A personal moment of glory!

Oct 08, 2012

Today wasn't as bad as I feared it to be. I was about 15 mins late to see the Dr. Boy they really don't like for someone to run behind. But anyways, for the last few days I had been stressing today. Meeting with the Dr and knowing I had fallen of my diet wouldn't be good news. I went in when the nurse called me, my legs were a little wobbly walking up to the scale. Kicked off my flip-flops, by the way I think it's time to put them away for the, my toes were frozen by the time I got home winter....lol.
But I stepped on the scale and the numbers started to roll......then there it was! 476.....:/ I had gained ONE pound in a month. I had truly thought I had gained the weight back that I lost the month before.
As I followed the nurse to my room it started to set in that I failed my self in some ways. I had a great month before and lost 15 pounds. She gave me a goal of 10 pounds for this month, and I had set a goal of 5 pounds. The pressure is on as I sit and think about my first set back on this journey. They say everyone has them, but I truly want to make this weight loss adventure something to be proud of.
Yeah everyone is saying, "It's only one pound! Don't beat yourself up over it!" To me that one pound is like a huge mountain. (maybe a little extreme) I know it's sad for me to think of it that way. Loosing this weight that has tied me down all my life is one of the most important things going on in my life. I have been put down, treated badly by family and friends, missed family and friend gatherings (some were of my choice and others were their choices) never flown on a plane, and countless other things. Just like many of you that might read this.
I want to get through this and stand tall and proud, not stand out because of my body. Be normal and blend in with the crowd. But I'm sure you know where I'm coming from.
At the end of my appointment the doctor stood up, she said "well lets get this letter typed up and out to your surgeon!" I think that was the happiest moment in my life!!!! I am now all done with the required tasks they gave me to do in order to qualify for surgery! So the waiting game begins once again, I have to wait for the gastric bypass office to find me in the piles of other people and get me a surgery date. I am only one of many waiting for their moment of glory. :) That day is ever so closer than it once was.

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