January 10,09

Jan 10, 2009

Wow!!  What a roller coaster this has been so far.  I went to see my doctor yesterday and lost 45lbs!!  It feels amazing and I am seeing Dr Amson on the 22nd, so hopefully will have dropped some more.

It' s been a challenge though, sticking to the diet, especcially over Christmas Time and I've slipped several times.  At least I knew I did and tried to stay away the next time.  Now that I am back at work, things are easier and back into a routine I can cope with.  I had to go and buy some clothes the other day and what  a nice feeling it was telling the lady in the dressing room to please get me a smaller size  The feeling was amazing.  My girlfriend went with me and couldn't believe her eyes.  It all made me feel so special.

But............  emotionally, well, I think there are still a lot of things to figure out and cope with.  I am losing the weight that gave me the low selfesteem and other issues, why am I feeling the way I do??  I don't know.....  I just have to take it one day at a time, recognize what is happening, see my doctor and with help, get through this.

I think the most frustrating thing for me is, trying to figure out what to eat, how much, what to avoid.  When I have a cold, sniffles, headache, what can I take for medications, what should I stay away from.  I realized the doctors and pharmacists don't know enough to give me an educated answer and that frustrates me even more.  Well onward and forward!!!!  Will have an update again once I've seen Dr Amson.  Good luck to everyone, still waiting for surgery or who had their surgery and walking this road with me

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