My New Journey~chapter 3

Nov 17, 2011

 November 17, 2011

Today is day 11 of my dearest sleeve, and yesterday was so eventful good and bad.  During my journey I had agreed with myself to only weigh myself on Wednesdays. I weighed myself when I left the hospital last week 11/9/11 and I weighed 294 which is down 11 lbs. from my pre-op diet of liquids. Yesterday was also my first post-op visit with my surgeon, and luckily I weighed in at 287...wow 7 more pounds. My surgeon is so happy with my healing process, I have had very little pain or reflux, no vomitting. So i walked out of his office on cloud nine, then a couple of hours later I went to my WLS support group, which is a great resource for me. I left my meeting and met with my boyfriend and children at Buffalo Wild wings for a school fundraiser. I went into this event knowing I probably would not be able to find anything on the menu and would be OK drinking water, as of course I don't have much of an appetite. As everyone was eating, I felt strange for the first time ever, I looked at all the food I would of eat in the past, then ordered mac n cheese from the kids menu. Yeah, i know 10 days out not a good choice, but I justified to myself that it is mushie. And it would be ok if I chewed it until it melts down. Then I ate a teaspoon of spinach/artichoke dip my favorite, and it is like pureed. So I can only eat 3tsp of mac n cheese and stop.

I must admit I feel guilty as my sleeve is not ready for mac n cheese, so sure enough I get home and lie down and I have reflux from HELL!!! I am so disappointed in myself, why could I not resist, my tummy is still healing. Well, I forgave myself and realize there will be days like this...willpower and better choices here on out.  I am strong and I

can do this!!!

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