It's happened...falling off the blogging wagon after surgery :(

Feb 05, 2009

Hey everyone!

Thought I update my progress.  I don't want to be one of those who falls completely off the blogging wagon on this site, but I think I know what happens.  This site is very carthartic for you when you begining or in the middle of the process.  It's a place to put your fears, frustrations, and celebrations.  When you're post-surgery and you've come through recovery, you put your "crutch" aside and don't need that aid anymore.  It's not an abandoning, although it seems like it is, it's just a moving on in the new phase of your life.  Trust, I still come here to read and post periodically but not so much journaling.    Now that I have that little confession :)

I am now in my 4th month out (surgery was 10/27/08).  It wasn't until January that I finally began to feel like myself!!!  That was a rough 3 months, emotionally - trying to establish this new relationship with food -  I didn't see it as my best friend anymore, I didn't even want it but knew that I had to have it to sustain life....That was totally different than the past.  Before it was eat, just to eat.  It was strange not to get hungry!  Even now, I only experience hunger if 5-6 hours have passed since I last ate my 4-6oz of food!  imagine that 4-6 oz of food at a meal and it still takes about 6 hours before I get the "I'd better eat or I'm gonna pass out" feeling.  More often than not, I know it's time to eat because I start to feel bad, not because I feel hungry.  When I eat on a time table, then I tend to eat less at the next meal, because I'm truly not hungry and still feel full from the previous meal. 

Like so many post-ops, I still struggle with getting in my fluids.  My hemoglobin was 4 at my first followup appt.....4!!!!  Not good, so I am on a boosted iron regime - 60mg chewable plus 2 Women's one-a-day.  I am down 57 lbs since surgery, 87 since my start in this process!!!!!

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About Me
Winston-Salem, NC
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54.9
BMI
RNY
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10/27/2008
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Nov 03, 2007
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