Gone but not lost

May 11, 2016

I have stepped away from OH for a long time. I actually didnt' think it was as long as it has been.

Many changes in life.. loss of a couple family members, grandchildren issues and myself just being so busy, not much time for me.

Im my absence, I have tried my best to stay true to myself and to keep on track.

Has there been some off track times? Yes.

Have I pulled back and won the battle? only in short bits

 

I continue to struggle, but I still believe it can be done.

Yes, I have put on a few pounds... and I work daily to recover and get rid of what has landed on my wings.

I need to ideally take off 15 pounds, that would be the docs goal.

I would love to take off 40 pounds.

 

Words to all is stay true to you and keep on keepin on

K

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4 years and counting.

Aug 12, 2012

As the years tick by, it is hard for me to think back about how things used to be. Sometimes it is because, I don't need too, want to or I just plain have a crappy memory. Needless to say I have never and will never forget where I came from or how far I have traveled.

Over the years ( I sound like it has been a gazillion) I have gathered more information, learned and taught others different things along their journey's. I have learned a lot of neat recipes, I have created many of my own meal plans/recipes. Had some one told me I would of done this long ago, I would of shot them a "Yeah, right" attitude. That was the old me.

What has been my favorite memory so far? One that comes to mind was the first time my mom seen me after I had lost some of the weight, she was clueless to who I was until I said "Hi mom" the look on her face was priceless. She said she thought her mother (as a teen) had walked into the room, I was her ghost. We sure had a good weekend. That trip was her watching me complete my first 5K. Special times and memories.


For the past few months I have struggled to keep my weight down, it is a never ending battle. At my very lowest I was sickly looking, I had lost to much weight. Now I am exactly where my surgeon wanted me to be, not where I want/wanted to be. I hate when others end up being right. People tell me I look awesome and "healthy" now, that I have put a few pounds back on. I personally hate it and feel frumpy most days. It is more of the mind not catching up with out body. This will never change.

My plans for the next year? Are to continue with my health and keep true to myself. I need to still be accountable for my actions and keep active. I am thinking I will let go of my gym membership of current and try a new one/angle with that same yearly money. It is time to fool the body and keep it guessing. When one thing don't work we need to try new things.

I also plan on getting to the bottom of what could be wrong. I have a number of food issues lately. I am pretty much on soft foods, as soon as I eat dense protein, I become sick. They have ran a CT scan that came back ok. I tried to deal with it after that because I am sure they think I am making crap up in my mind. It might be time to get crabby and start demanding more to be looked at. Spend thousands to find out nothing more then we already know? Yep, can't take the money with me- might as well invest it in my future health LOL

This has been me in a nut shell for the most part.
Thanks for tuning in.
Kelly/tink
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Weight Reality

Feb 28, 2012

I have not posted here in 4 months.

In that time a few things in life have changed. The most important one is that Weight loss/ weight gain will forever be a part of our lives. We are the ones in control of what happens on a day to day basis.

My scale makes me mad and I am finally after three yrs and plus months avoiding it more, there is no longer that urge to weight in every day. Why?

Because the weight loss has stopped and the bounce bake is here. There doesn't seem to be any rhyme or reason some days. I can switch between 8 to 12 pounds difference in a day to day life whirlwind. Problem?

Hell yeah! Drives me crazy. Dealing with the issues of a female getting older and making the move to her next realm in life the dreaded "change" I am sure that added to the mix is not helping this bouncing. I must make more changes.

Ok, now that I have ranted and blowin off some steam, it is time to get back to work. Just wanted to chime in and let everyone know I am just as normal as the next person and still face the same issues as others, none of us are perfect.

