right way to do things. So I am back to square one and eating what I know is for me.
I also Got married Feb. 22! Yep total surprise!! My husband told me the night before Valentines Day that we were getting married the next morning.....lol well he didn't fully think his plan through all the way, but we had a full church wedding with close friends and family the following weekend...:)
Also, this last Friday my 20 year old son married his high school sweet heart, it was also a rushed thing...No she's not having a baby!...lol He is shipping off to the Army the end of May. For her to be able to go with his they had to be married, they had been talking about it for a couple of years any way. But I couldn't be any prouder of him...:)
Well, friend I will update again in a week or two, or at least I plan on it!..Everyone have a blessed week and hope everyone's Mother's Day is a happy one!
One month out!
Dec 06, 2012
Hello friends!
Sorry I haven't made a new post in a while, but I had a lot of difficulty after surgery. The pain was horrible for the first 2 weeks, ad still getting sick almost every time I eat. But the weight has been coming off. I lost 21 pounds the first week, then week 2 and three I lost nothing. This week its been falling off a pound or two here and there, so it slowed down a lot...:/ But from what the Dr said it is normal for some people.
Most of the pain is gone, and the incision areas are healed very well. Other than the upset stomach everything is good. Hope everyone has a wonderful Holiday!
The day is ever closer!
Oct 30, 2012
Hi everyone!
I know it's been a little while since my last post. Sorry about that! But I have been trying to keep myself busy so the days will fly by faster, the problem is that isn't working..lol Surgery is Monday!..
But I am so nervous, and scared. I keep telling myself things will get better after surgery, I will loose the weight and begin to live a normal life. I want to fit into a crowd of people, not stand out because of my wide butt!
I have called my family in Missouri, talked to them a little. But I don't think they understand what is really about to happen. Someday they will, or at least I hope. My fiance is very supportive and help me keep on my plan. So with him and my teenage son I think we are doing good.
I hope to take some pictures before surgery so I can post them on here, that way I can look back at what I have done. I have always kept out of pictures if I could, hopefully that will change as time goes on. 
Update!
Oct 18, 2012
Talked to Dr. Clements a little about being nervous and scared. He was OK with The nervousness but told me not to be scared or let myself get that way. I feel rather confident with my Doctor and his team, some of them really seem to care. (some just seem like it's a job) I myself want to inspire others and help them with the difficult times they might be heading towards. I will never let myself become one of those people who had surgery and act better than those who aren't where they want to be yet. Yes, I understand that they see so many people and loose track of people. But, kindness goes along way. Treat everyone the same, if your going to be working in a place that cares for people like me, at least act like your excited for them.
Anyway, sorry for the ranting...lol
The up side of this I found out that I will only have one day of liquid diet...lol But not looking forward to the liquid I have drink to clean my intestines out....they said it's really crazy stuff.
Anyway thanks for reading and I hope you all are having a wonderful day!
Lost
Oct 14, 2012
I remember the day we left Missouri to chance what then seemed like a wonderful dream. It was Jan 3 2012. We were moving to Florida for my fiance' to take a great paying job, and a better life for out children. (but that was all a lie someone told us, but I will get into that some other time)
But I walked over to tell her bye and that I loved her. MY Grandma is always hard as stone and nothing really gets to her. We hugged, and she told me to watch my blood sugar and take tak care of myself. As I was letting her go she as crying, not just a few tears but a river. I felt so bad, I almost didn't leave. I think she knew that it was going to be the last time we were going to see each other...:( Just a few months later she had fallen several times and had several mini strokes in one day. She was never able to fully recover from them, she was put in a nursing home in hopes to get her life back some how. The family didn't want it but Dr's felt my Grandfather wouldn't be able to care for her at home.
My mother called yesterday morning to tell me she was struggling to breath on her own and that they felt she wasn't going to make it thru the night. She did though, she had to prove them all wrong one last time! Her small fragile body just couldn't handle anymore pain anymore.
I did speak to my grandfather this afternoon, he seemed to be in good spirits and told me he had been preparing himself for a while now. I am so worried about him. They have been married since June 5th 1956, that is a very long time to spend with someone. Now he's left here to carry on the rest of his years without her beside him. They have not been apart for many years, since my grandfather retired from the air force in 1976 (the year I was born). I have no memories of them ever being apart.
