Tracey R.
Pre-op BMI: 48.3
I am happily married with 3 children ages 12, 5, and 2. I have been over weight basically since puberty. I have never let my weight get me down, until recently. I had a bad pregnancy with my last baby and the weight didn't fall off like it always did before. I am very excited to get this surgery, I have been researching it for a couple years now.
6/4/04 Met with Dr. Overcash.
7/13/04 Today, I attended the nutrition class in Ocala. It was very informative. Before the class I stopped off at Dr. Overcash's office to hand in all my paperwork. My thyroid panel is missing, I had it done 6-16. Patrice said that she would be sending out my paperwork on Friday. It really feels good to have everything in, but I am not going to stress over getting approved.
7/15/04 Called Patrice, thyroid panel still missing...so I called Quest and had it re-faxed. I hope my paperwork will still be sent out tomorrow.
7/20/04 Went to the support meeting tonight, I enjoyed it...I met some wonderful people. I will be attending another local meeting with my husband on Saturday. I think I finally figured out why I am so scared of becoming smaller then 230 pounds... I was a size 16 or 18 at the time and I felt really good physically, unlike now. And that is when I met my husband. I know it all sounds silly to most people but I am afraid my husband won't like me if I am smaller. He fell for me at 230, loved me even more at 341 (my highest)...what if at 160 he don't like me....Yeah I know, I am being totally silly. Tommorrow I am going to call Patrice and see if she sent out my paperwork.
7/21/04 Well.....I called and found out that my thyroid panel was just found today. The name was wrong on the thyroid panel...was spelled Keihle. Patrice is faxing it out right now. I am offically waiting now!
7/23/04 I am a bit confused....I called my insurance company to verify they got the fax on Wednesday, she said I was approved, she even checked it 3 times. I am not excited yet, I need it in writing to be excited...she even gave me an approval number. So limbo...am I or am I not. Today has been such a day...my dad had a stroke year ago last December, he has recovered except for a bit of a stutter. After this stroke he finally started to go to the dr about things. Well, he sees an Ocologist ever few months...well all has been well till todays news. My dad only has a few months to live, he has melanoma on his lungs and liver and possible his brain too. So on a day when I am pretty sure I have been approved to start my new life, we find out my fathers is ending.
7/27/04 I called my insurance company again, and sure enough I am approved for surgery at Monroe, with a tenative date of 8/25. I will wait for Patrice to call to confirm this. I am not really excited, too much crap going on right now. We did find out that the insurance company will be paying to fix the sinkhole under our house. Atleast we dont have to pay out of pocket for it.
7/29/04 Madeline called today to schedule....my date 8-4, which is my oldest daughters birthday. I had reservations about planning it on the same day but my family said this is really important for me and not to worry about what day it is.
8/3/04 Well it is the day before my surgery and I feel really good about my decision. I am scared, but excited about the out come. Troy and I will be leaving at 4 am to head to Ocala. I have taken the Magnisium Citrate and it didn't taste that bad. I have tasted nastier items! I took it at 12:45 and still no "action". I was a bit concerned and called Patrice to see if I should take more, she said drink some coffee...just get them moving..lol Tonight we are celebrating my daughters birthday since I won't be here tomorrow. My mom will come to Ocala on Thursday and hang out with me. I have told Troy he must work Thursday...I hate that he works on commission with no sick days or vacations days. Well hope all goes well and I will be posting when I return home.
8/6/04 I am home safe and sound...I will post more when I feel up to it.
8/18/04 Well thanks to Charley I couldn't post for a while. Today we got our power back, it took 5 days ::sigh:: While we had no power I thought I was doing horrible at losing weight...I had major doubts about success. I had to get my staples removed 2 days early due to an infection on the surface. The reason was from being hot and sweaty from no AC, but I was washing it with cold water..I think that played a part too. So we drove up to Ocala early and I found out I lost 21 pounds as of 8/17 and today I am 2 more pounds down. So at 2 weeks I am 23 down!!! Dr. Overcash was a little shocked that I gained 19 pounds before surgery, but then I explained that my father is dying of melanoma, only a few months to live and my mom went into this....lets have some fun and eat. God everything revolves around food! But he did say in the end I am doing great :-) I can't wait for next months weigh in.
9/3/04 Well we lost cable on the 21st of August..we got it back today. This will be short and sweet since Frances is coming our way and I need to prepare. I have been doing really good I think, I am down 40lb today, and tomorrow is my month anniversary. I am feeling really good about my loss, but I have gotten sick a couple times, I think due to eating too fast.