Take care/chime in
Kelly/tink
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They were earned

Oct 08, 2011

My mom earned her angel wings on Oct 5th, she is now at peace. I was raised by a strong woman and that is what I have become. I shall make it through this. Life has been crazy and stress levels at the highest for the past few months. With that being said yes a few pounds have returned, maybe up to 15#. I will get back on track when things settle down. I have the gift of not turning to food during stress, I actually just don't eat which is just as bad as eating. Hospice told us at this point we just needed to make sure we had something in our tummys even if it wasn't the correct tiems, it would still keep us alive and energized. Eating will be important again in a few days.
Kelly/tink 


 
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Know your body

Oct 18, 2010

Back in Aug when I had my 2 year follow up and had been graduated from the program, I had told them I had some odd pains in my stomach/sides and rib area. He poked,pinched had me cough etc.. and said " I don't know what to tell you" your doing fine. This all kinda kept up for a time, never on a regular basis. It was not earth shattering but at times bothersome.

Finally in Oct, while I had went away for a weekend retreat (Weekend in the Pines and Walk from Obesity). I ended up getting one of those pains,pretty sharp. It was at that point where I finally thought "self you need to check into this some more".
On Oct 8Th I called my surgeons office, just to ask some random questions on what they thought it could be.
After talking to them a couple times, The doc said he wanted to see me.

Oct 11Th- Went in to see the surgeon, He checked me out and said we need to do some surgery. He was going to remove my gall bladder and do some exploratory surgery and make sure nothing else was wrong.

I was not having "classic" symptoms of gall bladder, but he said we will take it out in case, that way I wouldn't end up with yet another surgery down the road.

Oct 14Th- Surgery, no wasting of time! They removed my gall bladder and cleaned up scar tissues. I am off for 2 weeks and will return to work with lifting restrictions for yet another week or two.

I don't know what he found or what all he did, I will not see him until the 29Th of Oct.

I know I am sore, as should be. I know I can't take oxycodone (allergic) and I know I am not having some of the same symptoms I had prior to surgery. So, whatever they did must be correcting those issues.

My eating pattern is back to step one as it was almost 2 yrs ago. I can handle 2 ounces of food at a time, staying away from fatty foods and drinking fluids. Vitamins are not as regular as normal, working on that- it is the least of my issues today or tomorrow. Healing,pain control and rest are my tops things for now. Happy note some of my 9 pound regain is decreased since surgery and that bloated feeling is going away, the two must of been related.

Shall keep this page up dated as I find out info along the way. We are forever learning and listening to our bodies!
Kelly/tink
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Graduated

Aug 27, 2010

Today was my 2 years follow up appointment with my surgeon.

Surgeon said I am a success and he doesn't need to see me any more, he will call once a yr and make sure I am ok- any probs call him. That leaves kinda an odd feeling in a persons soul. Saves me a few bucks a year too LOL

 He thinks my weight is wonderful and that the numbers don't lie, proves I have been doing everything I needed/need to do.

Weight= 134.0 (original 257) regain of 9 pounds.

BMI= 23.7 (original 47)

Fat%=25.7 (desired range 23-34%)

Fat Mass= 34.5 lbs (desired range 29.5-51.5 lbs)

He says to expect up to a 15 pound regain, that just doesn't work in my book! I will try what I can to make that not happen, I can tell it is already creeping up.

 Keep working at my Vit D. Keep up my exercise and keep eating right. Last comments were that I should carry sugar tabs (like diabetics have) in my purse,make sure I am sitting down when my sugars get low and have a sugar wafer,stay safe. He said they will keep inviting me to the marathon 5K's, they are making that an annual event for WLS and Cardio patients.

 Ok, so in a nut shell I look wonderful on paper, now to get my mind to agree. Shopped for more clothes today.

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Silly Me!

Nov 10, 2009

                                                                                           

I often reflect back on the days gone by and notice where I have went and what I have become. I know others most likely do this too, but for me it is always like a WOW moment.

I have learned one valuable thing in the past couple of weeks. One I think needs to be shared. Maybe that way others will not make the same mistakes.

A couple weeks ago while at work in class, I had a desire to chew on a piece of gum. Knowing the rule is no gum, I only put in a small (half) stick of gum and basically would let it sit in my mouth without chewing it all the time. Don't get me wrong I have been chewing gum throughout this past year, with no issues!