Now with my surgery a few weeks away, and my Grandmother's passing I can't help to think that I will never be able to show her how much weight I will be loosing after surgery. I wanted her to be proud of me for once, and happy that I was her Granddaughter......:'(
Some Good News!!
Oct 11, 2012
Eye Dr tomorrow, don't know if I really need to be going but I guess the Dr wants me checked out just in case. So back to Vanderbilt we go...lol
I am having a problem getting my fluids in everyday. I can make one tall glass of tea last me all day. I need to figure out something to remind me to drink.
Well, I guess I will tell you the good news now! I got a call first thing this morning from my Dr's office!!! ........I am scheduled for surgery Nov. 5th!!!!!!! Yea!!!!
A personal moment of glory!
Oct 08, 2012
Today wasn't as bad as I feared it to be. I was about 15 mins late to see the Dr. Boy they really don't like for someone to run behind. But anyways, for the last few days I had been stressing today. Meeting with the Dr and knowing I had fallen of my diet wouldn't be good news. I went in when the nurse called me, my legs were a little wobbly walking up to the scale. Kicked off my flip-flops, by the way I think it's time to put them away for the, my toes were frozen by the time I got home winter....lol.
But I stepped on the scale and the numbers started to roll......then there it was! 476.....:/ I had gained ONE pound in a month. I had truly thought I had gained the weight back that I lost the month before.
As I followed the nurse to my room it started to set in that I failed my self in some ways. I had a great month before and lost 15 pounds. She gave me a goal of 10 pounds for this month, and I had set a goal of 5 pounds. The pressure is on as I sit and think about my first set back on this journey. They say everyone has them, but I truly want to make this weight loss adventure something to be proud of.
Yeah everyone is saying, "It's only one pound! Don't beat yourself up over it!" To me that one pound is like a huge mountain. (maybe a little extreme) I know it's sad for me to think of it that way. Loosing this weight that has tied me down all my life is one of the most important things going on in my life. I have been put down, treated badly by family and friends, missed family and friend gatherings (some were of my choice and others were their choices) never flown on a plane, and countless other things. Just like many of you that might read this.
I want to get through this and stand tall and proud, not stand out because of my body. Be normal and blend in with the crowd. But I'm sure you know where I'm coming from.
At the end of my appointment the doctor stood up, she said "well lets get this letter typed up and out to your surgeon!" I think that was the happiest moment in my life!!!! I am now all done with the required tasks they gave me to do in order to qualify for surgery! So the waiting game begins once again, I have to wait for the gastric bypass office to find me in the piles of other people and get me a surgery date. I am only one of many waiting for their moment of glory. :) That day is ever so closer than it once was.
Feeling a little down today.
Oct 07, 2012
I have fallen off my healthy eating the last few weeks...:'(
Guess what is coming up tomorrow! Yep I go to see my PCP and the old scale is sure to be there. I am so afraid that the 15lbs I lost last month is packed back on with more on top of that.
I was feeling so much better, not as much pain in my legs and knees. And getting up the stairs to go to bed was getting easier, but now I am winded buy step 8 out of the 13. I am so disappointed in myself and afraid that I might loose my chance of having surgery, or the date might be pushed off even further (haven't got a date yet though)
I also keep wondering how much longer I will have to wait for them to submit my case to insurance, and will Medicare OK it? If not then am I descended to die from my weight? They told me I would have 10 years left about 5 years ago, so time is ticking away for me. Or at least that's how I'm feeling.
I just got to learn to suck up the pain, and work harder at walking. Then learn to say no to people who want to bring me down, I know I am better than this and stronger tan I think I am. I just have to figure out my way I guess....:/
I guess venting does help me feel better sometimes....
This is me before..later is coming soon!
Oct 06, 2012
Hi, I am new to this site. I think this is a good place to be able to be me without being put down for who I am. I hope t be able to meet new friends and get helpful ideas for my weight loss journey. I hope to be getting my surgery date soon, all I have left to finish is getting my letter from my PCP. I see her Monday morning!..:) Well hope everyone is having a blessed night!