9/19/04 Had my 6 week check up on 9/16, was admitted to Munroe due to stricture. I thought it was normal to feel nausiated after I ate and to vomit occasionally. I was dilated on 9/17 and now I feel like a different person. Today, I finished a whole egg for breakfast, instead of 1/4 of an egg. My energy levels are increasing which is great, now I need to start exercising. At my check up I was down 41lb...when I got home I had gained 2 more pounds from IV fluids, I was dehydrated. Today I am down 5lb already. I hadn't been losing a lot lately, well basically since I started soft food. I am hoping I am back on track now.
9/23/04 Well I am down 3 pounds this week, I guess I am back on track...44lb lost now in 7 weeks. I feel that I am slowing down, I am so afraid it is going to stop. I have a cold with sore throat right now...gosh it has been a bad few weeks. Stricture, possible gout and now a cold. I went to Dr. G yesterday about my sore big toe, got a shot and blood taken, see what happens in a couple more days. Atleast this cold didn't effect me like they use too, I am still up and moving around. Someday I will feel good enough to use my Y membership.
9/30/04 Today was my 8 week check up...50lb down offically now. Dr. Overcash was so happy with my progress, that made me feel great :-) I don't have to go see him for 3 months now.
10/20/04 Today I am down 61lb and found out I have to get needles in the joints of my big toe...arthritis possibly. I am feeling great physically beside the toe. My family went on vacation to St. Pete Beach...I felt normal at the pool not embarassed. I did all the driving, climbed on top the SUV to put on the car carrier, pack the carrier, unpack the carrier...it is great to feel this good. I also went to Epcot last Sunday and didn't have to rest as much as I did a few weeks ago at Magic Kingdom. My family is sooo happy with my phyical and emotional changes.
10/31/2004 I am down 67 pounds now. I didn't get the needles in my joints, but I had a nerve test and may be a disc problem since now my other big toe is hurting. I am having CBC done on Monday also checking my 120 day blood sugars and for anemia. Hopefully someday I will get an answer on why my toes are numb and hurt in the joints. I missed water aerobics yesterday, I was feeling really sick, but I went to the meet and greet. At the end of the meet and greet my voice started to go and my throat started to hurt...well now I have pretty much lost my voice and I feel like complete poo. I have been taken tylenol cold and that is help for the first time ever. I will hopefully get back to water aerobics tomorrow, cuz I love to exercise now. My 20 jeans are getting loose now...my tops are still atleast 22, but 18/20 if I want to go tight. I am so glad I did this surgery my life is changing daily.
11/7/04 I lost 7 pounds this week!!! It feels great!! I went shopping all day long today, and I am not even tired from it.
11/14/04 I lost 1 pound this week, but I know I lost inches, the 20 pants are going out the door soon. We are getting ready for vacation to NY to see Troy's family. I know they will be shocked to see me now at 74 pounds down. I am still a bit sick, draining sinuses again. I have another UTI...2 in 6 months now. I didn't have one for over 10 years before this...it sucks. They are grouting the house now and the house is falling more since they started, that sucks too. Today I ran in flip flops...lol who would of thought I would be even running 3 1/2 months ago. I have soooo much energy now...that DOESN'T suck!
11/17/04 I went to the OB/GYN and weighed 250 sooo 77 pounds down.
11/19/04 Tonight we are leaving for NY...I hope I still lose even though we are on vacation.
11/29/04 Well the trip went very well...surprised a lot of people up there. I only got sick like 2 times so I was very pleased with that. I lost 8.5 pounds during the vacation!!! I am down to a size 16 pant and XL shirts. Hollie bought me a new pair of satin pjs...XL and they fit great! My mom freaked out when we got back cuz I was so much smaller...people are really noticing that see me all the time. Ronda at school told me today that I am looking soooo different. It truely makes me proud to say that I had surgery and I have successfully lost 86 pounds!!!
12/12/04 Well last week I was retaining water..no loss. But I increased my water and protein again...doing shakes occasionally thru out the week. I am offically down 90lbs!!!! I feel sooo great! I was up on the roof tonight helping with the Christmas lights. I even jumped over the balcony railing..lol funny thing to be proud of. I see Dr. Overcash on the 21st...I wonder will he be happy with my successes....
Well on a sad note, dad's chemo didn't work, we have hospice now coming over. The house is still uneven...we need to wait a few more weeks before they decide to pin. I start school in January I can't wait to go back...no one will recognize me :-)
1/06/05
I am down 103 pounds now!!!! I am having bouts of vertigo now I am going to get my blood checked on Monday with Dr. G.