This was my unlucky day! The gum slid down my throat and I was in a place I could not just run out of class and hack it up, I had to deal with life as the card was dealt. I really was not worried about the gum being swallowed, it was only a small piece, right?

So very wrong on most levels! At the time everything was fine. Went to eat lunch could only eat a small bit of my half cup of food. No big deal, thought it was a grouchy pouch day. After lunch I got that oh so full feeling and tummy kind of cramped. I walked it off in the hallways and after 45 minutes I was feeling ok.That eve during dinner, the same thing happens, the cramps returned. I then had a bell of brightness come on in my little head. ITS THE GUM! it is stuck!! Mind you this only took like 6 hrs to figure out, shakes head in amazement at how slow I can be sometimes. I ate some papaya tablets and nothing helped. I finally gave up and went to bed at like 6pm,for the night. Telling myself if I felt this bad in the morning I was not going in!

By morning the gum had finally made it to another junction in the body and I felt ok, a bit sore from the cramping but, good to go!

The moral of this story?
I will never eat just half a piece of gum again! Always full pieces that will not slither away from me
That's my story and I am sticking to it!
Kelly/tink
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Final Measurements ( Maybe?)

Oct 24, 2009

Have not posted any new stats in about 4 months. Things have slowed down, as they should. I am now trying to maintain my weight and body form. Here are my newest stats:

Key:
       
(   )=
starting size

Neck= (16.5) 12.5

Upper L Arm= (17) 11
Upper R Arm= (18) 11

L Wrist= (6.5) 5.75
R Wrist= (6.5) 5.75

Upper chest= (47) 31.5
Breast Area=
(44) 32

Waist= (46) 28
Hips=
(54.5) 36

L Thigh= (27) 18.5
R Thigh=
(27) 18.5

L Calve= (17) 14.5
R Calve= (17) 14.5

L Ankle=
(9.5) 8.5
R Ankle=
(9.5) 8.5

Total inches lost head to toe= 121 inches.

Pants= (22W) 5
Shirt= (2X) XS/SP 4-6
Undies=
(10) 7
Shoes= (8/8.5) 7.5
Rings=
(8) 5

Total sizes lost= 27 sizes

Total weight lost=
                      Starting weight 257
                       Current weight 126
                Down 131 pounds in 13 months. (should be done).
I have passed my Doctors goal by 24 pounds. I have 1 pounds to go to reach my personal goal.
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The verdict is in.....

Aug 24, 2009

One year later and I am down 125 pounds!
Clothing sizes are way down along with that too.
Someplace I have lost 10 pants sizes...8 shirt sizes.....and a number of jewelery sizes,shoes etc. IF found do NOT return them to me!!

Regrets? Heck no!

Today was my one year follow up appointment. The surgeon is very happy with my progress and congratulated me a few times. Then he let me kind of have it. He wants me to NOT lose any more weight. Says I am at the perfect size and need to maintain. He is worried I will become malnourished if I keep going down and then he says I will have more issues to resolve. He took my labs today, which is unusual, my PCP usually does this. The surgeon didn't want to wait longer to see where I am at, he wants to hit any issues now, not in 6 months. He also set up for me to go see the NUT as he thinks she needs to set up a plan for me to maintain and see where I am lacking. He knows I still can't eat more then half cup of food per meal. He was not to happy that I only intake approx 800-1,000 calories a day and thinks maybe my protein might be on the low side,even if I get in 60 plus grams a day. Sometimes you just can't please all the people in the world.

I will be waiting to see what wisdom the NUT bestows upon me soon!

More up dates as things/results become available.
Kelly/tink

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Status Changes

Jul 01, 2009

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She
hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her.

She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.'

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.
 
He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The girl looked at her
boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her.

She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.
 
Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine.'
 
This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Never forget where you came from, How you want to be treated or who was there for you on your journey!

Kelly/tink

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08/12/2008
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