What a difference a year can make!

Apr 09, 2012

  When I left my house on April 14^th 2011 I was scared to death. I had 3 break downs before I ever made it to the hospital. Both my brothers asked me why I was so upset and if I sure this was what I wanted to do. I wanted to scream NO this was a mistake let’s just forget it and cancel the whole thing! When I got to the hospital I was still in the same mindset that I had made a horrible mistake. Then my parents came in the holding room and I could see the look on my dad’s face of pride. He had wanted me to do this for so long and kept waiting and gaining and I think he was so scared that he would get that call that his only daughter was seriously ill or dead. He had received enough of those calls from his brother and sister who were all over weight. My mom was the same way. This had been such a long journey for us all and I know they were so happy and if they weren’t worried they why should I be. I know now that it was all a front and they were just as scared as me. 2 hours later it was all over with! I’m so grateful that I made this decision and didn’t let a few nerves stop me.     Top 5 things I learned 1.      Throwing up is gross but I learned to get over it and keep moving.  2.      No matter what you have to accept the new you. You are no longer the same person and it’s not just the weight that has changed. 3.      Keep moving even if the scales don’t 4.      Gastric Bypass is a tool not a fix all. 5.      If you get off track get back on and keep your focus.   Now that that is out of the way I won’t sit here and say that this was the easiest thing I have ever done. I will say that is has been the most rewarding. I’m doing things that I never thought I would. I’m wearing Jeans something that I have never done in my life. I’m walking and actually enjoying it and not counting the steps until I can to stop. Family and friends no longer have to baby me and check on me every few steps to see if I’m ok or if I’m keeping up or need a break. I’m making plans for my future that I never really thought would be possible. I know this has been a long post but I wanted to just sum up this year with how it started and where it’s at now. I’m so excited to see what the future has for the new improved me!                 

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