1/10/05 Went to the ER last weekend....I am perfectly fine!!! They did a CT and finally found fluid behind my ear which was causing the vertigo. In fact I haven't had a spell since Sunday! I feel back to my normal self. I cancelled my appointment with Dr. G since they did my blood work at the ER and I am good to go. I will go to Dr. G at my 6 months and get blood work again just so I stay on track with him. I weighed myself tonight and I am -106...it feels great. I am going back to school tomorrow, I am getting excited, no one will recognize me.
1/15/05 Usually I weigh on Sundays but I did a day early this week...5 pounds down total -111.
1/23/05 Well this week I had no change...that time of the month :-( Ok well I had a change, on Friday I weighed and I was up 3 pounds from last week...then today I lost 1 pound of the dreaded water weight. Next week I should drop it all and then some like last month...I hope. I hate that time of the month!
I just found a formula that told me how much excess weight I have lost already...I have lost 76% of it, pretty good for almost 6 months out. Just subtract starting weight from goal, then divide your actual loss by your excess and multiple by 100.
2/6/05 The scale finally moved!!! I am down to 214 now, I was hovering between 216 and 219 for 3 weeks. I guess my body needed to catch up since I am losing sooo fast. I did lose a pant size during the 3 weeks..so I guess I was losing inches and no pounds.
3/8/05 I have weighed myself early this week...2 pounds down already. I have been only losing a pound a week for about 3 weeks. I have lost a total of 123 pounds now! My ultra low jeans in a size 16 are getting very loose :-) This feels great to be shrinking so much.
My dad is getting sicker and sicker, that really has been depressing to watch. It is so hard to be happy about losing weight and having your dad dying in front of you. He is so proud though, years ago he wouldn't of been so supportive.
The house situation is on going...the 16th the structural engineer is coming to check the house.
3/13/05 I hit onderland tonight!!! 199!!! I am overweight now too!!! I can't believe I am under 200 pounds I haven't been like this since I was 18. I feel wonderful!!
4/3/05 Well since my last update things have gone up and down. After that 7 pounds I dropped I gained back 3 of it. I did go see Dr. Overcash and he said I looked great...lol what a shocker, I am always afraid he is going to yell at me. I weighed 202 at his office and he said he wanted me to drop 25 more pounds, but he said I will go below his goal. I have to go see him in 6 months again..I saw him on the 21st of March. I have been slowly dropping those 3 pounds in the last few weeks and now I am down to 198...my 14's are super loose now but I am not ready for a 12 yet. Oh funny story, I went and bought underwear...didn't even know what size to get. So I grabbed a pack of 7's...they fit and loosish too! I was shocked I don't remember ever wearing a size 7 panties.
I have increased my water and protein...I am adding unflavored to anything I can figured that would jump my weight loss again and it did. I am now 21 pounds from Dr. Overcash's goal...and I feel great!!!
4/9/05 I am down 3 pounds this week...I guess adding unflavored protein to stuff will help me lose again..duh..lol I am 18 pounds from Dr. Overcash's goal now. I saw my mother-in-law yesterday...I haven't seen her since Thanksgiving. She didn't even recognize me :-) She told my husband later that I look really good :-) I love that coming from a woman that is a size 6 and still wears a bikini and looks great in it.
4/26/05 Well I haven't posted lately because on 4-13 my dad died. It went very quick and he was lucky he didn't suffer. We are doing as well as can be expected right now. I didn't lose much weight the week of his death, I wasn't eating I was so busy and my mind was on other things. I am down 136 pounds now and 14 pounds from Dr. O's goal. I am wearing large t-shirts now...all the XL's are too big. My jeans are getting looser and looser...I will soon be a size 12, I never thought I would say that ever. We are going to NY on June 1st...we are taking mom with us too. Mom and I will be taking the kids on our 2 week trip from there and Troy will fly home. I am very excited about this...I am going to see so many people that haven't seen me in years and years and years.
4/29/05 I had the flu/cold/sinus issues this week...I was soooo sick all I wanted to do was drink fruit 2O day and night.... I weighed myself today, I am down 6 pounds!!!! I have lost 142 pounds total, I am 8 pounds from Dr. O's goal!!! And my BMI is 27.3..he releases you at 27 but I am not going back til September. I bought a new dress for the wedding...size 14 due to my chest size...it will fit perfect by the time of the wedding. It is really clingy right now...and I still looked good...I feel I am blessed for having good skin. We bought a weight bench system thing tonight...I am hoping to start to build up some muscles :-)
5/2/05 Well I went to my new GYN and I probably have a prolapsed uterus :-( I am going for ultrasound on Thursday and should know in a week if I do. I will have to probably have a hysterectomy at 34 years old. The doctor said my weight was a factor in hiding it for so long, that is why I have more and more pain and pressure as I lose weight. Well anyways I am down another pound...143 down.
