TinaMS
I can't wait for my surgery. It is scheduled for April 30th. I have been wanting to do this for years but haven't had the guts to go through with it. I had a phobia about going under the knife but now that I am 43 I feel it is time. I have been over wieght since my teen years and have always wanted to be proportionate to my height. Being 5' 1" has been hard on me, always the shortest in the group but never the lightest. Ha ha. I want to be able to do the things I love to do physically, like gardening. The last few years I just can't bend over and kneel the way I used to. It is hard to admit to myself that it is because of the weight but it is true. I know that having this surgery is going to change my lifestyle but I know it is now or never. I want to be able to go on vacation with my husband and really enjoy physical things. We finally took the kids to Disney in Florida last summer. My kids are 15 and 16. I just dreaded all the walking. I had a hard time keeping up with them. Next time we go on vacation I want to be the one in front telling them to hurry up. LOL My husband of 18 years is very worried about the surgery. He loves me the way I am, which is great but I want to love myself just as much. It might seem to people that are close to me that I don't have a confidence problem but that is what I want them to see not how I really feel. I am successful in my career and am respected but I don't like to be in the forefront of things. I like to work in the background if you know what I mean. I can be out front when I have to but I don't like it. I am hoping with this surgery I won't have to fake the confidence anymore and be able to let my true self out.