5/21/05 Well I am down another 2 pounds...so I am losing about a pound a week, I am 5 pounds from Dr. O's goal now. I don't have a prolapsed uterus..it is the fibroids that are causing the discomfort. I can have my uterus removed if I want but it seems like it hasn't happened in a while now. We are slowly getting ready for NY, MI, and WI trip. I will be busy all weekend and week getting things done. I can't wait to see everyone! OH this is exciting my BMI is 26.9!!
5/30/05 I weighed myself and down 2 pounds, I am 3 pounds from Dr. O's goal now and I have lost 147 pounds total now. We are getting ready for vacation busy busy today. We had to move our bedroom to downstairs since they have deemed our area unsafe now. Someday our house will be fixed.
6/12/05 We are back from vacation...I am sooo glad to be home. I did hit Dr. O's goal last week I am down 150 pounds..yeah!!! I will write more later after I get rest and weigh myself this week.
6/14/05 Well I weighed myself I am 4 pounds below goal now, I am 173 now.
6/27/05 Today is my son's 13th birthday :-) My son is so proud of me..he says that I don't look like any of the other mom's I look hot. He is so cute! Well this weekend I went to Citywalk to meet some people from the convention, I had a good time, felt a little uncomfortable though. I know it may sound dumb but I feel bad sometimes because I have lost so fast. One lady said wow your so flat now, meaning my tummy...for sure not my chest since I am a 34D...lol I have to roll them though. People didn't recongnize me at all, didn't even know who I was til the end when Lynda brought out a paper with our posting pictures on them. One lady didn't even realize I was part of the group at first. Like my mom says, it looks like I have been skinny all my life I guess.
I am down another pound this week, last week I didn't loose anything, so -155 now. I went and bought new jeans, 10's in the ultra low rise and 8's in the low rise. I went and got a new swimsuit too...8-10 now. The top fits perfect the bottoms I am weird about, no skirt this time :-( I may look flat but there is a bunch of skin there that I need to be gone.
7/1/05 Well down another pound this week, looks like this will be a habit, 1 pound per week. We found out we have to move out of our house for the tear down and reconstruct. It will take them 2 months to get numbers and stuff together, so that will be the point we move out and then 6-8 months minimum for rebuilding the garage, 2 bedrooms, a full bath, maybe the kitchen, pool deck, driveway, all new roof and everything else fixed. We also get a cage around the pool paid for!!! Yeah!! I wanted that bad.
7/6/05 I weighed myself early this week..down a pound already, -157 and going.
7/10/05 I am down 2 pounds this week.
7/23/05 I am down 161 pounds now...I weigh 166 now...getting closer and closer to half the person I was. I really watched what i ate this week and took in tons of water and lost atleast 2 pounds probably 3. And my BMI is 24.5!!!!
7/31/05 This week is my 1 year anniversary...wow I have changed soooo much. I am down another pound this week so 162 pounds down and I weigh 165. I had to buy new jeans this week...I lost inches over night again and my jeans were way too loose. I had to buy low waisted 6's and ultra low in an 8. I bought a sexy cami and panty set in a 36C and medium bottoms. It is so great to have changed this many sizes from 3x or 4x to a medium top. I bought a LKO shirt and got a medium and it is comfy not even tight.
I have 1 1/2 pounds to go til I am half what I was. I am having image issue these days though. I didn't consider myself fat when I was fat but now I think I am fat when I am no were near fat. If I look down at my body I see fat but in the mirror I see skinny. My legs don't even touch when I walk anymore..I have a small space down there. I have to go see Dr. O 9/22...I wonder what he is going go say. I hope he don't say I have lost too much.
8/14/05 Well I am half the person I was..I am down 165 pounds, I weigh 162 today! I am so happy about my weight loss. Sad thing is I have caught Epstein-Barr from my husband..so I have been constantly sleeping for the last 2 weeks.
8/20/05 Well I thought maybe I shouldn't weigh myself anymore, I am happy where I am now if I don't lose anymore no skin off my back. With that said...I am addicted to the scale, I am down a pound this week...166 pounds lost now and I never wanna find them. I feel pretty good except for the headache I have had for a month, doc gave me some pills that help though but I sleep more.
8/25/05 I am down another pound this week...and I am sooo sick. I got the flu on top of the EBV, this sucks. I had high fever for 2 days, now I am draining like a sink :-( I am soooo congested. My mom is getting worried that I am losing too much weight, I told her not to worry I can be 146 to 156.
8/28/05 I am down 3 pounds this week total..I am 158 now, down 169 pounds. I need to get new jeans again, last time I bought a 6 and a pair of 8's, the 8's are now too big for me. My husband is finally telling me the truth if I see a heavy person and I ask if I looked like that, before he would said nooo you were smaller. Now he tells me yeah you looked like that...I say that bad? He says yeah you looked that bad. I never thought I would get this small ever and it isn't stopping yet...
9/25/05 Well I had my first plateu I guess..I have lost 1 pound this week after being stuck for a month..hmm maybe that is a stall. I was suppose to see Dr. O on Thursday but after I drove up there my appointment was cancelled...going back on Tuesday, I am sure he will release me. I need to go buy jeans still...I have still been tired from the ebv. School is going good and Troy quit ADT to go back to Makotek and do voluntary disconnects he is happy with his decision.
9/30/05 Well Dr. O released me on Tuesday, said I did great, hugged me twice and said kid get out of here! He said I can stop losing if I want or drop a few more pounds if I want. I went and applied for a job yesterday for leasing property/property management. We got the numbers on the house finally 378k to fix it and we have 404k total...we are going to have to move out for a year now though.
11/19/05 Wow been awhile since I updated. I am maintaining my loss of 170 pounds :-) I am still in a size 6 and somedays they are loose...depending on water weight I am carrying. We found a house to rent in Longwood, so it is close to home. We decided to move out after Christmas so the house can be partially torn down. I have been a bit down in the dumps lately..but I will be fine soon enough. Troy, Kate and I are leaving for NY next Tuesday...I am 20 pounds down and was a size 12 last time I was up there. I can't wait to get away for a couple days...excited about the plane ride too :-) School is going great, all A's but I am not sure if computers is for me...I wish I could pick a occupation! Troy went back to Makotek and has been promoted to manager of installations starting the Monday after we get back. Life is going great...I wish I could enjoy it. I joined Gold's Gym but it is hard with the kids to go...I tried to go Wednesday but they didn't have daycare at the time I showed up. I need to go mornings or evenings....I need to get out of this funk.
12/1/05 Posted this on the boards...going to just copy it to here, not feeling well still.I had a great time in Buffalo for Thanksgiving...everyone was surprised by my drop of 170 pounds. We got home from up north on Friday night...I had sinus issues up north as usual. Well anyways to the big story! Monday morning I woke up and ate my protein bar and got nausiated...like never before. I have had 3 kids and have never felt so sick in my life, I laid back down and fell asleep. At 10:30 I got up to put the dogs out and started to get tunnel vision, laid down on the floor and started to sweat profusely. I got up and made it to the bed, all day I was dizzy when I walked any distance. I went to school that night and still was feeling crappy, thought it was a possible inner ear issue. I even went to walgreens and had to sit on the floor...it was so horrible. I got home and went to the bathroom and boom I knew what my problem was...I was bleeding internally. I waited for the morning...I am stubborn and went to the ER. The doctor told me I lost 1-2 pints and sent me upstairs. My blood counts were 10 then 9.8 which is low but not horrible. I then got the scope and they found a small ulcer and cauterized it. My next count was 8.5 and then 7.9...damn!! I had to have a blood transfusion yesterday, they put 2 pints in me. My count went back up to 10.9 then 9.8, 9.7 and then 10 so they just released me tonight. The GI doc told me I lost 60% of my blood..I think he meant 40%. This has been the scarest 3 days of my life...go figure having this happen at 16 months out.
Positive to this...they weighed me and I have lost 175 pounds now. I stopped weighing myself 2 months ago.
Everyone becareful and listen to your body.
12/30/2005 Today is my 5 year anniversary being married to Troy...we are going out woot!!! I have been shopping up a storm lately...got a new coat I love it, size M too! I bought new jeans today size 4 wow never thought that would happen. I have lost more weight now I am 150 pounds that makes 177 pounds down. Oh I bought 4 pairs and new cute shoes size 8 now. All of this is so amazing to me...I never thought I would be this small, I never knew this body was under all that fat.
1/9/2006 Another pound gone...weight 149 now. I visited thinnerself.com and it said my goal should be 148 (99% lost), but the average for my age and height is 173. I think it is so funny that my doctors goal was blown away in June 2005. When I first started this journey I thought I was going to fail, stop losing weight at any moment, boy was I wrong. I do hope it stops soon though! After I get plastics done I am going like a 0-2, that is scary for me...buying a size 4 was scary enough.
2/13/06 Ok the move is done, took us 1 1/2 weeks to do it. I went to have my first PS consult today....14500.00 for Tummy tuck and Breast lift with implants...he was nice, but I will go get other opinions. I did like their scale showed 3 pound loss...so total of 181 pounds gone.
3/22/06 Things have finally calmed down around the house. I have decided that I am not going to get PS anytime soon...I really don't need it. I am maintaining between 146-150 now for sure. I am going to start going back to the gym this week and going to start jogging too. I have been working out at home but I might as well go to the gym since I am under contract with them til next November.
4/30/06 Yeah it has been awhile since I updated! We are still having rental home issues, but my threats are finally getting thru to the management company. Yesterday I went on a walk with Jennifer and Rhonda, had a blast! I even went out jogging/walking this morning, I need to move more. I need to do things for myself more often! I have been taking care of this family for so long and put myself on the backburner. I have been accepted to SCC for summer classes but A&PII if full so I am going to Valencia one more semster and then applying for SCC in January for the Nursing program. The kids are doing good, Jesse brough up his grades but I don't think enough for him to skip summer school. I am taking him to Huntington 10 hours per week right now and then he will have to do summer school on top of it. I have to postpone his surgery til July now also, if he does summer school. Nikky is getting A's and B's, she is a hardworker at school. Kate will be 4 on Tuesday, she is excited. Mom bought a Harley yesterday...she missed her old one. I made her cry saying Dad would of been proud she bought a new one, he was always so proud of his wife the Harley rider.
I am still maintaining my weight loss, but I am scared I am going to gain weight, but I am going to make sure I don't. I am going to get in better shape from today on.
5/10/06 Thank you all that gave me input on my letter, I think it is ready to go now. I attended class last night, I will have to back study a bit that is no big deal as long as my family helps out by leaving me be.
I am maintaining my weight loss still, no gains at all, I weigh 1 time a week to 1 time every few weeks. I go by how my clothes feel on me. I bought some new clothes and couldnt' barely find size 4's and 6's...I bought a pair of 6's and they are too big after wearing them a few minutes. I need to find a store that sells a lot of 4's...I know whine whine whine but damn I can't find clothes!
5/30/06 School is going good, I am getting my money back for the full cost thank god. I got a 97 on my first test but I am afraid I will go downhill soon. The kids are being horrible during the day and people aren't helping out with the normal things everyday so I am doing it all and not studying as I think I should be.
I am having a lot of joint problems...the left side of my body is in pain mainly. My labs are great...I don't know what it could be. I am taking more vitamins now just to see if I will feel better. I have added B100's, Glucosamine, Iron caps, and skin, hair and nail vits. My wrist has been feeling better since taking them but now my thumb joint is messed up...I still can't straighten my left arm. I wish someone would say what it is, I didn't injury myself ever. My PCP says one thing and my chiropractor just keeps trying to fix it with traction.
I am also so afraid to gain weight now...getting close to 2 years out. I am always asking my family am I gaining, am I getting fat again? I wanted to go to the store yesterday and buy a bikini yesterday but I didn't, I think I will soon.
6/22/06 I am doing great, still maintaining my 181 pound loss...I am so aware of even a little weight gain these days, that I freak out. I gain a little bit of water weight during that time of the month, but that is all. I am doing really good in school mainly A's and couple B's. Kate is having issues, she has PICA...we tested her for vitamin deffiencies and she don't have any. Her doctor mentioned High Functioning Autistic but that don't fit her at all. We are now thinking Asperger disorder, which makes a little more sense to me since she is very social and very intelligent. Who knows it all don't make sense to me at all. Jesse is being tested for ADD finally...I can't blame other things for his behavior anymore. Nikky is doing really good, still a dram queen though.
Last weekend we all drove to Tampa to go to Busch Gardens...stayed overnight too. The kids had a really good time which makes me happy and more willing to do this again.
7/10/2006 Things are going good...Jesse's surgery last week went very well, he also passed summer school so I have a high schooler now! The girls are doing good, Nikky is getting really snotty, I blame myself, she sees me so angry at everyone and she is copying me. I found out I am losing again, I orginally got down to 146 (unclothed) then I went up to about 152 (clothed) been maintaining that for months. Other day Nikky and I weighed ourselves...she came up 76 which is normal for her...I was 147 (clothed). My clothes are a little bit looser...I bought a new outfit for a wedding, was a 6 which is normal for me. I think I look hot in the outfit..I need to post pics :-) I am looking forward for school being over, I have 101 with extra credit added in, I think I passed. I am going to put my application into SCC after this semster. I need to get my transcripts and orientation done this month though. I need to get off my dead ass and do it though!
7/14/2006 Well my strong marriage when in the shit hole tonight. Troy left me! He told me a few weeks ago he would fight for our marriage that he would never give up on us...but he contacted a lawyer last week about divorce. I feel so damn betrayed right now!!!!! Mom says I don't need a 30% husband..I need to be powerful again. She said I changed after I met Troy 6 years ago..and not for the better. I can't believe he says today we need to talk after I asked him why he is acting funny. But he wouldn't talk til after I got home from class, but he tells me on the phone I love you we will talk later. We go to bed...I ask ok what is up, long silence....I say I have been changing my ways lately, been trying to work at our marriage. I have been so stressed with the house and stuff and kinda took it out on him and the family. I have been doing really good...like he said we would work things out. Well he says he are done...WTF?!? He didn't even try at it...he was still addicted to the computer, he wouldn't do things with me, he wouldn't share his thoughts and feelings. WTF!!! he said he wanted to fight not give up ever, he said he wanted to be married to me forever a couple weeks ago and he calls a lawyer last week while I am trying?!? I feel so damn betrayed right now! I mean geez he is going to bed normal...I asked what is up, he says it is over, we talk and talk and talk and then he leaves in the middle of the night. My mom said he is being dramatic about it...leaving in the middle of the night! He didn't even kiss his daughter good bye but he takes that damn computer...gah I am really pissed off.
7/27/2006 Weighed myself I was 152, 2 days after Troy left...now 12 days later I am 136. I need to eat more, geez!!!
8-4-2006 Well I made it to my 2 years. I have had a lot of crap happen in my life and if I would of never had WLS I would of eating myself to death.
2 years ago I was 327 and today I am 136 at 5'9. I recently lost 16 pounds in 12 days due to my husband leaving me, but now I am eating again. I hope I put on a little of that weight I dropped though.
Good luck to everyone in there journeys!
9-21-2006 Life is up and down...i have lost more weight 134 now. My husband and I are going out to dinner tonight, he asked me out after seeing me hanging with someone new. I hope things go well I am excited. School is going great, writing papers every week right now. I am very happy with myself inside and out.
10-21-2006 I was recently in the hospital for dehydration...lol watch drinking alcohol! I have been going out with friends from a social group I met online, having a lot of fun. Troy and I are still separated, he wants to work things out now, but I don't. I find I am much much happier without him. I have met someone very special, glad to have him in my life. Finally I feel special to someone, he is a gentleman and treats me very good. It is nice to feel this way, happy with myself and happy in a relationship.
I have been trying to gain weight but it isn't happening, I am happy where I am at, bit boney but I like being a size small and my size 4 jeans are loose, so now wearing juniors 5's and they are getting loose. I am doing great in school, done in December and my application is going in for next Fall. I am trying to find a job, but no luck as of yet. The house is coming along great also.
10-27-2006 Lost another 2 pounds, down 197 now to 130. I am weight training now, going to work out everyother day. I saw an old friend last night at Bally's...she had surgery with Dr. Overcash too. I was so happy to see her! I hadn't seen her in like 3 years, she didn't recongnize me, I hope to keep in touch with her from now on. Life is good, this weekend is the pub crawl wearing my pirate outfit, will post pics. My honey is coming for 10 days next month, I can't wait.
1-11-07 Well I got into another relationship I didn't want....controlling man and put me down and make me feel like crap. I ended it before he had a chance to come here. The holidays were crazy, shopped a lot. The house will be done within 2 weeks and we are moving in 2 weeks from today. I am so excited about this chapter being over in my life. I took my last class before I put my application in, got an A, so Fall I will be starting the RN program since my GPA is 3.6, I am a shoe in. Troy and I are still separated, I have changed so much and I don't wish to be with him anymore. I have a new group of friends, all non WLS which I love. I am just now the really skinny Tracey girl who is a blast to hang out with. I just bought a size 3 skirt, it looks so damn hot. I forget to eat still and drop down to like 130, then i eat more and up to 135 again....it is hard to keep balance.
1-21-07 I got a job!!! We are moving back to the house the 25, 26 and 27th of this month, then I start work after the move. I am sooo excited! The job is only 5 minutes from the house, gonna work til I start the RN program. I will be working nights so no need for daycare costs...all positive things. Yesterday, I saw Amy B, she joined my meet up group and we all had a blast, was great to see her and I am so glad she will be a part of our social group.
1-28-07 We are done moving...it feels great to be back home! They moved us in 1 day...it was very stressful since they showed up late and then came with 2 trucks and said we are doing it in 1 day. Last time it took 2 days, 1 u-haul and a pod. Mom is in pain from all the working and is going to get knee replacement surgery in March. I am starting work on Friday, I need more time to get things together at the house and had the keys over for the rental. Kids are doing great, Kate broke her collar bone a few weeks ago, but is doing fine now. Jesse is a pissy teenager with a huge attitude. Nikky is gaining weight and it kills me to see her like this but she is aware of it and is trying to change her habits. Troy and I are dating each other right now, slow baby steps, see what happens. I am going out with my friends a lot and having fun, which is what I need.
3/7/07 Doing great still!! I am working full time now at nights and making great money! I am still struggling with keeping my weight up from 130...I am usually around 135-140 but I can drop weight very fast if I forget to pay attention. My clothes start to get loose and then I graze more. Yesterday I went shopping for a skirt, had to buy a 3 and it is a bit loose. It is so hard to find sizes at times, I went from not finding cute clothes in big sizes now I have to search and search for something that fits right, grabbing 3's and 5's. Whenever I go to support group, which I choose not to go anymore I get comments like your too skinny over and over from people that don't even know me at all, also people I know that have had surgery say this. I can't help my body wants to be like this, I wish people would realize I have only sight control over this...we are all different. I am very lucky I haven't gained weight like others I have seen in the last few years. I am very proud I have the will power to follow what I need to do to make this surgery a success for me. Don't get me wrong I do understand that some don't get to goal because their body has issues but I have seen a lot of people I know eat and eat and eat, gain weight back and blame their bodies.
4/9/07 Working hard...and loving it. I am finally standing up for myself again. I am a strong person and don't need to be taken advantage of. The world is mine! Been going out with my friends again...doing more things with my family. Troy and I have been going out to dinner again and talking. He sees great changes in me and wants to make sure they are perm. He says he wants to work things out but don't know if he can...so it is all on him. I am giving him til July to decide..that is 1 year of separation.
6/22/07 Wow been awhile since I updated. Troy and I are still how we were...not together. I did quit my job...kids and house were getting out of control due to my hours away. So I am back to being a at home mom..getting the things done I need too..busy busy. I will be looking for a new job when school starts....Kate will be in kindergarden this year, my baby is growing up! I am going out with my friends, having fun! I take my mom with me, they love her. Mom and I get out more and live more since Troy left, which is a good thing. This weekend is girls weekend at the beach...got 2 suites on the beach leaving on Saturday morning for a day on the beach...and night of dancing and flirting! Sunday we are going on a party boat with 30 of my other friends to do fishing, I can't wait. I am feeling really good, still a size 5, weight goes from 135 to 140...actually I feel great!!
4/18/08 Well..I am still a size 5, I gain a little and can drop it fast...I am not in the norm of what I hear about WLS patients. I am happy very happy right now. I am just finishing up my first semester of nursing school, I passed and loved it. I met a great guy 2 months ago and we actually have moved in together...the kids love him. I am still married to Troy, waiting on this divorce stuff...he is still on the fence about everything, which is BS since been almost 2 years since he left. He is moving back to NY this summer so Kate will have to go back and forth to see her dad.
7/02/09 I gained back....never thought it would happen to me since I had so many problems keeping weight on. I stopped smoking last year and gained weight. I am 180lb now and size 11...everyone says I look better, cuz I was TOO skinny before, but I miss being too skinny! I have been with my boyfriend for over a year now..things are going good we live together. I am divorced finally from Troy. Kids are growing up fast..Jesse is 17 now. I am back in nursing school...I had to get out of the night program and go to days. I have 2 more semsters to go and then I am an RN...keeping my 4.0 too. I am exercising...LOL I didn't have to exercise during my weight loss..now I am paying for it. I walk and jog for 30 minutes per day and started palates...I hope this works and I get back down to my size 4's and 5's again.
9/26/09 Couple weeks after my last post I found out I have MS...5 brain lesions and demyelinating on my left optic nerve. 6 days later I was admitted again to the hospital for a gallstone, who would of known you can have one without a gallbladder and during the liver scan they found my fibroids were huge!
I went back to school but had to leave due to medical. I started Rebif for the MS, 3 shots per week and I had a hysterectomy 2 1/2 weeks ago. I feel great and I am down to 161 pounds due to being on topamax for the migraine headaches.
I go back to school in January for Peds, the school is very supportive thank god. Everyone has been great and I am glad that the hysterectomy has fixed a ton of issues that I didn't even realize were grouped together. The Rebif is helping the leg issue that started after my dx of MS and having less stress is helping too.
Hopefully my next update will be more positive :-) Oh it is positive I lost weight!!!!
